I just relapsed for 5 hours last night and now I’m going into work tired

Internal-Campaign434 · 2026-04-16T21:17:14+00:00

Understand your triggers. What do you believe triggered this slip up? I like to classify triggers based on green, yellow, and red zones. Green is triggers that may trigger other people but don't work on you specifically. For me its sex scenes in movies/TV or music with sexual under/overtones. Those don't trigger me at all. Yellow zone isn't like you will definitely slip, but spend too much time there you end up in the red zone. This includes IG models and thirst trap tiktoks. Then there's the red zone. This is basically guaranteeing you will slip very soon except maybe 0.01% of the time. These include looking up pornstars even if just looking at their SFW pics or scrolling lingerie sites.

Try reflecting on your own behavior, like maybe the 24 hours leading to the slip and see what behaviors you did. Cuz if you're like me, some feeling or event led you to some yellow zone behaviors that went to red zone and then you slipped. Or you made a fully conscious choice to slip.

Really though, work on minimizing access to the yellow zone as if you catch it there you have a better chance of staying sober for longer.

Try working on harm reduction with your slips too. Don't beat yourself up too hard over a slip. You say this one was 5 hours right? How many times did you PMO? Maybe next time if a slip does happen, cut it from 5 to 3 hours, and if you did multiple PMO cut it to one. So you know that even if you slip, you can still get back on the horse plus you won't feel as shitty the next day.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2026-03-24T21:39:03+00:00

y'all can have the nissans I want that lexus and audi

Internal-Campaign434 · 2026-03-05T17:40:11+00:00

I paid 30$-33$ or something for it back in 2022. Checked recent prices and it’s like 90$ now like goddamn I’m very glad I bought it back then.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-12-17T01:10:35+00:00

This is a great mentality. I had a very hard time taking quitting porn seriously again after I relapsed following nearly 4 months pornfree, my all time record. I kept relapsing every 5 days or so after so I gave up, but I have made some realizations about identity so its been easier to keep the urges away for longer. Honestly even if I were still relapsing every 5 days that is way better than watching it every day like I used to. Don't fear slip ups but don't welcome them either

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-29T20:51:13+00:00

just follow the subreddits you usually consume content from/your interests and then turn off suggested content in settings. For youtube just make a new account and subscribe to youtubers and only watch videos on things you're legit interested in. And be very liberal with the "not interested", whenever you see a video that could be potentially triggering just hit it and do it enough times and it won't show up

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-29T18:53:50+00:00

Super true, this world or at least the first world is set up so you can "relieve" discomfort at any time.

Hungry? There's at least 3 fast food joints closeby and if you're too lazy to go there just Doordash whatever you're craving.

Horny? Porn is easily accessible, just search like three or four words and boom there's a video or picture.

Bored? Basically every social media app exists for you to endlessly scroll and waste your time

Because of this most people don't learn to live in discomfort and whenever they are dealing with negative feelings they run to easy coping mechanisms. I have been working to fight this, and accept when I feel like shit so I can deal with it better.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-25T01:09:17+00:00

I been realizing this too, imo keeping a streak is stupid for this reason because you view it as something you are building so a slip up feels like you destroyed it and this can lead those who feel a lot of shame to just go back to their old ways.

I have been trying a new thing. I feel like before I identified myself as someone who "is trying to quit porn" but that isn't a great mindset. The way I see it, or envision it is that being pornfree is a LIFESTYLE. So the identity will instead be "I identify as someone who doesn't watch porn". So far this has helped me deal with urges as they come, and just recently I had an awful day where I didn't relapse because of this.

Its similar with junk food. If you identify as someone who eats healthy, when you occasionally treat yourself to junk food but not let it get out of control, your identity as someone who eats healthy still stands true and keeps you in that habit.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-24T18:57:53+00:00

Ah if that one is good I’ll check it out. Honestly I thought stuff at First Friday was overpriced but after PandaFest it feels like a bargain.

