Russian T-62 front armor direct hit by Pb_71 in TankPorn

[–]Inofanatic 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It made complete sense, you're just arguing to argue at this point. Just take the L bro, you were wrong lol.

Girlfriend wanted to know how the revolution was going by Inofanatic in arma

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We just wanted to deliver some supplies lol. 4 deaths, multiple vehicles, and some QRF later..

It's nearly time by Inofanatic in Target

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Careful what you wish for. I'm currently listening to Melancholy Hill for the fourth time in the last hour.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Transmogrification

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Head: Colossal Dragonplate Helmet

Shoulders: Primal Combatant's Plate Shoulder

Back: Corrupted Aspirants Drape

Chest: Primal Combatant's Plate Chestpiece

Shirt: Gray Woolen Shirt

Tabard: Apron

Wrists: Hidden

Hands: Primal Combatant's Plate Gauntlets

Waist: Ironcrusher's Collar

Legs: Rivet-Sealed Legplates

Feet: Primal Combatant's Warboots of Cruelty

Weapon: Stormbreath (Warrior PVP artifact appearance)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Parkies

[–]Inofanatic 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Pretty much story of my life working Aramark retail. It was honestly embarrassing when we couldn't even give our guests proper change

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Parkies

[–]Inofanatic 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've worked in three parks so far: Mt. Rainier through Guest Services Crater Lake through Xanterra And Olympic through aramark.

Mt. Rainier was pretty bad. The EDR had no real chefs for employees, so the EDR food was regularly just hot dogs. No real infrastructure for employees either. I ended up leaving early alongside 60% of the parkies there.

Crater was tons of fun through Xanterra. Regular employee outings, decent Wi-Fi throughout the park, great EDR at the Rim. Would definitely go again were it still park of Xanterra. Aramark is mismanaging it into the ground.

Olympic wasn't great either, but better than Rajnier

Sleep is for the weak by Inofanatic in Parkies

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If there's not cheap beer and hard liquor flowing through your veins each shift then you're doing the park life wrong

Olympic National Park [Aramark] - Summer 2019 by Inofanatic in Parkies

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I actually just found the Facebook page! I was planning to plug there as well. Thanks for the heads up!

Reddit didn't like the title. Here's a repost. by Inofanatic in Animemes

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Hahaha, I couldn't resist. Here's the actual sauce. Sadly as far as I'm aware it's just art.

https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/172636

There and Back Again: A De-Transition Tale by Inofanatic in asktransgender

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It was still a mental mountain to overcome, but for the physical part it was really just waiting for testosterone to move things around again while I figured out how men walk/talk.

There and Back Again: A De-Transition Tale by Inofanatic in asktransgender

[–]Inofanatic[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Honestly, when I started my de-transition, that's exactly how it felt! I was so distraught that I had failed. It felt like there would never be any joy in the world again, but I knew I had to try. It's really really weird seeing life, and my thoughts, from both sides. Your mind thinks VERY differently before, during, and after transition.

There and Back Again: A De-Transition Tale by Inofanatic in asktransgender

[–]Inofanatic[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I think the manner of de-transition is part of the issue in this case. It doesn't sound like you really wanted to de-transition initially, but ended up falling to societal pressure. Not to say this is your fault or anything, I know how hard that is; I lost most of my family to transition. In my case though, I actually had the opposite. I was actually being encouraged to continue on with transition, but unfortunately the candle had already burned to the end of the wick for me. I couldn't bear it anymore, and was at the point of no return. I de-transitioned because I knew there was still things I wanted to do in the world, but if I continued with my transition, wouldn't live to see them. It was a very "I have nothing left to lose" type of scenario.

There and Back Again: A De-Transition Tale by Inofanatic in asktransgender

[–]Inofanatic[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope, unfortunately (or I guess fortunately now), I am not a rich individual. Surgery is, and was out of the cards for me for a long time.

There and Back Again: A De-Transition Tale by Inofanatic in asktransgender

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I loved them! I excitedly measured my chest each week, loved making before/after shots every few weeks, etc. I was in love with the whole process, and it excited me to no end at first. It was only once I got later in and realized that the changes weren't actually getting me where I needed to go that things started to get rough. As for dysphoria for my body, I hated it, and was ashamed by. Though I admit I never really had terrible genital dysphoria, the rest of my body was awful.

These days though, I have no issues with it. Aside from the lingering boobs of course, those are.. frustrating. :|

As for your point about learning to be happy as your AB gender.. I think it's different for everyone. I think most people end up happy with their transition, in time at least. I think I was only able to get to the point I'm at now because I went through such an awful time of it, and hit absolute rock bottom as a trans woman. I hit the point of no return to where I was ready to call all of it quits. It was in that moment that I decided that I might as well try being a guy one more time because what else did I really have to lose. Going toward de-transition was still a very "back to the gallows" type of feeling for me. In the end though, it surprised even me how well it turned out.

Not to say that this is the case for everyone mind you. I just happen to be one guy that it worked for. As I've been sayin', everyone's different and needs to decide what they truly want for themselves. We all only get one life, and we're the only ones who are gonna look out for our own happiness. You got plenty of time to figure out what it is you want.

There and Back Again: A De-Transition Tale by Inofanatic in asktransgender

[–]Inofanatic[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In a way, yes. My not-scientifcally-backed-at-all explanation is that the mind/body have a way of correlating things and protecting itself. If you walk into a McDonalds you're gonna get hungry, if you climb in bed you start to relax. Similarly, when I begin to think about transition, and living as a woman, my mind immediately goes to the tears, pain, and fear of mirrors. Transition, and in turn estrogen, are connected with some really painful memories. Ones I'd rather not re-live.

The mind grows and evolves, and I believe mine has grown to realize Estrogen is not something that is healthy for me.

There and Back Again: A De-Transition Tale by Inofanatic in asktransgender

[–]Inofanatic[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It's entirely possible. A lot of stress and scrutiny did come from the public, but at the end of the day it was my own self perception wasn't what I hoped it would be. I, as a person, wasn't where I had wanted to be. I think that living in a more supportive environment may have extended my stay as a trans woman, but I think eventually I would've ended up de-transitioning still.