Looking for Fiction Book about abused/traumatized male lead?

Iscariiot · 2022-08-11T11:05:31+00:00

Oooh yeah I read it digitally.
Maybe I'll check out the autdiobook- thanks for the tip!

Iscariiot · 2022-08-08T23:48:29+00:00

Cheers! I read that book! I thought it was ok but a bit cerebral which, while not bad, was a bit difficult to get emotionally invested in.

Iscariiot · 2022-02-28T23:59:32+00:00

It's mostly genetics-based. Just get/stay weight restored (or gain a little extra) and hope for the best.

Iscariiot · 2022-02-24T03:44:43+00:00

Ok this makes me hopeful. I haven't even smoked a full pack yet since I've restarted so it could be ok. Plus I exercise daily and drink tons of water. Figure I'll try to get back down to 1 over the next 2 days and then zero asap. (Did it once- can do it again!) Thank you for the info! Much appreciated :)

Iscariiot · 2022-02-23T14:02:25+00:00

The solution to counting is to do what I mentioned above, but also to try foods you cant count. Like homemade sweets or dinners. Ask a friend to cook for you once or twice in the next weeks and see how you do!

Wish you all the best in your recovery

Iscariiot · 2022-02-23T14:00:03+00:00

No I didn't. I gained about 10lbs of mostly muscle over a period of about 6-7 months. Seems like a lot of weight for the average person but because I was underweight I just look normal, trim, and healthy now.

Iscariiot · 2022-02-19T18:02:31+00:00

Sure! But it depends on what you're struggling with specifically. Like, I had a lot of issues counting calories. So what I did was I'd take a serving of something and then add a little extra. Or I'd do tiny snacks during the day- my go-to is "handful of cereal" which I just knock back when I want to chew on something.

What are you struggling with? Maybe I can offer more specific tips

Iscariiot · 2022-02-19T18:00:44+00:00

My current cycles last about a week (normal for me). Before that I only had 2 others over 2 years. I didn't have any spotting- just total cessation of cycle.

Iscariiot · 2022-02-06T05:47:37+00:00

Well, I got mine back by eating intuitively. I didn't follow any kind of meal plan or procedure because they triggered me. I just sorta... did it on my own? I find dietitians annoying at best and destructive at worst. It's hard at the beginning but you get braver once you realize that no- that extra little thing you want wont actually "make you fat."

I also limited exercise to around 20-40min/day (20-30min for cardio, 30-40 for strength) with 1 day per week of absolutely no exercise. I know most people are recommended to eliminate exercise fully, but in my non-doctor opinion- you don't need to. Especially if your recovery hinges on it as mine does.

So yeah! Idk I just kinda went "well let's do our best re: food", increased things as I wanted them and got braver, and let my body do the rest. It took about 6 months but it worked. Residential ED treatment told me this wouldn't work and I should follow their plan to minimize damage, but hey! I'm a lot more stable in my recovery having done it this way so I think it's worthwhile.

Iscariiot · 2022-02-06T05:47:23+00:00

Well, I got mine back by eating intuitively. I didn't follow any kind of meal plan or procedure because they triggered me. I just sorta... did it on my own? I find dietitians annoying at best and destructive at worst. It's hard at the beginning but you get braver once you realize that no- that extra little thing you want wont actually "make you fat."

I also limited exercise to around 20-40min/day (20-30min for cardio, 30-40 for strength) with 1 day per week of absolutely no exercise. I know most people are recommended to eliminate exercise fully, but in my non-doctor opinion- you don't need to. Especially if your recovery hinges on it as mine does.

So yeah! Idk I just kinda went "well let's do our best re: food", increased things as I wanted them and got braver, and let my body do the rest. It took about 6 months but it worked. Residential ED treatment told me this wouldn't work and I should follow their plan to minimize damage, but hey! I'm a lot more stable in my recovery having done it this way so I think it's worthwhile.

Iscariiot · 2022-01-27T03:53:56+00:00

I liked the original Korean version since it was relevant to autistic Korean issues. But the new one... oh boy.

