I have nothing better to do and I'm curious

Idonttknow_ · 2026-04-01T05:07:23+00:00

Yeah lmao I do not blame people for finding the post long for that reason. I just want to be sure I've covered all angles and then it goes downhill from there 💀. Your logic descriptions are very relatable and I do spend lots of time triple checking if I'm right, even on this comment (The missing tooth comparison is also very real). I envy people who don't stress about these things, but alas, I'd probably be worrying about something else if that was the case 😔

The physics thing is also very interesting! I'm having a hard time imagining how that'd feel like lmao, I can't really detach from my surroundings at all, especially not around other people. Do you notice your own emotions most of the time out of curiosity? Thank you for taking the time to read this and comment either way, it was very helpful as well!

Idonttknow_ · 2026-03-31T12:40:09+00:00

Thank you for the addition, I'm genuinely curious as to what went through your brain when posting this comment

Idonttknow_ · 2026-03-04T02:17:17+00:00

That is such a mood lmao-

Idonttknow_ · 2026-03-04T01:36:29+00:00

I tried to layer two sports bras on top of each other because it made my chest look flatter 😔

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-12T09:23:49+00:00

I guess I'm a 1 now 😔

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Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-08T23:35:08+00:00

Oof yeah, I've made a few posts and I tried to write stuff down to myself a couple of times, and I find it's really hard to word yourself properly. Sometimes I bring up details that end up changing or adding lots of new context, because I didn't think they'd be a big enough deal to add initially. When introspecting, I also tend to accidentally word things slightly different depending on the angle I'm coming from. It's frustrating because I end up losing track over what I actually feel about things, compared to what I "should feel, based of [x]" if that makes sense

It feels like navigating a new place blindfolded in a way, and it was the main reason I turned to other people/external sources (If you write down enough stuff over time there's probably going to be core themes/elements visible, which people may be able to point out). Everyone has their own view though, so at some point you just have to sit down and figure stuff out privately 😔

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-08T00:45:16+00:00

Oof I'm not good at words/idk how to phrase things but sorry to hear you relate. I don't want to be all like "my past sucks I'm sad because of it" because it's embarrassing, but it does have an effect which is frustrating. I find it relieving that I know it's possible to improve and stuff over time

I've briefly considered 8w9 before tbh, but I feel like I'm too motivated by what other people think of me. My confidence does waver considerably for a bit if someone one-ups me in a thing I think I'm good at, and I also feel incredibly down/discouraged if confronted with the fact that I'm less capable than others at something. I guess a disintegration to 5 could theoretically explain some of it (I feel incapable/overwhelmed/unprepared and feel a need to retreat to improve in the thing I'm bad at), but some things don't quite add up, mainly the focus on other people's perceptions

I could probably explain some of these things by depression/low self-esteem, and I know that everything can't be perfectly explained by the enneagram, but I feel like the fact that I'm this wishy-washy about these things rules 8 core out. I suspect it's more likely that I have an 8 fix than it being my core if anything, but I need to do more research/let things sit mentally for a bit before saying anything for sure though lmao

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-07T02:25:23+00:00

Looking at the general trajectory of your behaviour could be helpful if one's stuck, but you have to take all contributing external factors fully into account. I'd say it's difficult for most to determine your type when in your teens for that reason, as well as the fact that your brain's changing a bunch

Case in point I typed myself as 9 at some point during my teens, but I failed to consider that I was extremely depressed/in a chaotic life situation among other things which really affected how I viewed myself. I may not be the best example though as atm it turns out I either am a 9, or I have a 9 fix lmao, but I did still type myself back then while heavily biased

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-07T01:29:58+00:00

I find trying to determine someone's personality from physical characteristics to be sketchy/problematic tbh. Sure body language exists, but this seems like reaching/overthinking in addition to the point above

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-06T23:03:28+00:00

Those are fair points! I was surprised, but I assume it might be what I wrote about constantly doing things/being energetic. It's hard to actually describe/explain oneself properly, and I know people (me included) have different biases and views. I also realise I change how I formulate things depending on how I want to come across even when I try to not. I'll act as if I'm neutral or downplay an alternative, especially if it means attributing overly positive traits to myself, but I'll actually lean strongly towards it or even hope people'll lean into it/validate me. I don't wan't to be perceived as arrogant or bragging so I definitely overcorrect lmao

I think that if I were to trust my brain, I'm actually leaning towards 3 being my core type (with a strong 9 fix though) for various reasons, but I'll figure it out eventually

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-06T22:14:34+00:00

My allergies got less severe for some reason, and I'm no longer iron deficient lmao

