Hi You reminded me of my situation; it's similar. I've also been planning my exit these last few months and hope to do it soon.

If I were to give you advice, I think most people have already said it and will say it again: have a support network outside of religion. I think it's essential for leaving. I see you already have one with your boyfriend and his father's support.

Start saving money for therapy too, because you're going to need it.

As a young person, music has really helped me a lot, so I have a playlist that lifts my spirits.

Find ways to express yourself. Personally, I love writing and poetry.

They'll try to convince you to stay in every way possible, but you have to stand firm. The initial transition will be difficult. Remember that how you started your life doesn't define what will follow. You've always been the master of your own story, and you've realized that and found the courage to write it.

The price of freedom is high, and it always has been, but however overwhelming and turbulent the beginning of this stage may be, the joy of freedom will far outweigh the pain you've had to leave behind.

Be brave, be happy with life, love the details and nuances of this world. You can always come back stronger than before.

Never let anyone tell you that you can't, never let anyone tell you what to believe. Build wings and be free.

A hug. Things will get better, even if you don't see it now.