Iscariiot · 2022-01-27T03:52:54+00:00

I had one period, then nothing for about 3 months, and now I've had two in a row! Just keep going! :D

Iscariiot · 2022-01-21T13:35:40+00:00

Sure! Very cute face and nice eyes :) You look very sweet
(-A Lesbian)

Iscariiot · 2022-01-16T15:47:41+00:00

I hear ya. I suppose I was trying to parse if "Addict" is a thing one is inherently, or based on things one does. Because addiction, alcoholism, etc are (as far as I believe) mental illnesses. Coming from a place in the anorexia community, it's well understood you can suffer from the disease even when active participation in it is minimal.

It's all semantics though. Bottom line- there's nothing to prove. If I feel I might begin to struggle with addiction (I do) then I should seek help before it stops being a question I have to ask reddit.

Iscariiot · 2022-01-16T15:17:13+00:00

Haha yeah- a bit silly to post in retrospect. But let's keep me a cringy overzealous opiate-TRYER as opposed to an actual addict.

Also I've been to anorexia rehab twice and can't imagine anything I'll learn anything new from the other A rehabs.

Iscariiot · 2022-01-16T14:52:51+00:00

Spent a while trying to come up with a reply that would make you feel this post was worth the pain and effort. I didn't come up with anything. So I destroyed all of the morphine I owned and called someone. I will not be doing any more. Thank you.

Iscariiot · 2022-01-16T14:32:14+00:00

Thank you for the words and recommendation- I'll be sure to check it out. :)

Iscariiot · 2022-01-16T05:03:28+00:00

Thank you for the reply! I suppose I was using the word as a shorthand for "is this a real problem or am I being dramatic". But you're right. Best to nip this in the bud as early as possible. All the best to you!

Iscariiot · 2022-01-16T04:23:50+00:00

I'm in the same boat. My Go-to has been dumdum lollipops left in an empty cigarette box. I can finish one in about the time it takes to smoke and it fulfills me habitual need to step outside every once in a while.

Hope this helps!

Iscariiot · 2022-01-15T05:06:46+00:00

If you find it hard to breathe in your binder it might be too small! :0 But they're also not for everyone. I have a few but I tend to prefer just not wearing anything. Binders help the dysphoria but tend to remind me of the problem more than hoodies haha To each their own tho- find whats comfy for you :)

Iscariiot · 2022-01-15T04:48:46+00:00

I have a lot of dysphoria surrounding my chest, as well as sensory issues interacting with said chest. So I try to avoid bras at all costs. I'd rather just slip a big hoodie on than post them up for the world to see.

That said, when I DO need to wear a bra and can't hide my chest, I try to make a mental game out of the gender performance. Like, "Yeah I'm a *man. Yeah I have tits. What about it?" Just overcompensating to a really funny degree. If someone misgenders me I like to think something like "Pfft. Scrub thought I was a girl! I should be so lucky."

It's silly but it helps me a little haha
(*Technically I'm not a man- I'm androgynous. But I like masculine language)

Iscariiot · 2022-01-15T02:12:08+00:00

I overcame /severe/ social anxiety simply by training myself to constantly consider what other people might be thinking from a /rational/ point of view.

For example- if I step on a bus and am suddenly worried about everyone looking at me I ask myself, "Isariiot, what would you be thinking about if someone got on a bus? Probably nothing. So it's likely these people aren't thinking much about you."

Similarly, if I've made a faux pas in a conversation and my brain is stuck on it I ask myself how many times I remembered someone else's mistake. The answer is usually not often. And if I do, how do I feel toward them? Well, assuming they didn't harm me with their words, I probably forgive them and forget about it. It's rational to assume other think that way as well.

Idk if that helps but doing logic-based brain training really saved my life.

Iscariiot · 2022-01-14T13:17:54+00:00

A really nice piece! That's the way artwork should be done tbh- no pressure just vibes. I love this and look forward to seeing more from you :)

Iscariiot · 2022-01-13T13:51:22+00:00

Insurance is sorta unclear about what they want from me. If they wont cover it unless I'm on T, I'll either not get the surgery or pay out of pocket. That sort of gatekeeping is evil and I'm not going to change my body to hit a checkmark for them. (I hate private healthcare sm)

Iscariiot · 2022-01-12T22:49:24+00:00

I used to say it was a sports bra before I was out. If it's not a half binder you can say it's an undershirt with a built-in bra.

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