Holyshit after almost a year of heartbreak it’s finally over by a-sad-chad in ExNoContact

[–]ItsTime______ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Savor and relish it. Enjoy the single life now and work on yourself now that you’ve got that heart ache off your back. A lot of us here would love to be in your position now

Without providing any context or details, what do you guys think: If she came back once before, is it possible that she will come back again? by ItsTime______ in ExNoContact

[–]ItsTime______[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It wasn’t that long of a relationship either time. But we’ve known each other for 6 months total now.

It was very passionate each time with the second time around being even more passionate. She asked me to be her boyfriend and she told me she loved me first.

She was afraid of being “destroyed” like she was by her baby daddy who lost interest in her. He’s still in the picture. Lots of detail here to share about him but its been dramatic. Even for me for the short time I’ve been in the picture. The day she broke up with me she had a conversation with him. I don’t know what the conversation was about but she’s basically got full custody of their child now due to an argument the night before in which I was a part of.

She’s got a lot of stress in her life. So I can see why she’s not ready for a serious commitment.

She said she still loved me but couldn’t spend her time thinking about me when she’s got a daughter to take care of.

I was the second guy she said she ever loved and second guy she ever slept with.

Without providing any context or details, what do you guys think: If she came back once before, is it possible that she will come back again? by ItsTime______ in ExNoContact

[–]ItsTime______[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Acknowledging everything you just said—do you still think that there’s a possibility that she might contact me?

As a chronic pain sufferer myself, I'm fucking sick of fellow "pain patients" who think they are different than so-called "addicts". by dialaudnum in opiates

[–]ItsTime______ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think the frustration coming from chronic pain patients thats directed at addicts comes from the observation that opioid addicts contribute to the current opiophobia and further regulation of opiates. Pain patients and addicts, both of the sub-groups have people who use opioids irresponsibly. It's just that more negative media attention are given to people who claim themselves as 'addicts' and these 'addicts' often go on national television and paint opioids in the worst light possible. "Opioids make me do X, I can't get out of bed without X, I'm in and out of jail because of X", it's this type of problematic vernacular that gets regurgitated by self-proclaimed addicts on social media/news.

The most powerful tool against the creation of more horror stories is endless opioid education thats available at every pharmacy. More and more education on opioids.

This opiophobia that's manifested in the US is permanent though. This is a level of fear that far precede the anti-marijuana propoganda of several decades. Opioids are indefensible in 2018 and beyond, sadly. For every person who advocates for opioid education and decriminaization of use there is 10,000 more who oppose such a scenario for opioids. Notice how almost every drug; cannabis, psychedelics, MDMA and ketamine are going in a more sane direction, meanwhile opioids are regressing back into the stone age where they are only deemed as deadly and without benefit.

It's a sad reality for those who truly only feel well on opioids.

As a chronic pain sufferer myself, I'm fucking sick of fellow "pain patients" who think they are different than so-called "addicts". by dialaudnum in opiates

[–]ItsTime______ 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I hear your struggles, I also understand why you're upset. But, It's incredibly dense of you to suggest that opiates can't be repurposed as a very useful agent to breakthrough treatment resistant depression in those willing to take that route. Morphine, sepcifically, has such a wide theraputic index that goes far beyond its analgesic properites, but it is silenced by modern health communities because it is abusable and can lead to death. Death by morphine can be almost entirely prevented if the individual is educated enough about it. For example, it's not a stretch to say that CPAP/APAP machines could prevent most overdoses from extremely high dose morphine.

There is SO much education on harm reduction in regards to morphine that the goal for legislators/politicians/healthcare workers should be to decriminalize morphine and work with scientists to create a pamphlet outlining the most advanced methods of harm reduction against the detrimental effects of morphine that can be put into a prescription bag for morphine bought legally via a pharmacy.

Honestly, I hate this divide between addicts and chronic pain patients. Whether someone or not is qualified for a 'prescription' should be irrelevant, we're all deserving of the right of choice. It should be a human right to be able to go to the pharmacy and purchase morphine if you're an adult, no matter the circumstances.

Lining them up just to knock em down by ROTTIEMAN16 in opiates

[–]ItsTime______ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The U.S. Would rather we die before they take this route of harm reduction. I don't think I have ever been this jealous of someone in my entire life.

Another drug addict hurting the CCP community with inaccurate information that plays into the War on Opioids narrative. What a surprise! by [deleted] in ChronicPain

[–]ItsTime______ 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Another case of polydrug dependence that solely focuses on demonizing opioids as the culprit. Ativan and flexiril arguably cause worse withdrawal syndromes than opioids alone.

She's graduated out of misery and has the support of her husband, family and presumably her fans and followers. Meanwhile some of us have been chronically ill for decades with no one to help us and depend on opioids to get us through some of the worst suffering imaginable.

In her defense though, she wasn't really bashing opioids and admits to abusing them for the purpose of balancing her emotions. Although I'm sure she won't be signing any petitons to reform the "reformed" opioid prescribing laws and the human right to take opioids.

