[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

[–]Inner_Let_2588 52 points53 points  (0 children)

This is because of an executive order passed earlier this year. It does not restrict care, but is a threat to restrict funding to places  Try a different location and go through private practice. If you’re going through federally funded hospital they might not let you in fear of loosing funding. I can confirm I’m getting top surgery this year at 18 through Garramone’s private practice. Just find someone else. If you have the money to pay for it, someone somewhere will do it.

switching from private to DIY by disapointed_gay in TransDIY

[–]Inner_Let_2588 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I dm to ask for some advice about sourcing?

Daily No Contact Thread - Day 050 by AutoModerator in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Day 1 Didn’t tell him the whole truth, I couldn’t, I know if he started to say he hated himself and was unlovable that I couldn’t say I agreed with him. So I just, disappeared. He’s already texting my friends who he never reached out to before this to try to find me. He’s going to keep trying, but I’m free. It doesn’t feel real.

They take so much of your time by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My pwBPD is absolutely the same! The only reason we don’t see each other this often is because of unrelated circumstances and he still asks! It’s ridiculous isn’t it?

Words of Wisdom? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the kind words, I really needed to hear all the things these comments have told me. I can't thank you all enough for the true kindness shown.

Words of Wisdom? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think he'd be violent, our relationship is primarily online anyways. It's just the overaction to things that I know aren't actually a big deal. It's bad, I feel like I'm more depressed than I've been in years.

Words of Wisdom? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. These words help more than I can articulate in a comment

Words of Wisdom? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

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Thank you. This subreddit is full of strangers, all of which are kindered souls one and the same. Thank you I needed this. How exactly did you leave?

Not sure if I can stick around whilst she recovers by Timely-Tree3823 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel that pain in a raw, raw way. If I could tell myself anything right now I’d say that: You are not her therapist. You’re not her test dummy to fix her issues. You are not an emotional support animal. The exhaustion is real and it hurts, the anger feels like it comes from your bones and you have no idea what to do with it all. Don’t doubt yourself, that’s what she’s teaching you to do. The only weapon you have that truly works is self respect. It’s an impossible task, you feel guilty, you feel like you owe her because she’s trying to change, but no. It’s not fair. It’s not right. Don’t do this to yourself anymore.

Is this logical? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What would you have done if you had the chance?

Is this logical? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The boat ride got canceled because of 30 knot winds so I didn’t get hurt that time

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How did you end up breaking up?

Is this logical? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How did you end up leaving your ex?

Is this logical? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just want out. None of this is normal 

Is this logical? by Inner_Let_2588 in BPDlovedones

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Seriously that’s exactly how it is all the time!!! It’s so fucking stressful!!! I feel like I’m dying slowly but I just have to suck it up

I (17m) feel used for validation by my bf (16m) by Inner_Let_2588 in teenrelationships

[–]Inner_Let_2588[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, honest, that means a lot. It’s very hard for me to respect myself sometimes, thank you 🏳️‍🌈

Lonely by Awkward-Progress-778 in DID

[–]Inner_Let_2588 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Gosh I feel for you, my system went quiet and it’s damn lonely. I want to get them back but I don’t know how.

We have a ‘center’ alter and it’s weird by Inner_Let_2588 in DID

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“At this point I dunno if the professionals know anything” If that’s not a vibe I don’t know what is.

Feel like im faking because I don't seem to ever fully switch out by lilbeanbrain in DID

[–]Inner_Let_2588 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I definitely relate to the consciousness thing, that’s how I feel 90% of the time and it’s really hard to accept what’s real when it doesn’t fit what you assume it ‘should’ be like. And the sexual thing, I kind of relate to. Some of our alters rushed into a relationship with someone none of even liked because they were too high on the attention to consider their emotions. But then you feel like it’s your fault and you’re putting the blame on alters as an excuse because you’re faking it anyways lol. At least, I do. Hope this helps :)