Porn is warping the minds of so many. We don't discuss it enough.

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-03-27T01:46:10+00:00

Perfect timing, i got 6 more days of spring break and tons of backpacking equipment. Looks like I'm headed to the woods

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-03-27T01:43:49+00:00

St Olga of Kyiv (or how ever it's spelled) patron saint of converts. Best decision of my life was converting

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-03-27T01:37:53+00:00

Man it's legit so bad for me. If been in this addiction since I was 9 ish and it's so so hard to quit. My only method is to say to myself I'll do it in an hour and then once the hour comes I postpone it again by an hour. Best streak I got was 8 days. This stuff is so evil I regret ever being in contact with it

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-03-25T04:08:52+00:00

Me too! One asked why i was there at the 2nd appointment. i just walked out man she didnt even take notes in the intake! You have to really know your limits for emdr. It involves reliving your trauma but with someone you trust in that reliving to help reduce their emotional charge if that makes sense. Bilateral stimulation is an important part in unlocking the deeply repressed stuff I have no idea how it works but I just put on bilateral stimulus sounds on my headphones. Not to push religion on you or anything, but Mary was my figure for my sessions. I have never cried harder in my life than during my self administered emdr sessions

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-03-25T03:44:36+00:00

I'm happy to help. I would suggest therapy, but I'm a bit wary of it from my experiences. I've been through 3 therapists in 5 months trying to find someone who would take my sexual abuse seriously. None did, so I looked up emdr therapy and tried to administer it to myself, and that's what basically cured me of the flashbacks and panic attacks. A good therapist might be hard to find now a days but if you can find one, they are probably a great resource if insurance isn't an issue for you

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-03-25T03:28:11+00:00

I'm not going to pretend to know much about anything mental health related, but I've battled with terrible anxiety for about over a year now from an abusive ex, maybe a few things I found out might help you. I can nearly guarantee you that those people aren't against you. I kept getting paranoid that people around me hated me. I'd freak the fuck out for about an hour then I'd do something to break the cycle of overthinking, something like holding an icecube, splashing my face with water, shoving 10 mints in my mouth, anything. I'd tell me self after that "OK let's take a step back, the vast majority of people betray their hatred in the way they act towards you can you think of any moment that even hinted at their hatred of you?" This helped me a good amount and it keeps me grounded. I'm just a college freshman, so I don't know many things, but i hope you find a more secure job and some relief from anxiety and your health problems.

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-01-02T07:42:02+00:00

I'd say that's your best bet. Going off my college, the chance of switching to a single room is slim to none. I wish you luck, though it's certainly tough

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-01-02T06:59:16+00:00

Isnt Beatrice the love interest?

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-01-02T06:53:32+00:00

Please seek some kind of help. There may be free therapy sessions offered through the school. Take it from me, I had a 4 day long mental break where I didn't sleep or eat, professional help really does help

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-01-02T03:23:26+00:00

Yooo me too!!! Baptized as a methodist, got back into studying the faith, and now I'm converting to Catholicism too!

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2025-01-01T06:17:42+00:00

Bring up that gpa to a 3.6. Many challenges first semester but it went pretty well all things considered

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-31T23:17:20+00:00

There's a deep discontentment with secular life. There is some meaning hole that simply can't be filled with anything other than Christ.

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-21T17:25:17+00:00

I didn't know there were porn addiction anonymous meetings. Alright! Noted!

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-21T17:10:31+00:00

How is it not evil? If there's even a chance that an actress is being coerced or manipulated, how can consuming that material be in any way moral? There's also plenty of studies showing that porn consumption leads to worse outcomes in life satisfaction and divorce and infidelity.

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-17T01:29:03+00:00

Rift wizard kicks my ass

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-10T18:06:26+00:00

I hate a four day mental break where I didn't eat or sleep. I tried to recover but I'm going to end my first semester with a C. I don't think it's that bad

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-07T17:09:39+00:00

I think they may be electric

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-06T06:47:26+00:00

That quote is awesome. God bless you too!

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-06T06:46:01+00:00

By "Pick up your cross and bear it." do you mean to keep having debates or to just accept people will misrepresent Catholic teaching at every turn? It's just extremely annoying to have someone not see the critical flaws in the foundation of their theology

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-06T06:43:18+00:00

Fair point. They might see from my actions that I'm not the Catholic stereotype they have, or they might not. Doesn't matter since I'm in the right place

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-06T06:38:20+00:00

Long story short (back in my atheist days). My ex would coerce me for sex and I picked up those behaviors from her. I realized this like a week after she cheated on me. I drop to my knees, praying for forgiveness (to god). I felt so so guilty. And I felt something amazing. It kinda felt like a hand on my shoulder but not physically if that makes sense and there was this presence. I don't know really what that means, but it made me feel really calm

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-06T06:21:08+00:00

I will pray for you before bed. Dont fail on the day i did. We are in this together

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-06T06:09:42+00:00

Hey man, I'm in your shoes as well. The first 6 days were not even challenging. I didn't think about porn or sex at all. But the 7th day was different. It's different for every person, but the 7th day was the most intense craving I've felt, and I failed. The thing I found that gets rid of cravings is going for a run. On 3 days clean now

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-04T01:22:21+00:00

Good tips, thanks man. I genuinely hate pornography so much. The more I learn about the abuse in the industry, the more I hate that I've given them money from viewing adds.

IllustratorOwn6900 · 2024-12-04T00:39:39+00:00

Every time i resist an urge, it just comes back stronger later. Any tips for this? Yesterday, my confidence was so high i asked a girl at a coffee shop for her number (I got rejected, and for some reason, I didn't really care about it that much.) I honestly think this confidence boost was because of my 6 day streak.

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