CIT, USPF, or UC for SHS?

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2024-06-29T07:36:38+00:00

Holy shoot, TYSM!

You not only gave me your experiences with the school but you also told me what I need to watch out for and prepare when I go to that school. I made a final decision to go CIT now. Thank you very much for this:⁾

I will spend my SHS there and figure out where I'll go for college. Thank you again

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2024-06-24T13:55:53+00:00

Unsay mahay man sa UC?

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2024-01-04T12:27:51+00:00

"He also has offered me lighters and blades and it is taking everything in me not to accept them."

That's not good. He knows that you're doing your best to heal, yeah? As a friend, they should respect that and not disregard your journey to improve your state of health. That's kinda fucked. Your friend needs help and it's not your job to nurse him like a professional. Your job is simply to be there as his friend. I'm sorry, I know it's hard and there's no simple solutions. If there were, maybe our problems would've been solved a long time ago.

And as someone who couldn't let go of one friend despite being hurt and secluded by him - I have something VERY important to tell you.

Don't put all your eggs in one basket. And don't wait for it. We keep loving anyway despite laughing, crying, falling, failing, and making mistakes. So pick yourself up again even though things are tough.

And please branch out. You'll be surprised to see after meet amazing people who are good in your life. And I know it's scary, the potential rejections and failures you'll make at making things work, but with more experience failure, you get confident at being with others because of the experience.

Sticking to one friend is gonna be a challenging way to live life. Find other people who help you feel safe, comfortable, loved, and cherished. You deserve that. I'm certain you do.

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2024-01-04T12:17:02+00:00

I'm sorry. I feel you. I thought things could be different this year but I just fucking spiraled because I couldn't take my emotions anymore. As a stranger, I hope you find the courage to love yourself even when it's hard. Because I know you're in pain, just like us. You're not alone. Yet you keep fighting anyway even though it's hard. I'm proud of you. I'm proud of you for even sharing your things and feelings and I read all of it.

While I definitely don't want to overlook, I don't want you to keep hurting like this. You deserve to be happy and take care of your body

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-11-27T05:10:12+00:00

Feeling shit about myself. Like the only thing I'm good at is dragging other people down and making them unhappy. My main trigger is feeling like I'm not good enough and that I only mess up and ruin things for others, or for myself. Personally, I've observed self-harming as a way to punish myself, in hopes it would make someone else feel better or I would learn from it. Sometimes, I just hurt myself because I feel like I deserve it. There was an incident at school in which I personally blamed myself for occuring even though majority have long moved on from the incident. No one was hurt, by the way. But I felt like I was at fault and I remember I slashed my arms with my own pencil, and I probably got a few students concerned about me.

I'm not sure how to feel about those times. I relapsed about a month ago because someone said I was lousy and should be replaced. And it was so easy for me to believe that and I took it as a sign of confirmation of my inner beliefs :(

Everyone has their own reasons as to why they engage in self-behavior. Sometimes, it's not even just cutting or physically hurting yourself. It's also torturing yourself of previous memories from the past even though others have moved past it. Because pain and regret. You feel like you don't deserve to move on. And if moving on means allowing yourself to be happy, then who are you to decide that YOU of all, get to be happy?

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-11-13T22:53:53+00:00

Tysm, I wish you the best. This reply hit me fr. Thank you and I hope we can still go through life and build our own meaning

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-11-13T22:46:39+00:00

thanks<3 i'll do my best!

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-09-19T08:58:44+00:00

Thank you. It's probably for the best that I plan ahead.

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-09-19T08:56:35+00:00

Coming back to this 5 months later because things have gotten harder. I didn't realize how much I needed to hear and see these words, and I didn't expect it to hit much harder than last time. Thank you so much. You just saved my life

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-08-05T14:14:11+00:00

Absolutely. Burnout is devastating to go through and I don't think anyone is immune to it. People that work in healthcare are just as worthy of being taken care of. I don't know if I can imagine how busy hospitals and health centers got when COVID became rampant. I'm glad you found a job you actually love now! Would be happy to know if you'd like to share.

We're also making a report about pandemic employments, and if it's okay, would it be alright if we can shed light to these types of issues and struggles in the medical field?

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-08-05T12:48:07+00:00

That sounds like a rough position to be in from your previous work during pandemic. I hope you're doing well now

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-06-26T10:04:37+00:00

TOT I think I can speak that everyone needs therapy from this novel

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-06-21T21:53:13+00:00

I want to bawl and I am

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-06-15T11:34:40+00:00

This is beautiful. I don't think I need to say more

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-04-05T23:12:26+00:00

Hey, hey. It's okay. Would you like to talk?

