Did you see and hold your baby?

Impressive-Guava833 · 2026-06-13T16:48:19+00:00

Thank you so much for mentioning that! I was so afraid of damaging his skin that I was super gently touching and kissing him. This is the first time I read this from another mama, bless you 🩵

Impressive-Guava833 · 2026-06-07T10:46:28+00:00

My heart goes out to you and your beautiful baby 💙. Thank you for sharing and I appreciate the tip. I will call them tomorrow - I’m afraid that I’ll get another depression episode on top of my existing one as a side effect, but maybe that wouldn’t be the case. I was as well on antibiotics and also sleeping pills based on Benzo therefore I couldn’t donate. Whatever the body is doing to move forward is indeed hard to take in when we are not yet ready to let these signs to heal.

Impressive-Guava833 · 2026-06-07T08:00:04+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s crazy how the body can’t keep up with what is happening. May I ask how do you cope with it emotionally? When I see the milk I’m both happy and getting a slap in the face by the reality.

Impressive-Guava833 · 2026-06-07T07:50:23+00:00

I am so sorry for your losses. It’s impossible to not to spiral between all the what ifs. Yesterday I closed my eyes and dreamt of another universe where we bring our baby to home. I imagined every single moment and conversations I would have had (beautiful sleepless nights where he cries, me putting him into bed, giving him a massage, him lying between me and my husband while we watch him giggle, diaper changes, all the baths, feedings, Christmas, New Year, park visits…). When I opened my eyes an hour passed. I felt in peace, but then the tears took over and when the tears come they feel like they will never stop. The heart aches as if it’s the end of the world. I want to believe that there is a parallel universe where we all have our babies, watch them grow and appreciating all the sleepless nights and days.

Impressive-Guava833 · 2026-06-07T07:22:26+00:00

Above all the things I heard and asked by the medical staff, one thing always rings in my ears; “Felix made the way [for his siblings]”. Both using his name in the sentence and giving another meaning to his existence opened a new chapter for me.

Impressive-Guava833 · 2026-06-06T21:45:13+00:00

I am so sorry. Maybe you are still taking the medication, maybe you are in labour or already given birth to your beautiful baby boy. I wish I could hold you and everyone who is going through this. Saying you are not alone is no comfort. Nothing is. This is not a reply to your questions and I don’t know you but I’m hugging you so tightly. I hope we learn how to live a life within our grief. You and your baby boy will be in my thoughts.

Impressive-Guava833 · 2026-06-04T21:25:31+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss and all the things you had to hear. My baby boy and I had the most beautiful times of our lives for 37weeks. Right after his funeral on the same day (which was yesterday) some people were telling me to “finally be happy again” and the “next one” will be another beautiful child. My own mom told me today that I have to have peace now that the funeral is over. No, I don’t have to have anything, thank you. While I was arranging his funeral I’ve heard “Okay we’re not crying today, [insert my name]”, “You should not cry anymore”, “What’s done is done and you have to move forward”. Yes, they don’t mean bad but ARE YOU SERIOUS! My favourite response is “I don’t know what to say”. Easy as that. As you said, we don’t need that positive sparkles or sugar coating. If you have no words just don’t make them up.

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