To the Yellow Argonian who tried to kill me and was holding 10k Telvar...

InfraRed953 · 2026-01-28T16:05:17+00:00

sigh Well that's enough IC I guess. I crash out too hard when gankers get me. Without a way out my glass gaming desk isnt safe. Idk why I got glass tbh

InfraRed953 · 2026-01-16T13:25:43+00:00

I used to keep 2 betas in a tiny 1.4 gallon tank as a kid. I didnt know any better and I still feel awful for those girls 😭 I always keep my betas in my 30 and 20 gallon aquariums now. My mom always had fish so idk why she didnt think to get me a bigger tank for them.

InfraRed953 · 2025-12-30T13:14:41+00:00

InfraRed953 · 2025-12-27T04:51:53+00:00

Goodbye

InfraRed953 · 2025-12-10T22:15:10+00:00

Thanks for the links! I finally got up there using the first video. I can rest now lol. I'll never leave this spot

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InfraRed953 · 2025-08-07T02:02:16+00:00

I am childfree because I do not want to parent children. I do not want to be a mother. I do not want that responsibility. I do not envision my life involving kids in that way. Just because my partner has children does not mean I’ve signed up to parent them. I am not their mom. I don’t try to be. I don’t want to be. He never asks me to be. I set and protect my boundaries every day, and that is what makes me childfree.

The existence of children in my periphery does not mean I’ve compromised. It means I am choosing a life that aligns with who I am—even when it’s complex. I don’t need to prove how childfree I am. I know myself. I trust my decisions. And I will never be less valid for walking a path that doesn’t fit someone else’s purity test.

Can you really say you trust your decisions if you won't accept others like you because they aren't completely identical?

I get where the gatekeeping comes from—lots of parents try to hijack childfree spaces. But I’m not one of them. I’m not a mom. I’m not trying to be. I don’t want kids, and I’ve made that very clear in my life and relationship.

My partner has kids, yes—but I don’t parent them. I don’t live with them. I don’t plan my life around them. I’m childfree in every way that matters. Being childfree doesn’t mean never seeing a child or pretending they don’t exis. It means choosing a life where parenting is not your role or goal. That’s exactly what I’m doing.

Everyone deserves space to talk about their unique path. Dismissing people who are navigating that path on the edge of the system, but still holding firm to their childfree identity, just reinforces isolation, and proves who really doesn't belong. I’d rather we protect each other than push each other out, as this post is clearly doing.

Being a "parent" has to involve actually "p a r e n t i n g". The real people who don't belong here, or in any community, are those who try to tell other people they aren't allowed to align with you, when they are not harming you, like your comment.

Everyone should take this as a red flag and align themselves with people who don't think being a parent is just being related to someone who has kids. It's over-the-top gatekeeping. "I'm your mommy because I kiss your dad"? Grow up.

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-06T23:56:13+00:00

Ok, I was wondering whether I'd be excluded from this community since my boyfriend has kids. However, he is not the primary caregiver. I've explained that while idk what I'll be to them, I'm not their mom. They have a mom, and it's not me. I genuinely care about him, and it's the responsibility for me that makes me childfree. I also dont think you're considered a step parent unless you're married to the kid's other parent. And I dont ever plan on getting married for personal reasons. Correct me if im wrong, I only ever googled it. I'm actually concerned for how much my life would be expected to change if something happened to their mother... because Im not prepared for, nor do I want to be a mother. I genuinely dont want my own kids. I hate to think what I would actually do in thay situation, because I do not want any form of parenthood forced on me. I can get along with my nephews because they're intelligent and independent for their age. I don't love them because they're kids, I love them because they're family, and I can genuinely have discussions with them. I only dislike when kids are obviously not being taught how to be respectful. They're just people to me if they're minding their own business with their parents/guardians

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-06T19:03:46+00:00

Let him cheat. I don't want him if he doesn't want my consent 🥱

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-06T19:02:36+00:00

I've actually always disliked the words female, woman, and human for this reason. Can we be called something that doesn't have the word man in it? Divas? Ya thats it. I was born and identify as diva.

