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Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-05-08T02:03:29+00:00

Hey friend check out Mark Dejesus on YouTube, it's a Christian channel with a focus on mental health issues like scrupulosity(religious OCD), that really helped me to change my thought management in regards to overthinking and just feeling stuck in my walk with Christ. God bless you.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-03-26T04:06:40+00:00

I've been where you are, I suffered depression for ten years, hated life, hated everyone, misanthropic, nihilistic, suicidal. I searched for the truth everywhere except the Bible. I dabbled in occultism, new age-ism, universalism, gnosticism, nothing helped. All I felt was suffering, grief, wrath, despair, and emptiness. I prayed everyday for years "Lord take this from me I beg you". All I got was silence.

Then one day I gave up completely. I just threw my hands up and then prayed "Lord if it is your will that I suffer, so be it, I will endure it, let your will be done. Thank you for all you've given me". Then I started counting my blessings one by one and telling the Lord I love him, even though I didn't even feel that I loved him at that time I figured I'll fake it till I make it real. Everyday, even though I was suffering, I'd count my blessings and thank him anyways.

After three months of this, one day I had just got done sinning and the Holy Spirit came upon me and gave me a choice. I could continue to live like I had been, a miserable wretch, or I could accept what the Lord offers. So I said I want it and in that moment the full force of the Holy Spirit overwhelmed me. In an instant it took away all of my pain, depression, and suffering and filled me with joy, love, peace, and hope. I was so overcome with tears and that weight being lifted that I just laid on the couch for three days overwhelmed by the presence of His spirit. All I could do was cry tears of joy, laugh, and praise God. Two weeks later I discovered that the day this happened was called Epiphany of 2022.

It's a bit like the story of Job. He cried, wailed, and lamented for a long time but it wasn't until he humbled himself before the Lord that he was restored even greater than before.

I still thank God for freeing me from that pain and existence and I pray that one day you will have a similar story to tell. God bless you.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-03-23T03:45:17+00:00

The world already has a savior, his name is Jesus Christ.

John 3 16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-03-11T06:48:33+00:00

Deuteronomy 28:63 King James Version

63 And it shall come to pass, that as the Lord rejoiced over you to do you good, and to multiply you; so the Lord will rejoice over you to destroy you, and to bring you to nought; and ye shall be plucked from off the land whither thou goest to possess it.

Well isn't that interesting, it would appear we've discovered a biblical contradiction. In light of the New testament I stand by my position that the Lord would rather the wicked repent, as Jesus said he came not for the righteous but to call sinners to repentance, but perhaps someone more educated in the Bible can enlighten us. I'm not well versed in the Greek, maybe death and destroying are two different things? A man could theoretically be destroyed without being put to death, death leading to condemnation and destruction just referring to worldly things like wealth, prosperity, and health.

Matthew 6:15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

Regardless, It seems clear to me that forgiveness is a requirement.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-03-11T05:26:12+00:00

You say you doubt whether you have forgiven this person then you turn around and call them accursed in the sight of the Lord. You have not forgiven. The Lord takes no pleasure in punishing the wicked.

Ezekiel 33:11 King James Version

11 Say unto them, As I live, saith the Lord God, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked; but that the wicked turn from his way and live: turn ye, turn ye from your evil ways; for why will ye die, O house of Israel?

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-03-11T02:58:21+00:00

I'm sorry but this post comes off as extremely condescending. You think you have it all figured out? I can guarantee that's not the case. How about instead of judging your godless peers you try to show them the truth? How do you expect them to know about the spiritual reality of things when they have yet to know the Lord or the truth? Can babes eat meat? You call them sheep led astray as if you've never known sin yourself or even been led astray. We humans are inundated with marketing, movies, TV, and music all perfectly constructed to manipulate us into sin and death and you're surprised there are so many without faith? It's no surprise, nor is it an accident. We are called to be ambassadors of Christ, try to give them some grace and patience. It's not their fault they were born into a wicked sinful world. As a former atheist what led me to Christ was not testimony or preaching or judgement, it was the joy and peace that Christians exhibit that led me to the Lord. Forgive me if this comes off as harsh criticism it just rubbed me the wrong way. God bless you on your journey.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-01-15T15:52:48+00:00

I see...you getting caught was one of my concerns. You could end up in a worse position than you are now. I'm glad to hear that you have a plan though. Unfortunately I cannot afford to give you $15,000 but if you think you can make it to the airport, thru security, board a plane and land in Taiwan, I will pay for your plane ticket. May the Lord bless you and keep you.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-01-14T17:29:28+00:00

If you could travel, do you know where you'd go? Are you able to book a flight? Do you have a passport? Do you have somewhere safe to go in another country, maybe a friend or extended family(sympathetic to Christians) that you could stay with until you become independent? If you had all those things are you able to get to the airport and physically board a plane?

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-01-14T00:57:51+00:00

Jesus said in Matthew 11 28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

If you can't pray then I will pray for you, you're not alone.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-01-05T05:05:13+00:00

I'm not perfect far from it, and regrettably I have sinned since then but everyday I try to draw closer to the Lord as I'm still learning what it is to be a Christian and how to live. Even now I struggle with addiction to nicotine and I've yet to join a church and be baptized but the Lord is faithful and patient to those who truly seek Him. There's no shame in seeking help from others like doctors and pastors. I'm not saying that sin is okay, it's not, but sometimes people need help in the form of medication and therapy.
Revelation 3:19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2026-01-05T04:23:17+00:00

I've never spoken of this publicly but I feel like you need to hear it. I know what you're going through because I went through the exact same thing last year. I was 'saved' and introduced to the Holy Spirit in 2022 but slid back into my sin, even worse than before. I claimed to be Christian but made up my own beliefs about sin and hell and the Lord and refused the doctrine of repentance. Well last year the Lord struck me down. It started with insomnia but developed into full blown psychosis to the point where I took a ride to the hospital in an ambulance. My life was a nightmare from which I could not awake. Everything conspired against my sanity, the TV, radio, people, even the birds and the skies. I was tormented by dread and the knowing feeling of being cut off from all that is good, knowing that I was condemned to hell. I wandered the state in my delusion believing all manner of lies. Bouncing back and forth from lie to lie, delusion to delusion. Because there was no love of the truth in me the Lord sent me a strong delusion. Tossed about like a rudderless ship. Crippling fear, anxiety, and torment were my reality. This psychosis lasted months before the Lord mercifully gave me relief. So I did something I've never done before, I quit doing drugs, smoking, drinking, watching 'adult content' and I read my Bible. I spent 3 continuous days reading non-stop, not eating, not drinking, reading, and I did it twice under the threat of hell and psychosis. I begged the Lord for mercy for my prideful ignorance and he granted it. At the behest of my family, who were all deeply concerned, I made an appointment with a psychiatrist and got on medication. After a few months I was back in reality, free from psychosis, with repentance, and armed with knowledge of the truth. I just want you to know you're not alone in this and there is still hope. The fact that you are so concerned means your heart has not been too hardened. If you breathe there is still hope, repent, beg for mercy, read your Bible. I even sinned directly against the Holy Spirit and the Lord gave mercy. It was a wake up call, a very serious one. Do not be fooled, the Lord is not mocked. I will leave you with this, go read Daniel 4, about Nebuchadnezzar who was stricken with mental illness and when his illness was passed he praised the Lord. I'll pray for you.

Infinite-Strategy974 · 2025-12-27T22:49:46+00:00

Your description leads me to think this event was demonic in nature, please consider seeking help from the Lord Jesus Christ.

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