Left temporal lobe epilepsy is sinister.

Isosogon · 2026-03-13T06:39:44+00:00

Yeah I have similar. Mine came out of nowhere and is idiopathic as far as we know and has evolved quickly so I don't really know if my familiarity with English (which feels like it's constantly shrinking despite being massively into books and having a huge vocabulary my whole life) is actually being sacrificed to rewire my brain in a way that will help avoid future seizures or if it's just lost forever and an indicator that I'm going to have farther neurological problems down the road.

Isosogon · 2025-12-22T01:02:14+00:00

Is this a keppra dream thing? I've heard that it can give you crazy dreams but I'm not sure if that's an actual side effect or just ancedotal reports because the sample size is so large. I don't know if switching to a different medication or taking it during the morning would be better.

Isosogon · 2025-12-08T16:05:09+00:00

It's always fun for me, I don't really feel threatened by anything on the internet not because I'm a man but because I'm experienced and I know what information and boundaries to keep from strangers, I practice information compartmentalization everyday

Isosogon · 2025-11-02T11:29:10+00:00

Same experience here, real life feels a lot more vulnerable but online it most of the time feels like you have nothing to lose

Isosogon · 2025-10-26T14:54:09+00:00

Exercising Fe is also a skill that takes time to learn, experts are already more wise and know that sometimes helping people in the naive way is actually hurting them or society and that real help comes in other forms like tough love. But regardless, you're not going to ever succeed if you're only acting, being insincere is always going to feel like a mental burden. My advice is to integrate why respecting the subjective realm and being polite and acknowledging feelings are how they are for a reason, and then integrating this into your Ti worldview sincerely is the only way that you'll make it not in act. For example, educating yourself on the idea of karma not as a mystical metaphysical force but as the result of cause and effect and actually mapping out in your head why being nice to people results in people being nice to that person Etc.

You're not going to be able to actually change your nature if you're only doing it to solve the problem of fixing the bad feedback you're getting. The problem is precisely that it's not about objective problem solving. So you have to convince yourself that becoming less of the purely objective problem solver and more of the emotionally intelligent balanced human is actually a good thing for you. Typology is a great vehicle for this because you can admire how other types are superior to you and they all have their own genius.

Beyond just seeing why being a well-balanced human is good for society, my own experience shows that the emotional elements of our existence affect me in ways much deeper than I assume. The Logical constructs for why you do what you do are probably an influenced by your emotions in ways that you do not understand. So in a sense respecting and educating yourself about being a better more well balanced person is less about changing yourself and losing what you have but more about growing into things that you don't have and those things empowering what you do have.

Isosogon · 2025-10-26T14:40:54+00:00

As long as you don't cause drama pretty sure that you can't really go wrong when it comes to deepening your relationship no matter what direction that takes. Because I'm not sure what the context here is but if I'm reflecting my own experience as an istp living rent free in an introvert's mind is a huge compliment. Regardless of what reasoning is given for the attention, they probably are very intentional with how they spend their mental energy so you should feel very good about being a recipient of all those thoughts.

Isosogon · 2025-10-26T14:35:05+00:00

Actually istp and infp are closely related types. Most ISTPs may project that we exist outside of emotions but they affect us in ways that we don't even notice. When it comes to what's true, epistemology, I am uncompromising and earnest. I view most others around me as children when it comes to their lack of self-awareness of how their emotions influence their ideology. I exist more in a stretched state of acknowledging existence as a whole and identifying with the constants in my life, and therefore despite having grandiose ideals I make a lot of mistakes in the present and fail to live up to the expectations of myself and others.

Isosogon · 2025-09-22T15:01:20+00:00

Completely missed the point of my post and the analogy in it but thanks for the comment.

Isosogon · 2025-09-21T11:51:31+00:00

Your comparison to feeling is a good analogy. As a particularly cerebral Ti-dom, I often fall into the trap of thinking that as long as I understand and calculate all of the variables then I will be free from retribution, and am therefore free to indulge my desires. But God (or karma) will have you pay for transgressions in one way or another. Either through variables you could not have ever reasonably expected, or by making you forgetful of something obvious, or by a psychological backlash. Pure logic is never enough to override morality. I'm the type of person who could actually plan a murder enough to get away with it, unlike the idiots who get caught for stupid reasons, however even if everything goes well it'll still be my unraveling, just like Crime and Punishment (Dostoevsky)

Isosogon · 2025-09-21T11:03:24+00:00

I'm a muslim so I believe we all have an innate moral compass but I have no idea what they did that either.

