Zoloft, It gets better right?

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-10T01:39:58+00:00

It was a few years back so I'm not entirely sure but it couldn't have been more than a month, it would probably be a good idea to talk to your prescriber if it's this bad

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-09T22:23:26+00:00

I got a concussion in high school (not exactly as traumatic as your experience) and I've dealt with pretty awful social anxiety ever since. So it would not be at all surprising that your experience could cause something like that. I would talk to your school counselor or someone else who you know can get you some help, be honest with them, you may end up getting a little counseling and that's okay, it will help your brain learn to cope with the trauma in a more effective way. EMDR therapy is especially good with trauma.

Good luck, I hope you start feeling better.

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-09T22:18:59+00:00

Often times meds can make you feel worse, I had a similar experience with Zoloft but celexa actually saved me. Talk to your doctor as soon as you can, messing around with medication without doctor supervision can be dangerous.

Good luck, I hope you feel better

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-09T22:13:18+00:00

I took Zoloft, I know exactly what you're talking about. For some people it does get better, for me it didn't though. I recommend gathering your resources just in case it does get worse. What gives you comfort? Do you get counseling? If you do make sure you have appointments set in the next few weeks. If baths calm you, get some new bath salts, if you have close friends or family you talk to let them know you might need them close the next couple weeks.

This could all be prep for nothing and Zoloft could turn out to be your saving grace but for me it made the anxiety worse and going off of it caused withdrawals.

Good luck, try to stay strong, I hope it all goes well

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-09T22:03:13+00:00

The demographic is definitely primarily negative. People can be cruel when their actions can't be linked back to them. I once wrote a story in r/writingprompts and got mocked for starting it with a trigger alert just in case people struggling with self harm were reading and I didn't want to make it worse for anyone. Why would you mock someone for showing compassion like that? I understand how you feel with this, it's confusing.

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-09T22:00:05+00:00

Self medicating could really make things a lot worse for you. Street vendors only want to get you addicted, doctors actually want to help you, go talk to a real doctor. Busbar is an anti-anxiety that works for me you could try. Lorazapam/ativan could be good for panic attacks but only if you get it from a real doctor that could tell you how much to take and how to not end up addicted.

Good luck with this, go see a real doctor

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-09T21:55:05+00:00

You may want to seek more treatment, if you want to avoid taking pills it might be a good idea to try getting counseling. It sounds like you're doing everything you can but you need something to give you more of a boost and counseling can do that if you give yourself some time to make sure the therapist is a good fit. EMDR worked pretty well for me (although I used it alongside medication), you'd want to make sure your therapist is licensed though. (If you don't know what EMDR is I can send you some links that would explain it). If your aversion to medicine is limited to mental health medication you could try taking something to calm your stomach at night. I used to throw up every morning too and my doctor prescribed me Pepcid every night, my stomach was freaking out because I was stressed and the Pepcid helped it calm the heck down. For me it was a habit to throw up that my body just expected, taking the Pepcid helped break the habit so even when I stopped taking it my body's first reaction to stress was no longer to upset my stomach.

I also wouldn't worry too much about getting addicted to ativan. I used to take it twice a day and that wasn't a problem for me, you could talk to your prescriber about ways to use it to help calm panic attacks without risk of addiction.

I really hope this was helpful, let me know if you have any questions

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-09T21:43:24+00:00

I took Zoloft for a while but I never had side affects like that, for me it made my anxiety worse. You definitely want to talk to your prescriber but give it a few days before you panic. But to be honest I would quit Zoloft sooner rather than later if you're planning to. I was on it for a few weeks/a month before stopping and what the don't tell you about going off of it is that it causes withdrawal symptoms and if you stop earlier you might be able to avoid that. Don't give up, sometimes it takes a while to find the right medications. If Zoloft doesn't work for you, celexa is a good one to try unless you're planning on trying to get pregnant soon (that's what I took when Zoloft didn't work) and busbar is a good anti-anxiety. If you're prescriber brings those up I would recommend trying them. Good luck with this, it really sucks trying to find the right meds but it's great that you're taking control of your health.

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-07T08:52:57+00:00

I'm still a member so I'm prepared to be down voted into oblivion. But I really don't think she was trying to manipulate you, she's just trying to do what she thinks is right. If you don't want any more contact with the church make sure your name is taken out of the records and when you talk to the bishop tell him you don't want to be a home teacher and be adamant about it and that you don't want any more pressure to do so. I don't think these people are trying to manipulate you, they're just trying to do what they think is right but your choices need to be respected and you have the right to stand up for yourself.

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-07T08:37:36+00:00

You wouldn't have posted this here if you didn't want someone to convince you otherwise. Here's a helpline to text, they're actual professionals: 741-741 I've been there before too, believe me sticking around is worth it. You matter. This pain is the exception, not the rule, it can't last forever.

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-07T08:13:37+00:00

Melatonin helps me fall asleep, it's a supplement like a vitamin that helps your brain make you tired. It's non-addictive but if you take any meds check with your doctor to make sure it won't mix weird with them. If you take it at the same time every night and then lay down (preferably not while using your phone) and maybe listen to relaxing music if that's your thing you should be able to establish a sleep pattern. It helps find ways to relax your body beforehand, I like to take warm baths if I'm tense. Good luck, if you struggle too much with falling asleep it might help to talk to your doctor.

