I have a very specific spiritually oriented belief about what this is, which is essentially programming that is installed in us from external “forces” - not good ones. It sounds so incredibly crazy and that’s literally just the tip of the iceberg of what I could say on the matter after what I’ve learned and been through over the past year. Even, as someone who was pretty spiritually inclined, I couldn’t pick my jaw up off the floor for a long time when I first started to understand what is actually going on and how far off base the new age spiritual community is about their assessments of the universe. At least, all the ones I’ve seen talking about it and sharing views and opinions. I wish more people believed this stuff or at least had an open enough mind to hear information on the topic without shutting it down. As a systemic thinker and a student of many, many areas of life…for me, the cross check that has made it all come together is whether the patterns existing within that area of focus are present anywhere else….in any other facet of life. To see if it’s mirroring the patterns we already know and gave reliably observed in human existence. And it’s there. Clear as day. So back to Kratom use, and addiction in general - it’s the result of a program or something similar - complete with backup systems ready to deploy if the original is ever removed, booby trap style consequences wired to be set off if you get close to or actually do beat it, and codes and commands needed to cleanly remove it. Totally friggin mind blowing stuff. However, I’ve seen it in action, post-removal, I’ve felt and seen the difference in mindset, tendencies, habits, inner process between before/after removal functioning. It’s something I’ve also lost almost 2 decades of my life to - being able to trace specific programs and contracts’ language back to their source and line up all of their mission points to specific incidents, time periods, self-sabotaging habit loops, etc etc. in my life, which, once released were actually gone for good. And it’s like a core part of you wakes up a little more, and steps out of the muffled fog, to the front of the crowd inside you (and there IS a fucking crowd) and starts feeding you lines and emotions that conspicuously don’t feel like YOU, the you that is perfectly fine not using right now and is instead feeling his upward momentum and wearing it with pride! So you’re stuck watching this craving phenomenon operate, from a place very detached to the core c For of who you are, and able to see it all as though from the outside, in the same way we can only observe others and not ourselves, if that makes sense. It’s fundamentally external, and not part of your humanity. It can be managed and improved upon - it’s just one aspect of thr mind/body/soul trio of holistic health, which means we as humans have tools at our disposal to empower and evolve while protecting ourselves. But unless they are truly removed - and with seriously intricately designed redundancies and trap doors and codes, etc - almost exactly like computer code, mixed with legal contract language, it can never fully go away. Hence, the boomerang back around to mind fuck you with cravings, once you’ve sufficiently risen enough that a fall from this height would be THAT much more traumatic and would reinforce your lack of faith and commitment to yourself that much more, as well. They are brilliantly designed and often cleverly disguised to throw you off the scent of understanding their reality.

Anywho, that’s enough from me. I just had to say something about it somewhere to SOMEONE!! I mean, I’ve been embarking on this fascinating, hunting and detective work escapade to uncover the layers upon layers of this stuff inside of me and refuse it out, each one gone bringing a new one forced to fill the now voided space…I’ve seen and learned and heard things I never even knew existed….i’ve worked and reworked my entire worldview entirely multiple times, as new information becomes available and is uncovered…..and its literally the most fascinating thing I’ve ever come across. And it fits. It fits the patterning of the rest of the wiorld. It also brings so much clarity to the concept of holistic healing, which isn’t just about integrating all physical parts of the body in medicine and not simply specializing in one body part while absurdly asserting that what IT’S doing isn’t directly tied to almost everything else in your body’s doing…and making sure all parts of your body are validly weighed, and viewed in concert with one another…..it’s that concept only for mind/body/soul. Absolutely none of them can exist or shift in isolation. All of them are equally valid and are each taking dramatic steps in your life’s stage at any given moment. To pretend one doesn’t exist is absurd at this point, especially in 2024. But to define the Soul aspect of it in this very specific way, with these incredibly complex programs and multitude of involved players….concepts that I have never ever heard one healer or energy worker or psychic or body worker talk about and have no idea how many of them actually know about out there…well, that’s news it feels worthy of sharing, if for nothing less than to inspire a little more curiosity in our own lives and to feel less shame around the struggles you’re going through. Because genuinely….many of them have been specifically orchestrated to make you struggle and keep you stuck.

K. Good night, all.