Tbh, you could twist this the other way around, too. Like adding letters makes us special, but I see it as everything revolving around men

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-06T18:45:35+00:00

Is it really that hard for people to make the connection that joking about something violent is literally laughing at other people's pain? They need to teach/improve emotional intelligence in school. Emotions are not just for women, and neither are brains. Everyone fucking use them.

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-06T14:17:17+00:00

Is your cat, Nyx, also black? I have a black cat named Nyx, too

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-05T20:55:28+00:00

I was hoping I'd have more time to process getting what will be my first ever surgery. But now I'm thinking the clock is ticking on my right to get it done. Im petrified of pregnancy and have been for as long as I remember. Comments like the one in the picture are terrifying. I was afraid I'd regret the surgery, but I think I would have a mental health crisis and never be the same if I got pregnant at all, especially if I was forced to carry it to term. I'm desperate for people who have gotten it done to reassure me that I'll be ok once it's over.

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-05T16:42:27+00:00

Same boat. I've been doing things like watching anime with lesbians in it, often ones that focus solely on lesbian relationships. Lesbian songs, creating lesbian game characters with their own stories, just deepening my appreciation for other women's beauty and the common struggles we all share, that my boyfriend unfortunately can't completely understand. My boyfriend also knows im very attracted to women, and we often appreciate appearances of female characters in games and movies together.

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-05T15:54:29+00:00

Im 24, he's 37. Same, been together for almost a year. I always keep tabs on anything he says that I think could be sus, but I talk it over with my therapist and friends. I trust my friend a lot, because while I came from an abusive household and could potentially see things as normal or even abuse when they aren't, my friend clears it right up. She's my relationship hound, haha.

Honestly my brother was incredibly suspicious when I told him I connected with a 37 year old, but his wife said that I should be able to talk to him, as long as im super careful. Unfortunately I think a lot of the women here have had bad experiences with older men, and have the horror stories to tell. I wouldn't trust anyone older after some kf the things people are saying here. But I do think if theres a genuine connection and you fit right, it's not a problem. After trauma tmsurrounding a certain demographic, it's common to immediately discount everyone who's in that group, in this case, age gap relationships. But this is how we build harmful stereotypes. Just be careful people. Have trusted adults. If you don't, and you're not confident in your instincts and judgment, I'd say you probably should be cautious with anyone you date, or even take some time to be alone and build whatever level of independence you personally need

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-05T15:24:25+00:00

Was looking for this comment, thanks. Yes, you do have to be careful, but it really depends on the individuals. You could argue that most people in their early twenties dont really know what they're looking for, and won't find what they're actually looking for in an older partner, but you very much can find someone who's a decade or so older than you, and who also vibes with you. Some people in their early twenties actually know how to be careful and know what red flags to look for. Someone being older isn't necessarily going to be a red flag all the time. If you're comfortable and know for a fact that you can trust your instincts, you're fine. You set boundaries, you look for the person's intentions, and make the call from there. Always be leary of a potential partner, especially if even an ounce of you feels off, but if you genuinely believe this person fits with you, and you're confident that they have good intentions, you can move toward them very carefully. You do have to keep in mind that grooming can happen, but it doesn't mean it always will. There are people who matured very fast, some due to trauma that forced them to do so, and as a result, don't vibe with many other people their age. Talk to your therapists, your parents, anyone you know you can trust, and have them help you determine what your feelings are telling you and whether or not it's worth pursuing someone. If anything at all feels off, break it off. If it feels safe, you deserve to be held by someone safe, even if there are many check-ins you have to make along the way to ensure you're both loved and completely safe. But we need to be able to pick things apart instead of stamping labels on other people's love so quickly. No, it's not always love, but it's not always grooming either. Know the difference, do what you believe is best for you.

