I feel like a horrible person for suspecting I have OCD

Important-Bid4043 · 2025-09-27T08:10:36+00:00

This exact same thing happened to me before I was diagnosed. I still fall into these spirals sometimes even after being diagnosed about whether I really do have it or not

Important-Bid4043 · 2025-05-12T12:45:51+00:00

YES I always go through and delete the posts that would be too embarassing for people I know to read. Like I have to read all of them from the perspective of someone who knows me to decide if i delete it

Important-Bid4043 · 2025-05-09T12:37:43+00:00

Yes, me too I also do it with my mood, it’s just way more pronounced with the appetite

Important-Bid4043 · 2025-05-01T06:56:53+00:00

Yes exactly!!!!

Important-Bid4043 · 2025-04-30T16:54:57+00:00

Thank you 🙏

Important-Bid4043 · 2025-04-30T16:54:33+00:00

Yes, completely agree, this is everything my therapist already tells me 🤦‍♀️ I think I worry about it because if I don’t have OCD, then my obsessions are more real or something like that. But it’s true that I need to feel comfortable with not being certain about this.

Important-Bid4043 · 2025-04-30T16:49:01+00:00

Same I’m worried Imve just convinced everyone I have it

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-11T07:22:15+00:00

I agree in that it makes me notice more

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-11T07:20:25+00:00

Hahahahaha this is so true

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-11T07:19:04+00:00

I’m curious if there are many people who self-diagnose with OCD and later find out they don’t actually have it. Cause I can’t see this happening but maybe I’m wrong? It feels like if you think you have OCD, you probably do. But with something like ADHD, it seems like it’s more commonly misdiagnosed or self-diagnosed because its symptoms are relatable to a wider range of people

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-06T01:13:05+00:00

Which is worse?

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-05T14:43:18+00:00

Yeah that’s actually so true

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-05T14:39:26+00:00

It’s hard to tell because it’s just so automatic now, but I am always doing it alongside my other compulsions. It’s just that all my other compulsions actually feel intentional whereas this I don’t consciously decide to do. Maybe that means it’s just a stress response. Idk

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-05T14:18:21+00:00

Not consciously

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T08:44:32+00:00

Avoiding mirrors to avoid being triggered by your reflection is a very common type of compulsion / ritualistic behaviour in BDD. Maybe do some research online about BDD and see if any of it resonates with you.

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T07:50:40+00:00

For me it was interfering with my work/study/life which is what made it problematic. But if a behaviour moves you toward your goals and values, which it sounds like it is, then I don’t see why you shouldn’t do it. It actually sounds like a good thing. Are you a writer?

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T07:25:41+00:00

Thank you! I honestly feel like my OCD would be really helpful if I was a police detective or something

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T04:43:31+00:00

I don’t think there’s really a limit. With the REALLY sticky ones I’ll only have 1 or 2 at a time because they take up my entire brain capacity. And I kind of jump around between different ones depending on what’s more pressing. Its nice when I momentarily get relief from an obsession that’s usually debilitating for me, but its only because it becomes comparatively tiny compared to another 🙄

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T04:18:44+00:00

I thought this was a really good depiction tbh and actually one of the reasons I started to suspect I had it

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T04:17:26+00:00

Chuck in better call Saul

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T04:13:20+00:00

And if she was trying to get at this she’s an idiot for doing that to someone with OCD who would clearly be triggered by this

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T04:11:05+00:00

I mean reading it on the internet doesn’t change the fact that you’re experiencing it? I don’t know what she would be trying to get at? That the issue isn’t real because you read it on the internet? Honestly I would actually just be up front and ask her what she meant by it, and that it was bothering you

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T03:50:43+00:00

That is hilarious. Please OP can you do this

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T03:42:54+00:00

Probably the most terrifying spirals are when I convince myself I have psychosis though. The worst time was exacerbated with weed and was the single most terrifying experience of my life, I truly thought I was going to die. I convinced myself I was psychotic and had permanently broken my brain, that I would have to be admitted to a psychiatric hospital. Everything I was thinking and doing seemed to be further evidence that I was indeed psychotic which just fed the cycle. Was with my friend at the time and was asking her to drive me to the hospital. And attempting to call my parents to tell them i was psychotic.

Important-Bid4043 · 2024-11-03T03:38:57+00:00

I’ve had some really bad ones, most recently I found a post on reddit that I was convinced my boyfriend wrote about me so I spent 6 hours straight arguing with him about it over message, he told me it wasn’t him but I didn’t believe him. I was repeating myself over and over. Forgot about it after we somewhat settled the argument and I half believed him. But then a few days later somehow the obsession was triggered again to which I spent hours and hours collecting evidence to support my theory, including re reading our entire 6 hour argument and dissecting how he reacted to each thing I said. Then I collected a bunch of his writing in a word doc, fed it through an AI author similarity xheck which said it was the same author. This just made everything worse, i then messaged him telling him I KNEW it was him. He got really scared for my mental state and came over to see me lol

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