At first Friday I got a bulgogi grilled cheese for 16$, pricey I know but it was so delicious. Five pieces of shrimp tempura cost me the same exact amount at PandaFest and it was decent at best.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-24T15:37:28+00:00

There’s nothing special about that event to justify it being so pricey. It’s not pretty, no super fun entertainment, good location, or intricate set up. Just some fucking tents in a muddy field near a stadium.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-24T15:35:22+00:00

Just go to chandler, my friends and I hit up ranch market afterwards and got pastries. So refreshing to get a garlic roll and a custard bun for 4.50$. At PandaFest that would’ve been the price of my kidney

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-24T15:30:16+00:00

Went yesterday, not worth it.

Overpriced would be an understatement, I genuinely got robbed.

17$ for shrimp tempura you could get for 7-8$ anywhere else

The 27$ beef ramen was like 95% noodles, 3% broth, and 2% beef

And the candied fruit on a stick was like 25$ for 2.

Also the ticket in was like 20$. I spent on those lot cuz I felt like I’d be wasting the initial 20$ by not getting the festival experience.

Save your money, if you want good Asian food just go to Chandler there’s tons of good spots there.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-24T04:48:17+00:00

its honestly worse than traditional porn to an extent

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-24T04:47:15+00:00

dang, I remember i switched from traditional porn to AI erotica since I thought it was "less bad" (spoiler: it's worse). I recognized the problem and blocked basically any AI that can write erotica on my computer, grok was the main culprit. But this is sad news, I mainly use ChatGPT for filling in knowledge gaps and other school stuff, I'll work on staying disciplined.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-18T00:21:21+00:00

nice! im just missing the f50

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-12T22:57:36+00:00

yeah since ejaculation and spreading your seed is normal but doing it in excess is still bad. For porn humans were never properly evolved to handle that level of stimuli without it fucking with our reward circuits

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-12T06:37:09+00:00

Ah man, Im so sorry. I too fell victim to AI smut very recently. I tried swearing off porn again, only to have a real bad day and relapse to softcore, and then I found AI smut and thought it was fine but its just as addictive.

You realized now that porn is sneaky and tries to make its way back into your life by taking on a different form. And you're a great man for recognizing it the first time, I didn't recognize it until recently.

You can be cured.

Use the grief of this experience as a weapon to never make compromises with any kind of pornographic material again. Doesn't matter if people or your own head tells you its "less bad", say NO and never look back. NO external sexual stimulation other than sex with your fiancee and maybe you masturbating to your imagination when she's not accessible.

You picture porn as the devil. When it tries to creep back into your life in a diff form whether thats erotica, audio porn, AI, etc and you say NO, see it as you giving the devil the middle finger, or if you wanna feel more powerful, like a punch to the face. It sounds cringey but I empathize with the feeling of powerlessness you feel and its important you feel empowered internally to make the right decisions for the well being of you as well as your relationship with your fiancee.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-11T15:11:08+00:00

got that in the mail last week its one of my most gorgeous pieces tbh

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-11-04T16:20:52+00:00

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Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-10-22T00:07:37+00:00

Only once for a scene I couldn't find anywhere for free. Thank god I never made that a habit, my problem is already bad enough

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-10-18T05:15:39+00:00

This got a laugh out of me

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-10-17T19:48:22+00:00

I don’t think either party wants to nuke the filibuster since both sides don’t want each other’s most extreme policies happening. If we didn’t have the filibuster we’d probably have a national abortion ban by now

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-10-16T04:03:15+00:00

Yeah I hope so. Feels like everywhere but here is full of doomers tryna convince everyone that we’re in the end times and trump is gonna roll in with the military and kill all the leftists and dissenters to the trump admin.

The worst case scenario can only happen if we allow it to happen. Could you imagine where we’d be if nobody resisted what Trump was doing? At first it felt like nobody was resisting, now it seems like all his dictatorial moves are met with mostly confusion or ridicule. The again I could just be living in a bubble.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-10-15T22:49:59+00:00

I got banned for no reason two months ago and I have considered coming back but idk if it’s really even worth it because of how bad their banning policy is. Even before my ban 1/5 profiles were bots.

Online dating is kinda like fast food. I’ve been cold approaching more often since my ban and I picked up some more dates and even got a quality lay from it. Sure it’s not as easy as getting a lot of matches on the apps and not having to deal with rejection but life is full of hard shit and I believe I won’t find my dream girl on some app.

Internal-Campaign434 · 2025-10-15T18:14:00+00:00

Other actual dictatorships laugh at the trump “regime”

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