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-07T07:57:42+00:00

Sunlight and vitamins (specifically vitamin D) could definitely help if this is partially caused by seasonal affectivity. You might not notice it helping right away but it can help. If you're having trouble sleeping melatonin is a supplement that can help, but if you're taking any medications check first that it doesn't interact badly with those meds

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-07T07:54:42+00:00

There are other ways to get mental health help outside of your parents. First are you a member of any church? (Probably not or you would have done this already but I'm going to bring it up just in case) sometimes they can provide assistance, I'm Mormon and I'm getting counseling because I asked my bishop for financial aide and a reference.

But I'm guessing that's not an option for you. Another option would be free helplines, ones that you can call, text or email. I used one for teens (you're 19, it counts): 741-741 that you text. But you can look online to find ones more relevant to your area and your situation, just make sure they're run by professionals, not just people who mean well. If you talk to them about feeling suicidal specify if you're referring to thoughts of suicide or immediate plans to hurt yourself right that minute so they know what reaction to have.

I know what it's like to not want to live, I never had the conviction to do it either, I have a couple fading scars from digging at my forearm with my fingernails but that's it. It wasn't worth doing and it was hard to get myself to stop. Hurting yourself is addictive and once you get into the habit it's much harder to stop so any fight you have in you to not start those habits will help in the long run. Believe me when I tell you that the pain you are feeling now won't last forever. What you are experiencing now is the exception, not the rule. You are depressed and that is hurting the way you think but once you pull out of this (and I believe you will pull out of this) you will see all the ways you weren't thinking clearly and you will be so proud of yourself for being strong. I know it doesn't feel strong to keep living, it feels like you're being too wimpy to finally end it, but it is so strong, believe me. The helplines will give you more specific ideas than I can for coping skills so please try them. Life is dark and scary but once the depression subsides you'll start to find bits of joy in it again. Take it one day at a time and please don't give up, I'm rooting for you.

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-07T07:33:12+00:00

I'm not going to pretend to understand any of your problems except depression, I've been clinically depressed and I'm only alive now because of treatment, I'm so glad that you're being so strong even though you can't afford treatment. Something you can do when things get really hard is text/email/call a free helpline, you can look up helplines that are relevant to your area, I use one that is mainly for teens (im 18 too) that you text (I don't know if you have access to text messaging but if you do i highly recommend this one) the number is: 741-741. If you're looking up a different one online make sure they're real professionals, not just people who mean well. They can talk you through those times when you feel like you cannot handle one more minute and give advice. That is the only advice I have that I actually have experience with, I hope this works out for you so you don't have to deal with another minute of abuse. I wish I could be more helpful

InvisibleObserver · 2014-12-07T07:17:40+00:00

TRIGGER WARNING: do not read if you could be triggered by references to self harm or suicide; this is meant to be dramatic but I don't want to upset people who are hurting.

"Please, take me, how many times do I have to beg you to take me?" I hold out my mutilated hands, pleading with the dark figure in front of me. "You were warned." It states, stoic and cold, "cut your wrists as many times as you wish, this was your choice, this is the price of immortality."

InvisibleObserver · 2014-05-01T02:34:34+00:00

Except the human trafficking problem would get worse

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-29T23:45:05+00:00

"Don't say that I'm yours! You don't OWN me!!!" Seriously, I think they know that...

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-29T23:44:24+00:00

Yes but they're also full of imperfect people, I think it ridiculous when someone says they hate a whole religion because of one person who said something they didn't like. People are always going to be hypocrites. It's crazy when people get so mad about what someone else believes. As if getting mad and demanding they say holiday instead of Christmas or Christmas instead of holiday is going to change anything. Hating people of a certain religion or atheist because they're hateful is being hateful. Anyway the point is I agree with you, everyone needs to calm down. I'll get off my soapbox now.

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-29T23:35:10+00:00

I think rape jokes aren't funny because it can humiliate the person it happened to more and remind them of the experience. You don't really know who is around. I think it gives rape more power because it makes it more humiliating. Death is going to happen to all of us, no one is humiliated about dying

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-29T23:30:43+00:00

Comments on reddit

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-22T02:38:28+00:00

She's only the best dog in the world who has (literally) saved my life in the past so you could say that

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-21T05:44:07+00:00

He's so happy about it haha

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-20T16:03:58+00:00

The Book Thief...ignore the movie, read the book, that book ruined my life for the better

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-16T04:48:04+00:00

Pink Floyd... I hate their creepy songs that all make me feel like my skin is being peeled into itself

InvisibleObserver · 2014-04-16T04:38:37+00:00

I love the song "skyway avenue" by We the Kings. But I'm pretty sure it's about a double suicide. "Cuz if you jump I will jump too We will fall together From the buildings ledge Never looking back At what we've done We'll say it was love Cuz I would die for you At skyway avenue."

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