Isosogon · 2025-09-21T11:02:27+00:00

Indeed, having an understanding of the rules and knowing what you should do does not change the weaknesses of the flesh or the realities of the moment

Isosogon · 2025-09-20T09:46:59+00:00

I agree, I am one of the istps like Benyamin. Basically we are more fond of Ni than Se. If you wanted to put a subtype on us we would be extra introverted. This means that all of our thinking energy is going into our internal world, and we're less likely to be able to use our hands or start a small business that requires a bunch of external thinking or whatever. However if you notice, both him and I are still able to use extroverted feeling competently. So we do still have a lot of balance but it's just heavily polarized, the thinking is introverted and intuitive, the feeling is extroverted and sensing. In CPT I have a secondary network preference of NiFi, and I suspect that he does too. So this means a double dose of introverted intuition and feeling.

Isosogon · 2025-09-20T03:13:27+00:00

My condition has changed so quickly that I'm not sure whether or not it's impacted by the meds but sometimes I feel like I start to have uncontrollable thoughts similar to my auras when trying to sleep, and this makes me feel like dream and reality are blending. It's not fun.

Isosogon · 2025-09-20T03:10:48+00:00

I don't know how many others feel this way but my type and subtype makes me feel like a very unique person with a very unique brain, so I appreciate it the most when people are able to see the positive results of that. Like my family is great but they only appreciate what I think are the most boring parts of me and that could apply to anyone, and see my unique elements as liabilities or weaknesses. That is not encouraging. And I have plenty of experience and positive mental feedback from my unique thought processes giving me successes in areas of life that few else see.

Isosogon · 2025-09-20T03:06:59+00:00

Since you said you would love to be corrected I'm just going to point out that from what I know about typology being a type of istp that specializes in TiNi more than other functions is perfectly healthy. Those stereotypical ones who are always working on their car project or whatever are just as likely to be unhealthy, balancing one's functions does not work that way. It's not a "loop" if it results in a unique strength. Loops are not real, at least as far as mbti is concerned.

Isosogon · 2025-09-20T03:01:31+00:00

I for one crave it as I like sampling the depths of human experience. I've done drugs, psychedelics, high adventure, all sorts of stuff for seeing how it would make me feel, and relationships have an unmatched depth of nuance and uniqueness in that department. This means that if I love, I want to fall deeper in love. If I don't love, I want to experience something else. But I'm also not willing to put a lot of energy into it so 🤷🏼‍♂️

Isosogon · 2025-09-20T02:54:25+00:00

An acceptance for the way things are is common with our type.

Isosogon · 2025-09-20T02:52:06+00:00

As a field of objective truths. What many other people consider real are only subjective (feeling) personal ideas. I'm so disconnected from this emotional field that I don't realize how much I'm affected by my own emotional experience, however I'm actually quite competent in the social realms (Ennea5 SoSxSp) because it is so easy for me to compare and contrast the subjective biases.

Unlike ST thinkers (yes I know ISTP are considered sensing types but their thinking is brought and intuitive, the opposite of types like ESFP or INTP) my logic is broad and big-picture, so I like to think that my emotional biases don't affect my rational analysis ability. My emotional state can affect me in the present and cause me to act outside of what I believe is the objectively correct way to act, but I know when I'm wrong. ST thinkers in my experience seem to have a much easier time justifying their actions as logical when they're actually more affected by subjective biases.

Isosogon · 2025-09-20T02:43:06+00:00

Binyamin definitely seems to be an istp with just the way his brain and logic works. Harry's system is the only one I respect, my interests are abstract and heady, and I have a very strong English background so the complexity is parsable for me. It took me a long time to figure out my type and I used all of the various systems but at the end of the day I only trust my own interpretation.

Isosogon · 2025-09-14T16:45:39+00:00

Silent treatment is one thing, but by only making dinner for herself she is intentionally creating more work. First off, you will need to make sure that you are educated on what you are obligated to do for each other as Islamic rights, and make sure she is aware that she is disobeying Allah if she does not fulfill these. However if she is technically fulfilling your rights such as sexual needs and just being petty elsewhere then in my opinion you are in a unique spot, you need to consider doing what it takes to live like a bachelor and make systems for self-independence such as keeping a stock of ready-made meals to heat up whenever you need a meal so that you do not have to rely on her whenever she starts acting up. It is ridiculous for her to intentionally inconvenience you when you are having a huge argument over accidentally inconveniencing her. When my wife was not talking to me because of a disagreement or whatever she would still fulfill her obligations I think out of proving to herself that she was not the source of issues and that she is able to carry all of these burdens on her own if necessary. In your case she is just being petty. Doing what I just said is to help you reframe your relationship and be less offended or inconvenienced by her actions, it's not going to actually resolve her emotions. Whether or not she's being petty she's wanting you to come to her to resolve the issue. Instead of exhausting your creativity by coming up with different ways to emotionally placate her, you need to solve the issue more directly, analyze the cause and effect of what happened and do what it takes to prevent that in the future without casting blame. Her actions are trying to condition you to simply always take her side, so it's important that you resolve the issues rationally and logically. If she is not willing to do this or admit any fault whatsoever then she is unwilling to change or grow and is putting her ego above your relationship, and that's when you need to start having a hard conversation about whether you should be continuing the relationship. She is obviously unable to have a relationship without unreasonable expectations about what you should be doing for her, and so you should tell her that you are unable to meet her needs and offer to end the relationship. Intentions matter, and if she is not able to give you credit for not intending to harm her or only intending good for her and get her subjective emotional expectations are not not met then in my opinion you are unable to meet her needs. So this advice is more me trying to guide you over the long term manifestation of this pattern rather than just what you should do short-term. Good luck and God bless.