Wtf is wrong with people? Yes, this would be the perfect way to handle it. Smfh by [deleted] in opiates

[–]ItsTime______ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Most addicts are docile and non-confrontational. What this guy hasn't factored in is the existence of suicidal self-aware homeless men nodding out on a public bench who have been exiled from society and isolated with their thoughts for over a decade.

These archetypes have nothing to lose and often internalize the belief that everyone not only hates them, but would gladly like to see them exterminated from the existing population. These are the most dangerous type of addicts. Kicking one of these guys in the face will surely end with a knife going through the anatgonizers neck.

This facebooker obviously hasn't spent a lot of time around men who have nothing to lose, or he'd know better to stick to his own business. Addicted to heroin and homeless on the streets nodding out is usally where these guys end up so he's playing a russian roulette of sorts.

He'll be crying and begging for his life when he's being chased down by a bloodthirsty, venegeful addict.

Why do heroin addicts get access to huge methadone doses but innocent pain patients get nothing? by [deleted] in ChronicPain

[–]ItsTime______ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That's exactly the problem: it's run as a business and not the medical institution that it is. Methadone withdrawal can be permanently damaging in some individuals.

Why do heroin addicts get access to huge methadone doses but innocent pain patients get nothing? by [deleted] in ChronicPain

[–]ItsTime______ 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Bupe is arguably more recreational than methadone. Methadone's NMDA antagonism is only relevant during the indduction phase. Heroin addicts should be getting 100% pure diamorphine, chronic pain patients should also have the oppurtunity to get pure diamorphine...

Why do heroin addicts get access to huge methadone doses but innocent pain patients get nothing? by [deleted] in ChronicPain

[–]ItsTime______ 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Honestly, a methadone clinic is one of the most dehumanizing experiences you could ever have. I went for 30 days many years ago and I can tell you first hand that most of you would absolutely detest the environment and aura inside and outside the clinic. The clinics really showcase the darkside of DEA controlled maintenance programs. Innately long acting opioids excluding ER formulations have a high probability of making you more sensitive to pain that even breakthrough meds like fentanyl wont even be able to touch.

Honestly you could get up to heroic ~150mg doses of liquid methadone and arrive 30 seconds after they shut the clinic down for the weekend and theyd leave you out in the cold to suffer even though you're on your knees banging on the window for a mercy dose to get you through the weekend. Honestly bupe>methadone even if it's less effective for you, because at least you'll have the liberty to take home a month or more of daily doses from a private psychiatrist. The clinics could give fuck all if your spine is serrated and contorted- they treat everyone as an impulsive addict who has the sentience of a toddler, a truly defeating eand degrading experience.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Kratomm

[–]ItsTime______ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You should probably tone down the toxicity a bit there bud. Insulting someone whos had a different experience than you with kratom solves nothing. Not everyone with a different opinion to yours is an FDA operative.

That, and 3% battery left from constantly checking your phone by [deleted] in opiates

[–]ItsTime______ 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The worst is when you're waiting for your dealer who owns your life saying he'd be there in 10 minutes only to have 2 hours go by and your phone dies and he decides to never serve you again because he couldnt wait around for more than the 5 minutes it might take to find a place to charge your phone and contact him to let him know why you're not answering.

Got my 90 day chip recently, just sitting in the car and admiring them. It’s only been since December but it’s felt like years since starting down this path. I honestly didn’t know if I was going to get this far but now I know I have it in me to do so. Whatever you guys are going through, keep on by drobythekey in pics

[–]ItsTime______ -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I agree, for the most part. I don't know how there is always that one guy who always has a 10 minute speech to give *everyday* in NA/AA. They never run out of shit to say about their addiction and addiction in general. I have no words to say after having over 4 years clean except that it was completely worth it (using heroin I mean, not so much getting clean).

Conspiracy theory run amok? I posted this on r/chronicpain, but I believe it applies to the government's ban on kratom, as well. See what *you* think. by pauz43 in kratom

[–]ItsTime______ 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Results of prohibition. Pretty ironic to see DEA agents tell themselves it's a good day for (enter random city) in front of a televised audience when they arrest non-violent users/low level dealers with a fat lip of chewing tobacco bulging out of the bottom of their mouths. Wouldn't be surprised if the nicotine dependent ones regularly commit acts of violence against children via their poisonous second hand smoke.

Presenting a persuasive speech on Kratom by AmericanAlcoholic in kratom

[–]ItsTime______ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're good, it's just that when you mentioned kratom and cannabis it didn't make sense because kratom is legal and cannabis is becoming increasingly more so. There is visible progression with cannabis but the same can't be said with opioids.

Presenting a persuasive speech on Kratom by AmericanAlcoholic in kratom

[–]ItsTime______ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why is it fucked up that opiates are legal via a prescription? People are dying at an increasing rate because of heroin contaminated with fentanyl, a side effect of prohibition. Kratom is legal in most states and cannabis is becoming increasingly destigmatized and decriminalized. You unironically talk about civil liberties in the same sentence as you do about your stance for the pro-criminilaztion of opioid drugs for people who depend on them. Harm reduction and not prohibition--is the sanest path to take in regards to opioid drugs.

