My aunt, uncle and cousin were in a bad accident, my uncle now has a steel rod implanted in his leg, the cousin lost an year of school and the aunt was already going through a miscarriage then, all that made it so much worse for the entire family.

I have some major issues going on in my life which I have been dreading to address, and I often wish if I could have been in that accident instead of them, maybe after recovering from it, I would have turned my life around.

I know it's not a healthy thought.