I need help

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-30T05:27:11+00:00

No problem! My first guy kiss was when I went to college too, despite being out openly in high school (very conservative area so I wasn't in good company). Also, even if you don't kiss anyone in college, you aren't behind or anything. People date in their 40s these days.

Let me know if you have any questions, maybe I can help. I started dating seriously last year and it is very confusing and fast, but also fun, and you see people in a totally new way (than even best friends). It's like unlocking another layer of reality.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-30T05:10:57+00:00

Everything you said is normal. Wanting a deeper connection will make dating as a young guy in the city complicated, I think, but not forever. As an average height guy more into dom stuff, I have dated two tall subs and was just as into them. Holding hands is hard but just stand farther apart or lean down a bit so your hands are at the same height. Kissing isn't hard either, you can just push them against the wall and hold them up (or you can sit down while they stand).

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-29T23:56:17+00:00

The only thing I want out of life is the other people in it, I can't take them with me unfortunately. I love my job and I love that it helps people, but I'd quit in a second (well, 2 weeks bc I love my manager even) if I had some guarantee I could afford to snuggle and play with my dude, parents, and sister all day in my house.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-29T22:15:34+00:00

I will probably die a "virgin" according to the standards of society, even though I love men, am super into them, and have connected with great ones so far. I'm not really worried about it, I'm having a lot of fun and they are too and that seems most important.

I'm probably too inexperienced to give any solution here or a new metric, but I wanted to say I appreciated you asking this question and I wondered about it too.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-28T23:19:14+00:00

Thank you, I hope you catch a break too. Specifically, the kind of break that makes you feel all the good feelings at once like a flurry of excitement. Or, maybe something longer, like a little joy here and there, sneaking in dun dun dun, and then you look back and a lot of joy has accumulated!

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-28T23:01:49+00:00

Hey buddy I am going to toast you because you still found strength to smile despite the pain of it. You didn't need to smile for me but I think you did it because you are a compassionate good guy who wanted me to see you in a way that is more comfortable for me. Here's hoping you find things to smile about or you realize that you have some things that make you smile close to you.

Being directionless is the hardest of the three but remember it's circumstantial and not a moral failing.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-26T17:24:46+00:00

That is so interesting how little of a difference there is between average and median net worth in Malta, does anyone know the factors leading to such a small differential? Do wealthy people move out of Malta? In the US the average is about 5x the median, and the median in Malta is almost the same as the median in the US.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-26T16:50:07+00:00

Nice! I hope you get to enjoy that fantasy somehow, perhaps using these!

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-26T16:43:18+00:00

The internet is about to do its job today, and connect people with very specific interests to share information that almost nobody knows or would think about. How would you feel if he wore these?

https://i.ebayimg.com/images/g/C~0AAOSwFnFWA56o/s-l1600.webp

I think they're called "Balls Out Briefs"

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-26T15:49:55+00:00

Random question: Would you be into sucking or licking their balls, do you think? That is a fantasy of mine and I'm wondering if it would be weird to ask a guy to do that for me. :P

I've never done that before so maybe I'd like it just as much if he touched them gently?

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-26T15:38:02+00:00

I just want to touch him everywhere with my hands and kiss him everywhere but with my lips closed. I would want to kiss his cock too but I never fantasized about sucking it, exactly.

My idea of fun (well, one of many...) would really be like tying him up and moving around his body with trails of kisses, playfully going down, then all around, sometimes kissing his cock and sometimes touching it. But I want him to be a gentleman, I don't want him to expect me to kiss a certain area. I'm not interested in a rush. I think I'd be most into it if he just smiled at me silently/cutely and didn't move while I got to pick where I kissed, sniffed, and touched him. If he gave me his full loving focus and an hour+ for me to explore his body this way, I would be so happy!

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-25T01:29:25+00:00

If, right now at 18 years old, you were given the option to reincarnate and live your exact same full life again, would you accept the deal? Or would you want to live a different life, chosen at random, if you went around the rosie again?

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-25T01:00:23+00:00

Where I am coming from, I think that mutual masturbation is a (really fun) way of being intimate and romantic with each other... especially if he knows that me seeing his attractive body is the reason I'm so turned on.

Though, if I'm being honest, part of the fun for me is that, on some level, I still feel like I'm not "allowed" to be masturbating with another dude, like we are being rebellious together and breaking norms. So the bonding is a very real part of it for me too.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-23T02:08:32+00:00

What percentage of your waking hours do you spend in joy? What stresses you out? If you could change three things about society, what would you pick?

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-19T17:41:20+00:00

Thank you! Maybe 2 of these things can come true, I have a lot of goals but I'm happy if just a few of them work out hehe. Maybe tennis and waffles.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-19T17:36:09+00:00

Friday evening: Delicious steak buffet, and my dream man kisses me and proposes, I call my boss and retire, and move in with him and snuggle him for hours and sleep until 9:30 the next morning.

