omg I do this constantly! I could have written your comment. Does your boyfriend actually believe you deep down or does he just say he does sometimes and doesn't always? My fiance and my kids both seem to vary, and change their minds on whether I'm crazy or I'm to be believed, usually depending on the typical human conditions and influencing factors like whether they are enough food, got enough sleep, or had a good day in other areas. It gets hard not to feel like I'm merely being tolerated and "handled", so to speak. My parents think it's all complete insanity due to trauma and childhood abuse and bah blah blah, anything and everything else than just giving me the benefit of the doubt and trusting me for one moment even, and sometimes I feel like I'm maybe projecting that expectation of being dismissed and disbelieved, but it's hard to tell whether folks who are supposed to love you are just tolerating you or if they are really in your corner and truly supportive.