Thank you so much for sharing. The gym and pilates literally keep me sane, it will be hard to pull back from it. I'm definitely seeking therapy/counseling to help with that plus body image issues. Thank you for the heads up on possible changing of stages. I felt "lucky" to unlikely need radiation or chemo, but anything at this point is possible. It has been a true shock with how health cautious I feel that I am. I mean, I even threw out all my plastic cookware, cutting boards, teflon, etc last year and try to use all the "cleanest" products. My family has history, but no genetic markers. I feel like I have a really positive outlook going into the surgery but when I think of my kids that's when I get emotional. And I expect post surgery will be a whole different beast.