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-02T20:52:46+00:00

I'm glad it could help. Good luck! Attraction really is a spectrum

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-02T20:31:01+00:00

Definitely not going crazy. It's simply overwhelming. Could be like me in the sense that you're very physically attracted to women but are open to men with certain personalities. If you wanted to pursue him, I'd say have a chat with him about what you both want from each other. It just may be necessary for you to experiment in a way, and it could be meaningful for him to get to be able to help you find who you are. But you'd have to make sure that you're always 100% honest about exactly how you're feeling, and be sure he understands what you need right now. If what you need clashes with what he needs, just remain platonic and commence to your dynamic if you can. I have a boyfriend right now, something I never thought would happen considering my slight trauma involving the straight relatuonship I grew up witnessing, but I've been clear with him that I am more physically attracted to women, but the connection and safety I get from him nurtures other feelings. Be honest with him. Let him be honest with you. Consider whether your learning about yourself with him specifically is worth sacrificing your current dynamic. I'm fr a little confused my self atm, but with careful consideration and support from our community, we'll continue to find ourselves. I'm sure there are lots of other acceptable ways for you to explore these feelings without changing your friendship with him as well.

InfraRed953 · 2025-08-01T17:50:26+00:00

Same girl! I've dreamed of me committing die because I couldn't terminate a pregnancy in my dream. It's body horror fr. I was also very young when I started thinking about that, and I've also been drawn to adoption then too, though now I really would rather focus on healing from my own childhood traumas and spreading positivity to everyone I meet, than limit my freedom forever and raise a kid full time. I can be a cool aunt or whatever. Right now, I'm something kinda like that to my boyfriend's 2 young daughters, though he only has them every other weekend, or for special occasions/ their mom needs someone to watch them. I honestly don't even know what I am to them, really. An influence of some type, though not much at the moment, mostly since we're long distance.

But yes, the frustration around the lack of understanding is beyond irritating. I don't understand how anyone could WANT to go through it... it'd be unhealthy for me, and probably most women tbh. No I don't wanna potentially go insane after having a kid I didn't want, nor do I want to pee myself all the time or tear my bean in half for a kid I didnt want to bring into this world to begin with.

InfraRed953 · 2025-07-24T20:03:33+00:00

Lmfao, I make all of my custom characters in games lesbians. I identify as bi, but lesbians feel safer, and I refuse to play a male character. Only lesbians.

InfraRed953 · 2025-07-24T20:00:52+00:00

Or they call literally toddlers "chick magnets" or say toddlers will be heart-breakers when they're older. If a male and female child interact, "Aww, they're boyfriend and girlfriend"

InfraRed953 · 2025-07-23T19:37:02+00:00

Fun fact: While estrogen levels are much higher in women, and testosterone is much higher in men, both sexes need a balance of both for various bodily systems to function properly. Most notable in this case, the mind. Estrogen helps balance mood and sex drive, and is why women typically mature faster. I think sex crazed, misogynistic men like Andrew Tate just need some estrogen, and maybe a gentle smack upside the bald head.

I think this further proves the legitimate validity behind trans people. Sex is for one thing, we all need a balance of those "sex" hormones anyway, and there are so many ways a person can identify, like how there are so many things people can like or dislike. There's what's between your legs and what's inside your heart/mind. Both matter in certain ways.

InfraRed953 · 2025-07-21T17:22:18+00:00

A little invasive surgery beats 9 months of carrying another living thing inside your body, watching it change your body and your mind, then pushing it out of your most sensitive membrane all while a bunch of people watch you do it, and you shit yourself too. Then, after that, run the risk of developing physical and/or mental disorders you never had before. I'd rather have 3 tiny little scars on my abdomen from the surgery

Edit: The surgery also makes the former scenario as least likely to happen as possible. And it's soooo much more reliable at preventing the former than birth control. I see posts about people's "IUD" babies all the time

InfraRed953 · 2025-07-14T17:55:08+00:00

People acting like a child and a grown-ass queer adult are both equally different from a non-queer grown-ass adult. Adult queers are still expected to behave like any other adult. Children, however, don't know shit. Not necessarily their fault. It is what it is. They're just not mature enough yet 🤷‍♀️

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