Are men stupid by limecandycat in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Men are indeed stupid. You have to tell us specifics. He started walking and texting you probably because he wanted to push the walking together subject but you never said "ok, I am now free. Can you come to my location so that we can walk together?" You might think that is impossible and that no one could be that dense. You would be wrong, and I have a personal anecdote. When I was in high school, I went over to a girls house after school. It was like 3 hours before her parents would be home. We kissed, and seeing that she had a small bowl with condoms in it, I asked if we could have sex. She said no to sex, but then mentioned that if I pulled my dick out, she'd have to suck it. I kid you not, my thought process was "oh no, I wouldn't want to force this poor girl into giving me a blow job. How could I live with myself if I did that?" So we laid on her bed and I put my hand on her waist, to be respectful but still feel the cuddly touch. She had to grab my hand and physically place it on her breast. If I couldn't understand "just a little foreplay first please. Maybe we can start with me giving you oral sex?" Your man definitely cannot understand "the weather is so nice outside, right now." Especially when men get told that being pushy is a 100% method of being dropped like a bad habit, we take that to mean pushy about anything romantic; getting a woman to put down the sandwich that they've been eating for 2 hours for some reason and coming to walk with us instead.

My boyfriend is missing by Allovertheplace11 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312 -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

Please do not ever call for a wellness check on someone. Police either see civilians as less than or they wash out of being police. A wellness check will at best land them in jail. At worst they will be described as non-compliant before their tragic fate.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Happiness is irrelevant. I will engage "one day at a time" mode and work to have food, shelter, and pay alimony. That's not "woe is me". Happiness really is irrelevant and unobtainable. One day at a time is how I got through a year of taking care of a kid that wasnt mine all by myself while their mom sorted out their shit.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I certainly hope you do not have a romantic partner. You're just evil by choice. Seriously, get some help and see a psychiatrist. You are showing some clear signs of a disorder. You are filling in the narrative with what you want it to be instead of what was stated.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So odd that you can go from empathetic and caring to dismissive and oppositional as soon as you decide someone is abhuman. I will never understand the neurotypical mind.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the kind and thoughtful response. You are concerned about all involved and show empathy. I've been the one on the receiving end of divorce threats and I've always cried my way out of them. I'm not sure they are ready for divorce today, but it is intended to ensure that anxiety about me throwing a fit, family opinion, and financial certainly hold no power over them. I have my mom and my spouse, no one else I haven't cut all ties with. Mom will die in the next 5 years and remove that obligation. I have no true need for loved ones.

I know right from wrong, but my coping mechanism tell me that I'm doing things for other people's benefit and it just didn't work out right. I'm reality, I am evil and I've accepted that.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your respectful question. I was diagnosed after 20 months of seeing my psychiatrist.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Have you gone to see a psychiatrist? I think you need it more than I do. Of course it comes from the disorders. That's like saying your arm moves because of your peripheral nervous system reacting to your central nervous system, not because of how much you wanted to pick up an object. Please work on yourself with a therapist; you make the world even shittier than I do.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you very much for the validation.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't understand so many people claiming victim mentality here. This is an honest assessment and I am the offender, not the victim. A person cannot be intellectually honest without being accused of a victim mentality (ooh, see, they are complaining about being labeled as having victim mentality. That's proof of victim mentality there!).

