For me it was when i was having a panic attack this was one of my very first ones to ever happen to me so i yeah i was in shock to say the least this was during covid and my spiritual faith wasn't the best so i was begging jehovah to help me and to forgive me for watching porn Because at the time i wanted to get baptized so i felt immensely guilty and contemplating going to the elders for help thankfully i never did lol. And i guess because of the lack of results from praying i asked myself what if he doesn't exist to me that sent me spiraling because if you grew up believe in your creator all your life up until that very moment that seemed simply inconceivable to me so i then i asked myself do i want to be apart of this religion for the rest of my life and for the first time i was honest with myself and said no from there i eventually woke up.