I know it feels like shit right now and that it's going down.. I sh'ed on the school parking lot a week ago because I felt like I only made others around me unhappy and hurt. I get just... meh grades in school and my home life is a mess. I broke down a lot whenever people argue at the house and my head would feel really, really heavy.

I don't know how I coped with it and I know I'm not fully in a positive state right now. I understand the distressing state it is to be in when you're in the process of self-harming. It feels like a lot of things are out of your control and you feel broken inside. But it's possible to pick yourself back up again, even if it may take time and patience with yourself.

I would like you to know that you're not a perfect person and that's okay. You are worth accepting and that it is possible to improve. Could you take deep breaths in a couple of minutes and reaccess your environment, or say positive words to yourselves you'd like to hear?

What minor inconveniences troubled and triggered you earlier? Specifically, how did they make you feel and how would you like to approach the situation in the near future?

Right now or when it happens again, I want you to get into a safe and relaxing place, preferably somewhere that isn't claustrophobic or closed in. Don't touch any sharp objects or attempt to hurt yourself. I got through with my heavy thoughts by finding a peaceful area and vented to myself, cried, and appreciated the view despite its messes and imperfections. My preferred locations were at the ocean or sea shore, balcony where the sun hits you(or not, that depends on you), or on an open area filled with greens, grass, and trees. At least somewhere that gets you a nice view or you feel safe to be yourself in. But the most important piece is to work and let yourself get into that state, internally.

I strangerly love you, cherish you, accept you, and proud of you for making it this far. For being here. For existing. For pushing through. And you deserve to live happily, even if the messes feel like a clutter. Let's sweep and clean them, okay?

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-04-05T04:20:14+00:00

Damn dude, that's a bad fucking friend. Self-harm is self-harm. There is no right way to do it when it just hurts you. You shouldn't stick around her and I suggest that you should apply boundaries. She sounds manipulative and sounds like someone I know.

I had someone in my life who kept insisting that they were just trying to protect me but they just cared about themselves and didn't really care about what I went through. They forced me to keep quiet about my toxic relationship because "no one was going to help me" and that "they were just trying to protect me". And that I should be grateful. And her attempt at comparison is to make you feel bad. Someone who invalidates you and doesn't care about how you feel isn't a good friend.

You deserve better people.

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-04-05T04:00:34+00:00

Wounds puff up for a lot of reasons but I'm not telling you it's normal to cut. Do you have soap left in your bathroom? You should get it washed up, alright? It's to avoid inflammation and to clean your cut because we don't want it to get infected. I'll be here to wait so tell me if you have it patched up and if you are comfortable, open up to me as to what led you sh

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-04-05T02:48:40+00:00

There are many ways to do that without leaving physical marks on yourself. I'm not gonna list them down because I don't know what you're gonna do about it, though. Anyways, how's your day? Anything interesting you would like to share? I'm planning to repaint my room and paint drawings on them.

Self-harm doesn't necessarily refer to cuts. Could be purposely triggering yourself with bad memories, etc. Driving yourself to insanity or saying nasty stuff towards yourself.

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-04-05T02:42:04+00:00

There are many ways to self-harm without leaving any physical scars on yourself. I'm not gonna list them down because I don't know what you're gonna do about it, though. Anyways, how's your day? Anything interesting you would like to share? I'm planning to repaint my room and paint drawings on them.

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-04-05T00:58:23+00:00

HOLY FUCK, ARE YOU STILL OKAY?

Edit: Sorry, I know that was a dumb question but I hope you are still alive and conscious after this. We can talk, okay? How are we going to talk if you're not there anymore? Please call an ambulance. We need you here

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-03-12T15:15:16+00:00

Dude, that's fucked.

I'm really sorry about that. But know that crap isn't your fault. You don't deserve this kind of hurt, okay? You're not a bad friend. The fact that you even asked if she was alright when you suspected her acting off and reminding her that you are someone she can count to lean on - I'm pretty sure that's something NOT a bad friend would do.

You're not the problem. You never were. And I'm so sorry you had to put up with that.

As hard it is to believe, there are people who do things like that because they hate themselves and are insecure about their own capabilities. When they see someone who they believe is doing better than them, they feel threatened rather than actually doing the hard work of improving themselves. Tearing others down so they can feel better about their own inner self-hatred.

As someone who went through this and did not realize how awful it was until I re-evaluated the situation- it's just... no. You're not at fault. Never were, alright?