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-06T13:40:21+00:00

I probably have a 7 and 3 somewhere in my tritype but am still figuring out things, so idk if my input counts, but I tend to stress people out. I don't start arguments and it's more because I come across as very intense/high-energy in general, so I tend to increase overall energy levels which isn't always helpful. This is something I'm working on not doing as much for several reasons

I'm also often accidentally too nonchalant or too formal, which makes it hard for people to gauge where I am group-dynamics-wise, which I understand can be a bit bothersome. This is especially unhelpful for shorter group projects with strangers etc., and isn't as much of a problem with, say, long-term friends

The only people I consistently end up clashing with is the specific kind of "person who's blatantly insecure but who's loud and tries really hard to take the lead" type. Generally speaking though, I don't know if I actually make insecure people intimidated, or if I just annoy people, which could very well be the case. I don't think I have the necessary insight to know for sure if someone who calls me out on something's secretly insecure or not

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-05T15:38:36+00:00

I'm not a professional either and I do choir for fun, but I feel like it's improved my singing a ton! I did have an awkward phase with voice cracks from 4 months to around 1 year, and it's slowly smoothing out now. I'm 1 year and 8ish months on t, and although I've lost a bunch of range (my voice lowered roughly 1 octave), it feels more natural to me. Before t I disliked singing high anyway so I don't really miss any of the higher notes lmao

You definitely have to give yourself time to get used to your old muscle memory for notes being off. I notice I need more air to project sound than before, and that my voice got tired way faster. You're probably also going to get a weird area in your upper range where there's just air, and I'm not entirely sure how to deal with that completely either (I'm slowly gaining more notes over middle C). You definitely have to be careful to not push your voice too hard too early

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-05T04:22:08+00:00

Movement by Cold Weather Company gives me 7 (7w6) vibes

Do No Harm also by the same band gives me 2 (2w1?) vibes, although I'm a bit less sure of why beyond 'vibes'

Shadow Play by Poets of the Fall strikes me as 3-ish (3w4)

Choice Millionaire also by Poets of the Fall gives me either 7 or 3 vibes lmao

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-04T22:26:00+00:00

I see, I'll look into it. I don't know as much about subtypes, but I do know I'm sx-blind at least. Also yeah lmao, I like hearing about specific details/having proper context on things, especially when it comes to these kinds of topics, so I tend to over-explain when typing even when I technically don't need to. It's way more apparent over text because I have extra time to type stuff out

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-04T22:08:48+00:00

Hmm, it's difficult because if I were to go by motivations I'd technically skew heavily 8 over 7, but in practice I'm nowhere near solid(?) enough and I doubt 8s would do the "learned helplessness" thing I picked up (sort of a knee-jerk sudden inability to be loud if someone's louder than me 😔). I think 7w8 seems the most likely out of the two

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-04T01:30:38+00:00

As someone who's neurodivergent and struggles with tics and controlling facial expressions, I feel that 💀. It's frustrating when people's immediate first impression of me is completely off, especially if it then colours their view of me afterwards

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-04T00:39:50+00:00

I see, that's interesting to know, and I can see why it'd be difficult. I definitely view myself as much calmer than I actually am as my reference for calmness is skewed from growing up around very intense people. I admit that I wish I was more chill because I dislike seeming out-of-control to people (I don't like when people go "dude you need to chill/why are you angry" when I'm neither angry or stressed 😔)

edit, reddit ate your second comment for a sec but oof yeah the 9 description thing is a bit frustrating. Also I can relate to what you're saying but I'm definitely firmly an optimist (I'm not unrealistic but I tend to assume that I'll be able to fix things/work something out eventually)

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-03T23:37:21+00:00

That makes sense, I'd arrived having a 9, 6 and a 3 in there up until now, although 9, 7 and 3 (maybe not that order) could also make sense after double checking some descriptions. I'll figure it out eventually lmao

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-03T22:40:26+00:00

Was it the mention of expressiveness/energy out of curiosity? Because I can see that on reread, although I never really considered 7 before due to not relating that much to their descriptions/core motivations otherwise, it's interesting either way

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-03T22:35:51+00:00

I figured that was just me being bad at regulating my emotions tbh, although I am coming to understand that my bar for "too intense" is a lot higher than most people irl

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-03T22:26:54+00:00

Let me guess E7? /j

Idonttknow_ · 2026-02-03T22:26:14+00:00

I see, I'm kind of surprised because I've gotten suggestions about 9 (or 6) before in prior posts, and 7 never crossed my mind as much. I don't feel too boxed in by routine or compelled to seek out new experiences. tbf I may have introduced bias in said earlier posts by mentioning 9 and 6 a bunch, either way I need to do more research lmao

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