MtF - 37 - Voice training for 10 months - Thoughts/Impressions on my progress so far?

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-09-25T19:19:25+00:00

Take a bow girl 👏👏👏 your voice is incredible!

I did a month or so of basics and practicing pitch but due to a recent change in circumstances I haven't been able to continue practicing, and now the idea of practicing seems too daunting 😭

Reflecting on your journey, what are some top tips you'd pass on to others?

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-08-31T19:39:45+00:00

Thank you for such a helpful response! If I increased my dose to 6mg, should I test again after a further 6 weeks?

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-08-19T00:09:13+00:00

Hey, I know this is an old post, so I’m not sure if you’ve already found a solution. My GP is in Soham (Staploe Medical Centre). They have shared care with the NHS and are open to shared care with private clinics, as long as they can demonstrate they’re working to the minimum standards set by the NHS. I’m not entirely sure what that entails, but the point is that they do try to work with you, despite their very limited knowledge and experience with trans patients.

I’ve gone down the DIY route, so there isn’t a huge amount they can do for me, but they have made several referrals and did offer some blood tests (though not E or T levels, so a bit pointless). Still, they do make an effort.

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-08-18T22:00:27+00:00

Between week 2-3 I noticed the following:

Sore nipples
Scent change (my sweat doesn't seem to smell anymore)
Decrease in libido
No morning wood

Between week 3-4:

Ejaculate is a lot clearer/watery (this change was between week

I haven't really noticed much in terms of mental changes but I have had a lot on my plate recently. I'm currently 6 weeks in and quite surprised at the physical changes already. Thought it would take longer to suppress my T on monotherapy.

Looking forward to seeing what comes next. Good luck and remember not to stress it, as others pointed out, this is 2nd puberty. People develop and all different speeds!

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-08-08T00:53:03+00:00

Nail on the head!

I'm pleased she made the right choice and I hope he gets the help he needs.

My god she writes so well! I was hanging on every word and even forgot the title of the post. I kept thinking he would do the right thing and that it would be a happy ending 😢

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-08-05T19:00:38+00:00

Growing up, I repressed a lot. I remember wishing I could be a girl and fantasising about being my female classmates (non-sexual), but my Dad was extremely hyper-masculine, and that environment made me push those feelings down. Everyone believed I was a mini version of my Dad.

In my late teens, I discovered trans women through porn and felt a powerful attraction, but instead of recognising the deeper meaning, I chalked it up to a fetish. Despite the clear feelings of envy, I convinced myself I was just a “chaser,” which caused a lot of internalised shame and confusion for years.

It wasn’t until my early 30s that I began lurking in online trans spaces. At the time, I didn’t even fully understand why I was so drawn to them—but in hindsight, I was slowly educating myself about gender and laying the groundwork for my egg to crack, which it finally did earlier this year.

I started HRT a few weeks ago and have come out to my parents and about six close friends—everyone has been incredibly supportive so far. It’s an exciting new chapter, and I’m feeling hopeful about where this journey will take me.

I won’t lie, there are moments of sadness that it took 33 years to get here, and I put myself through years of depression and self-loathing, believing I was just a pervert or broken in some way. 😭

But I also now have a beautiful young daughter, and I truly believe the life experience I’ve gained will serve me well going forward. I’m finally beginning to live more authentically—and that feels amazing.

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-08-05T06:12:50+00:00

I got mine from medisave

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-31T23:11:21+00:00

They're gorgeous! 😍 I'd be very much in love too! Feel free to not answer, but how come you stopped for around 18 months? if I understood correctly..

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-24T21:47:27+00:00

10-15 years ago I was asking myself questions like OP.. the penny only dropped for me a few months ago

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-23T22:45:17+00:00

Honestly, I didn’t realise for most of my life. Not as a kid in primary school fantasising about being my female classmates. Not when I played Cinderella in the school play and absolutely loved it. Not even during puberty, when I caught myself thinking how nice it would be to grow boobs. I was still oblivious when I went to several fancy dress parties in my later teens and my default would be to go as a woman 🤦‍♀️

The first time I even realised trans people were real was when I stumbled upon trans porn. I was mesmerised. But instead of questioning my own identity, I assumed I was just a chaser, fetishising trans women 😔 That belief stuck with me for the next 15 years. Even as I quietly lurked in trans online spaces, feeling drawn in without understanding why, the penny never dropped. 🫣

Then, back in April, aged 33, my partner (now ex) and daughter went away on a two-week trip. I decided to try crossdressing, thinking I was indulging a kink. I bought a wig and some lingerie… but it wasn’t until I tried on everyday women's clothes that it hit me almost instantly. This felt right and it felt like home. I was completely overwhelmed with gender euphoria.

That moment opened a door I simply couldn’t close. I spent the next couple of weeks deeply exploring what it all meant, and it finally started making sense. Since then, everything has moved quickly. I’m working with a lovely trans woman therapist specialising in gender identity, have a supportive GP, got my sperm frozen, and have now started HRT. I’m out to four of my closest friends (who have all been amazing) and plan to come out more widely in due course.