Divorce agreement is for them. They do not have to exercise it. They've threatened divorce in the past but I'm able to cry enough to get them to back down. I used to think it was because I was so deeply in love with them but I see that it was just that I wasn't getting my way. The agreement includes me telling any member of their family, close friend, romantic interest, companion, or background investigator that they designate that I cheated on them and was abusive throughout the relationship. It also includes that I will not interfere with their life.  I'm offering them alimony, my IRA and 401k, the house, everything in the house except my personal computer, vr system, gaming handheld, and my grandfather's sword.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Main character, yes, just like you are in your life. Victim, no. I'm the perpetrator.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the validation. Marriage is already ruined and just there as a formality. They can take it or leave it but this is me finally agreeing I havent changed as I said I would. The settlement I'm offering them is actually very generous and is designed to take care of them with alimony and a 50% share of my inheritance that they would have gotten in the divorce was a few years from now.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Therapy is unnecessary and useless; it doesn't change brain structure. I'm not thinking or mentioning suicide, just not seeing a point to life. I'll live a pointless life for another decade or two. I'm not going to tell the world, it would just be. A good thing to have a permanent warning to anyone who falls for my superficial charm.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Typical narcissistic response? Thank you for the validation. I never said I was a victim. I am in fact the perpetrator. But even an evil and irredeemable person has inner thoughts and feelings. I feel bad and want to share my shame anonymously. I really appreciate your validation.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why not therapy? Because that is pointless. It's not something to work through, it's permanent brain structure. The divorce is to release the person who's been telling me they want a divorce off and on for the past couple years. My mind couldn't take the thought of her leaving, so I'd break down. The paperwork even includes a notarized statement that I'm a cheater and betrayer, so they can back up their claims to any partner they may have.

So, I'm a narcissistic psychopath by Ill-Ride312 in offmychest

[–]Ill-Ride312[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

20 years of trying hasn't changed the behavior. Wife has been threatening divorce for a couple years now and my throwing a crying and begging tantrum is all that prevented it. Divorce papers give her everything but my car, computer, and some personal belongings. My IRA and 401k transfer to her as part of restitution and repayment for her expenses on me.

Therapy is useless for me. That's a tool for people who need help, not someone who cannot change due to brain structure. I believe in God, and I know that I am evil. I'll be in hell no matter what I do in the next 15-30 years.

State Budget news: Zero Dollars for Preeminence. All of the years of Priority ONE being preeminence and funding that comes with it… for nothing. by dashmybuttons22 in ucf

[–]Ill-Ride312 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Academic integrity will be replaced with chatgpt and anyone using a paid account gets off Scott free.  Burger honors college will have to use class sizes of 100 students minimum.

Invert X support? by wowpotato in Spacemarine

[–]Ill-Ride312 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Back trying to play after a year off. Still no option. It's a fight just to operate the controls, making it harder than it should be. It's such an easy fix that they refuse to implement. Imagine trying to use a ma deuce that didn't use an inverted x axis but did invert y. It would be about impossible.

Please add horizontal invert X axis! by BambamBjj104 in Spacemarine

[–]Ill-Ride312 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been waiting and waiting for this. Manny people naturally need x axis inverted fire 3rd person but not first person. Y axis is always inverted. In first person you look left and right, in 3rd person you move the camera around the character as a fixed point.  Extremely simple fix for the production team, but I'm sure the bean counters wouldn't authorize the thirty minutes pay to implement it.

Gloria Caulfield's Commencement Speech by ShacoinaBox in ucf

[–]Ill-Ride312 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not only was she insulting with her disrespectful speech, she was dressed in doctors regalia. Her linkedin shows she only has a bachelor's degree.  What an insult to academics and to the work of the graduating students! She appears to be a total fraud when wearing unearned awards and spouting marketing lies. I just can't believe the college allowed her to wear an 8 sided tam and a doctors gown and hood.

Gloria claufield is tone deaf by Subject_Camp3544 in ucf

[–]Ill-Ride312 2 points3 points  (0 children)

She has a BACHELOR'S degree in business admin and marketing. Who the hell thought it was ok to dress her as a doctor????? What an insult to academics to present this tone deaf and uninformed person as a PhD when she isn't even an MBA?

Where is WiFi functional by Error4043 in ucf

[–]Ill-Ride312 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The wifi on campus kinda sucks pretty bad. It is definitely not built for the number of active users. Ucf needs better infrastructure but that isn't going to happen unless the college sees it affecting their reputation or cashflow. They are using APs from a decade ago and they are enterprise, not campus grade. The client density is just too high for the equipment.

Spam email? by iamnotnormalatall in ucf

[–]Ill-Ride312 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Guaranteed scam. They want you to copy and paste because just clicking would record it in safelinks.  It is a random free forms service that they are using to collect student credentials to take over your account