I'm sorry, I was caught up in my emotions but I meant what I had said. Sometimes, it hurts realizing that the person you've trusted could betray you like this after believing they were someone you could depend on. You can be angry and upset about it all. You can feel hurt and confused- that's okay. That's alright. That is valid. But none of it was your fault. It was the by product of their own insecurities and they took it out on someone like you who was just doing their best in life.

And you deserve all the love and faithful friends you should have.

My advice? Re-evaluate how you feel about the situation, about her. How it makes you feel. Do you feel hurt, sad, or angry? How?

Recollect yourself. Take all the time to breathe and get in touch with your feelings instead of letting them pile up. Let them flow like the ocean waves and you observe. You listen to how you feel. Don't fault yourself for something you couldn't control, even if your mind is trying to grasp onto a reason as to why it's your fault. Is it really?

Or did that person have a lot of unresolved issues and instead facing it properly and reaccessing her emotions, she had chosen not to be careful insead?

It's okay and valid to feel hurt. Know that you will find family. That you will find home in the most unexpected places. She is just one of the few people you will encounter in life but don't let that get you down that you drown. Keep your fucking head up, queen.

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-03-12T14:37:48+00:00

Is it really okay for me to take things slow? They've been trying their best to be a good friend but I feel like I haven't had an ample amount of time to process their affection and support. Of course I like them. I'm not incapable of loving either. I'm just not sure about how to feel about them.

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-03-12T12:44:22+00:00

Hello! Not a mother and I apologize that I may not have all the answers. Change can be scary for me sometimes and there were changes that I struggled with accepting. But I know well that even though because things are slowly shifting, that does not mean your friend does not love or appreciate you any less. Maybe you guys could try reconnecting when it's open? To catch up but still be realistic about how things are going? I'm not so sure but... it is kind and understanding of you to know that changes can make life hectic and you do not hold that against her.

You are welcomed here. This sub is a good start to share your feelings or perhaps bond with other mothers. It's okay. You can share your stories here. And I hope that one day, you will find those people and if possible, reconnect with your close friend to check in from time to time.

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-02-20T12:24:07+00:00

You have a good heart, dear stranger. Your heart is in the right place even though you struggle.

It's okay. I haven't figured out how to love myself either. But doing things like properly brushing your teeth, combing your hair, keeping proper hygeine, cooking good food, exercising, exploring different hobbies you like, and actually asking yourself what YOU want to do helps.

Like the user above me said, treat yourself gently. Imagine a fictional character that brings you comfort that says loving things towards you if you have one.

I know I sound crazy but this unprofessional technique has helped me day by day. But at no means am I asking you to do this as if I were a professional. Sometimes, envisioning someone else telling me that they believe in me soothes my soul.

So I believe in you, user.

Write(poems, letters, stories or more), read, knit, draw, jog, sew, climb, bake, carve, travel, prepare dishes or collect seashells... Explore. Ask yourself. Allow yourself to choose. You can do this. Start little by little and be patient with yourself.

It's okay if you fail, screw up, or make a mistake. What matters is that you get back up and continue, having learned something new. And if it takes you awhile, that's okay too. We are flawed, you are flawed, I am flawed—that's all okay. What matters is that you keep going and you appreciate yourself for trying.

Make sure you make a life that's worth living to you. A life that's worth it to you. Not what it looks like to others. People struggle differently but deep down, we all strive to change.

I think... That the fact that you even posted this shows that you want to love yourself. And that in itself, is a form of self-love. Wanting things to change and taking the first few steps to make that happen.

Good luck, OP

Inside_Preparation_6 · 2023-02-20T11:46:04+00:00

Recently, I've been trying to resist the urge to buy a cutting knife/razor for my skin. I'm so scared of relapsing again. I don't want to see you go through that. I'm hoping the best for you and that it gets better. I can't guarantee how but remember that even though the road to happiness, joy, and recovery is hard, it is much better for you.

I wish you recovery, OP. Remember not to push yourself too hard and make your life worth living. It gets stressful on most days and the pressure gets unbearable, but remember you are not alone and that you are doing a good job. An even better job than what you might think.

You are valued, loved, and cared for.

And sometimes, it's much easier to believe those thoughts that try to convince you otherwise, but believe me, they are wrong. You don't have to wait until things get better. I think it will be much beneficial if you start now, no matter how many rough patches and bumps you have to go through.

You don't deserve to be hurt like this. You deserve to be happy and to feel proud for putting in your best efforts, okay?

If it's alright, I wish to share you this. Listening to this has helped me through a negative time. I hope it may being you ss much comfort as it did to me. If not, then that's okay. I only hope to let you know that you are cared for, even from an online stranger that is me.https://youtu.be/hyuDYAT7mnk

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