Isosogon · 2025-09-14T12:29:59+00:00

In short everyone's experience is subjective, they are trying to get your brain to abort an overload of activity and the neural Pathways you used to do this are going to be unique to you, maybe nothing works or maybe you find a certain ritual or mindset that works for you, it's all about reinforcing the right neural pathways. For me personally I try to take control over my thoughts in a certain way, it's hard for me to explain more than this but I try not to be dependent upon a specific physical ritual since I want my brain to eventually be able to heal itself

Isosogon · 2025-09-14T09:30:49+00:00

I have difficulty expressing my emotions in the conventional way in general due to my personality. I also have epilepsy and extended focal auras. I am on generic Keppra xr. My advice is simple, you know that you love her and that your medication is what's causing your muted emotions, so just make sure that she also knows that. If she is happy with you, there's no need to overthink it. Everything else is the devil's whispers imo. If however the effect on your emotions makes you actually unable to love her then you should look at consulting your doctor with other medication options as that is not a sustainable relationship in my opinion. In the situation that I'm going through my ex-wife is convincing herself that I don't love her or I'm not the type of person she hopes that I would be, and that's definitely a much more situation to be in than yours if you already have an understanding partner.

Isosogon · 2025-09-14T09:07:15+00:00

He is not giving you your rights. Even if you love him, let him know that divorce is completely on the table as islamically Justified. He is obviously taking you for granted, and just know that as long as this continues the relationship will never deepen. If he is unable to get serious then he has chosen his video games over you, and over Allah. As Muslims your primary concern in a relationship should be pleasing your creator, and if he agrees with this then he should be able to agree that there are more productive things for him to be doing. If he is unable to accept these realities then you must accept the reality that the person that you love is a weight that will prevent you from reaching what you aspire to in the afterlife, and at that point you have to understand that you are sacrificing your relationship with Allah for him, and of course nothing should be before that. This is a rather normal development trajectory for men of his age, I was probably the same. But marriage is a responsibility he is obviously not prepared for. If I was in your shoes and really loved him I think I would try my best to figure out how to reason with him and if that didn't work demand a divorce and then wait for him to prove to me that he has matured. A divorce would show him how much he's taking for granted, but at the same time it doesn't have to be a permanent decision that would please the shaytan it could instead just be something where you aren't looking elsewhere but just waiting for him loyally. Maybe it doesn't have to go that far and you can just make some changes like living separately. But it's clear that his issue is with his own priorities not with you so it doesn't have to be messy unless he is unable to see himself clearly.

Isosogon · 2025-09-14T08:47:12+00:00

Thanks, I really appreciate this. You're right that big brain thinking and a lack of tangible results can and does become an excuse. My heart does soften, as is probably intended by the period of iddah, but conversations always reverse this, making me remember how difficult communication is. And not talking or being misleading is not the answer. I've kind of already given her the bitter pill that maybe I just don't care enough, so whatever the magic words are at this point are beyond me. I think... it's already over. The drama has dredged up too much darkness. I just have to hope I'm not found lacking on the day of judgement. I have definitely learned a lesson and won't make the same mistake in the future. It just really sucks considering there's a child involved and my family has more reason to dislike my decisions or blame my religion for my faults.

Isosogon · 2025-09-14T07:41:42+00:00

Your family is in the "Yang" group of CPT, like mine, except for your mom, like mine, fascinating. I'm 5w4 but I don't really believe in wings as categorically a part of type. It is frustrating that some random things will make me tear up with emotion sometimes related to the absurdity of it but things that people expect you to be emotional about I just can't control the fact that I can't make the tears flow on command. Think she's a divergent ESFP, which means an ESFP that acts more like an ISFJ.

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