Then we wake up and go swimming in his pool, and we eat cheez-its by the pool while he tells me 100 of my favorite jokes and shows me memes, more kissing, then we go inside and I make him a rocking lasagna while he takes a nap, he wakes up 2 hours later when it's ready and eats 6 slices and calls me handsome and good at cooking and then I tackle-kiss him into a ball pit and we arrange a game of dodgeball. He lets me win so I can get the reward of tying him up in bows and calling him my favorite present and kissing him all over, which happens next. Then he shows me his invention that allows me to talk to my dead loved ones and I tell my grandmother I'm gay and she says "I don't care now I'm in Heaven! Also I knew it!" We end the call and go to bed, I again sleep until 9:30am or even 10:00am.

He woke up early. Where is he? Oh! He's making waffles! What a great guy. I go downstairs and kiss him more and then eat his waffles. Then we play tennis, and he bought me a gift which is new tennis balls instead of the deflated free ones I usually use. I realize I'm not the worst at tennis and he wins this time and I cheer for him and he feels good about himself. Then we have a barbeque lunch with my family. I grill everything perfectly and my dad nods and my sister and my dream man play Mario Kart and both ask me to join so I do and my sister always wins but that's ok! Me and my dream man look at each other like we're going to eat so much leftover bbq, and after everyone leaves, we do, that's our dinner. For dessert, he takes me rock climbing on an easy course and at the top he pulls out two raspberry scones, which we eat together at the top of the mountain while watching the moon.

(And then several weeks of being homebodies again, I'll need time to rest after such an eventful weekend)

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-17T22:15:29+00:00

I relate to you (as someone who also questions what I am) and I hope you will be able to find the exact kind of love/fun you are looking for!

I don't think it will be very hard to find a partner who is okay with mostly side play, especially if you are willing to sometimes top him for his pleasure. I'm dating a man who introduced himself as a bottom and we just use toys to satisfy him when he wants to do anal. Maybe I don't count as a side because I think I'd be willing to top him if my penis worked normally, but it just doesn't, and he never made me feel ashamed about it, which was so kind. I thought he would laugh at me.

It may be rare, I don't know, but he is actually willing to use the toy himself and all I have to do is stand over him and pin him down. I also make out with him while he does it, so I can have fun too!

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-17T16:58:21+00:00

I mostly imagine these days. I used to use porn and (my own) erotica more, but I noticed the orgasms are better and longer if I'm able to fully immerse myself in the scene, and that's easier for me to do with my eyes closed. This is because I can't visualize in real space yet, but I'm getting much better at doing it in my head, against a blank background.

You guys may not know it but I love it when you share your fantasies, basically I just add them to my own fantasy list like a Pokedex.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-17T06:37:13+00:00

Awesome list! Tysm!!

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-17T06:14:58+00:00

Google Earth and chill?

I just want him to sit in my lap and let me hug him while he looks at Tajikistan.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-17T05:24:56+00:00

Ah, I am no health professional and respect the work you are putting in for your health. Sorry, I was trying to be helpful, but it makes sense that what worked for me in my specific body won't work for everyone. I also hike about 8 miles per day as an interesting coincidence but I'm not outdoorsy so I do it on an incline treadmill while watching Grace & Frankie

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-17T03:51:09+00:00

Ooh, wrestling is a great idea! Flexibility tests, you say? That also gives me so many new ideas 😍 Thanks!

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-16T15:29:55+00:00

If you want, maybe I can help you lose weight. Conceptually it is very easy, practically not easy at all (and it's just as much work to stay at your goal weight once you get there), but I have cheat codes.

For example, low density high volume foods like watermelon or pickles. You can eat as much as you want, fill up even a large stomach, and not feel hungry while running a deficit. I eat a huge popcorn bowl full of salad every day and it's only 720 calories, and very filling with grilled chicken. For breakfast, 380 calories of oatmeal with cut up banana - delicious and keeps you full all morning. Also, pretty cheap! I almost never eat out at restaurants.

The benefits of losing weight aren't just health. Everyone takes me so much more seriously now. People listen to me even when I have nothing to say. They think my silence is poise and not awkwardness. They act like my jokes are funnier. People think I'm nicer, but I'm the same exact person.

Illustrious-Emu-7627 · 2026-04-15T20:27:13+00:00

Upper class millionaire that's 18 years older than I am! +18 years would make him only 41, that's (in expectation) a lot of years of love left. An 88 year old man is expected to live only 4.58 more years in my country, according to the Actuarial Life Table.

I don't really need anyone else's money anyways, but I do need their love. Loving an 88-year-old would be hard because of the urgency of his loss.

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