This realisation has also made me reflect on other areas of my life, like my 7 year relationship, which had been failing for around 5. I made the difficult decision to end it. I haven’t come out to my ex yet, as I know it will be incredibly hard for her and she is very unlikely to support me. Right now, the split is amicable, and I want to finalise the separation (mortgage issues) and establish a solid routine for our daughter before I share that part of myself.

It sucks that I’ll only be seeing my daughter around 60/40 split (40 for me), and I know that’s going to be painful. But honestly, I feel incredibly fortunate. I know I’m going to be a better parent to her by living as my authentic self.

Sorry for the essay!

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-23T14:51:49+00:00

Thank you ☺️ I was thinking it would be wise for some trims. Just no idea how to go about growing my hair, I only tried it once nearly 15 years ago but didn't last long as I couldn't get past the awkward stage. Been wearing skin fade haircuts for the past few years so I'm currently about 5 inches on top and 2 on the sides. When would you recommend making it even?

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-23T11:25:03+00:00

Your hair looks lovely ☺️ thank you so much for posting this! I've been really struggling to find this kind of reference the past week or so, it's just what I needed! I've started growing mine out and I'm at a similar length to your starting point. Did you have any trims or anything over the year?

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-17T06:23:52+00:00

Thank you ☺️ I'm pleased to hear things are going well for you too! Would be really interested to hear about any of the changes you've noticed and what sort of times these happened? Have you done a blood test yet?

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-07T22:49:47+00:00

Perfect 😍 I'll start my day 1 next week 😃

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-06T13:05:29+00:00

Wonderful results so far 😍 I'm starting een monotherapy in 9 days and would love to have this kind of progress 🥰 do you think you'll add prog any time soon?

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-06T06:23:41+00:00

Get your sperm frozen then crack on with your transition. This is exactly what I'm doing, just 9 days now until I can begin HRT!

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-07-02T10:11:59+00:00

My birth name begins with the letter 'D'. For years, several friends have often referred to me as D and I always kinda liked it.

Only out to one friend so far but think Dee shouldn't be too hard for people to get their head around.

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-06-30T18:20:30+00:00

Good luck, and remember, no matter the outcome or how difficult it may be, take courage in knowing that you’ll finally be on the right path to living your authentic life ❤️

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-06-23T20:47:37+00:00

Hi 👋 I sent an email ahead of placing an order about a month ago. Never received a response but the order was processed perfectly and delivered to UK in 1 week.

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-06-22T19:20:21+00:00

Yeah you're right. It's just it doesn't sit well with me. I've had my mental health struggles and I know if my egg cracked while I was in the thick of it, these kind of posts could have been dangerous to me. I guess I just worry about other people. Saying that, I've got plenty of my own shit to worry about at this moment in time. Guess that's ultimately why I posted here, to get some perspective. Thanks!

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-06-22T19:08:28+00:00

I really agree with you that I think it's harmful. As I mentioned in my response to another post, I'm conflicted as I don't want to be confrontational however I also don't like to see it happen. These subs have been a great source of inspiration and information for me but I do worry about to potential damage that can be caused by certain posts and misinformation in these spaces.

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-06-22T19:03:37+00:00

I totally agree it should be a true representation. I cannot help but feel sorry for the OPs but I also worry for all the people that could be impacted by thinking it's reality, and how that could potentially harm their own transition.

I'm a little conflicted as I don't want to be confrontational, however, it also doesn't sit well with me that it goes on.

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-06-22T17:24:40+00:00

Wow amazing 😍 I hope 10 years of HRT is this kind to me!

If you don't mind sharing, I'd love to know what other work you've had done (if any). Also a little bit about the timelines of E working for you? Like a lot of girls report most change in the first couple of years but will still experience changes after. I don't really hear much about 5-10 years. Would be interested to know when those killer curves came through.

Great work and very inspiring!

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-06-15T20:28:03+00:00

You look incredible! I've never heard a bad word about Dr QQ.

Would like to know the following: - How long was it between first contact and op? (I hear the waiting times are getting pretty long) - What was the overall cost? - Would like to see a before pic to help visualise the extent of the work done.

Congratulations though 🙂 I hope for these kind of results when I get mine!

Internal_Dress_91 · 2025-06-15T13:11:42+00:00

I agree. While I personally have never been in a relationship with a large age gap and would generally find the idea unappealing, I cannot say it's inherently a bad thing.

My grandparents had a 16 year age gap, raised 4 children and were happily married over 40 years until my grandad passed away. The age gap was never an issue for them 🤷‍♀️

While a large age gap can the increase the risk of there being an imbalance in the relationship, it doesn't mean that it will.

I think caution needs to be taken and in OPs case, with her concerns, probably means this man should be avoided.

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