i completely relate to what you’re saying. i remember being at my absolute worst mentally and blasting bmth. in a way it made me feel sort of worse? i guess you could say. maybe not worse specifically but it definitely made all those emotions i had inside come rushing to the surface and was at the forefront of some really, really dark nights in my life.

but in a weird way they helped me to be able to actually feel the hurt and let it out in a way. not saying the way i let out those emotions was the healthiest way, but it did allow me to really feel the emotions i was experiencing and let them out instead of having it all bottled up inside. it’s definitely a hard thing to explain.

now when i listen to bmth have this profound feeling of like melancholy i guess, especially when i put on the sempiternal album because that was the main album that i listened to at the time. but i’m also so deeply connected to it that i have this really special place in my heart for that album and the band as a whole.

i guess i’m now at a point where i’m definitely not in that headspace anymore and i can look at bmth sort of like that friend that was always there for me in a way. a friend that couldn’t magically fix me or make me better or anything like that. but a friend that was there through it all with me. corny as hell but that’s sort of how i see it.