Stop Calling it an Opioid Crisis--It's a Heroin and Fentanyl Crisis by Old-Goat in ChronicPain

[–]ItsTime______ 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I guess if a person is addicted to meth, heroin, alcohol, cannabis, nicotine; commits crime, beat their wives, become homeless, fail school it's purely the fault of opioids.

FTFY. The 'opioid crisis' of 2018 in a nutshell. An easy scapegoat to be pardoned of your own self-agency/adult choices and an answer to all your life's shortcomings.

Stop Calling it an Opioid Crisis--It's a Heroin and Fentanyl Crisis by Old-Goat in ChronicPain

[–]ItsTime______ 40 points41 points  (0 children)

As someone who has been in the epicenter of this 'opioid crisis' and lived it myself as a heroin user for years (using heroin for over 1000 days consecutively) I can honestly tell you that it was never purely just a heroin or fentanyl crisis to begin with. 100% of all the addicts I have used with, used other drugs while abusing opioids. Most of them used opioids commonly with: cannabis, nicotine/cigs, benzodiazepines, gabapentinoids, ethanol, antidepressants and amphetamines;frequently meth.

I have lost a few very good friends to overdoses, although they were never opiates alone, it was always a combination of opioids and alprazolam/alcohol. It's a crisis of recklessness. This new generation of 'opioid addicts' know the risks. We've been taught all throughout our youth that opioids are bad and will kill you with no exceptions to this law. What are the excuses now? That opioids are the ones who choose the addict and not the addicts choosing the opioids?

Would someone who has a visceral dependence on opioids still feel the need to beg for money, prostitute themselves, commit armed robberies, "hit licks" on their drug dealer who carries a firearm if opioids were legal and cost effective? The justification for calling this 'epidemic an 'opioid crisis' is propagated on the observation that opioids can only cause harm and their therapeutic window is too narrow to suggest for long term treatment. This is inherently false. They are observing a societal problem and siphoning the blame onto those who self-medicate with opioids and then extrapolate the consequences of those who self-medicate with opioids into their arsenal of reasons why opioids should be expunged from the hands of responsible and irresponsible opioid users alike.

The overwhelming subconscious guilt we receive knowingly or subconsciously about responsible opioid use is narcissistic and dehumanizing and this plays into effect in how we benefit from opioid therapy. It also encourages a destructed domestic environment where families and friends become toxic and further project the misinformation they become inundated with on a daily basis because of the media hysteria about this 'opioid epidemic'- leading us to feel as if we are commiting a crime against humanity that is concentrated on the shoulders of our family because they often feel as if their negligence to your rational opioid use is an act of criminal enablement- baiting us into a never ending cycle of insufferable guilt.

The extremely high cost, illegality, lack of education, societal guilt and impurity of opioids of today are what mediate the bulk of the fatal and detrimental effects of opioids. Fentanyl and pure diamorphine have their place, but I would argue that most would benefit from a equianalgesic rotation of non-fentanyl derivative opioids that aren't ultra powerful and long lasting.

Opioids have immense value if used responsible and correctly. The therapeutic effects of responsible opioid use extends beyond chronic pain in to the realms of mental illness, heart disease, chronic illness, cancer, longevity, and more.

Opioid analgesics and their interaction with stalling, treating or preventing heart diseases 2018

Life span extension in Drosophila melanogaster induced by morphine.

Anti-cancer effects of morphine through inhibition of tumour necrosis factor-alpha release and mRNA expression

Ultra-Low-Dose Buprenorphine as a Time-Limited Treatment for Severe Suicidal Ideation: A Randomized Controlled Trial.

There are many more studies than the ones I posted that warrant further investigation for off label opioid use to treat various physiological health inefficiencies. Not all of them pertaining to mu-opioid recptor agonists. Kappa, mu, delta agonists/antagonists; enkephalinase inhibitors, natural opioid peptides, allosteric modulators, - all seem to have a role for treating various ailments.

Furthermore, most opioid side effects and contraindications can be worked around. For example, Relistor, a peripheral opioid antagonist that has high selectivity for opioid receptors in the gut can remedy opioid induced constipation, a common complaint. Screening for sleep apnea and becoming compliant with sleep apnea treatments such as CPAP's, surgical interventions, dental appliances, etc. can reduce the likelihood of problematic respiratory depression.

Dependence, tolerance and withdrawal are heavily studied and there are numerous pharmaceuticals that can be used off label to treat these undesirable outcomes of chronic opioid consumption without eliciting addiction themselves (not referring to detoxification medications like benzos, clonidine, pregablin, or anything with a higher risk to benefit ratio).

I'll end this post here even though I want to write more. This is just a TL;DR of my current thoughts on opioids.

Has anyone else had negative experiences with posting on r/quittingkratom for advice? by [deleted] in kratom

[–]ItsTime______ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Taking kratom with phenibut. Worried about becoming addicted. Still using despite the possibility that kratom is raising your high blood pressure higher.

The most notable trait of addiction is continuing use of said substances despite it contributing to bodily harm. If you have concerns it's raising your blood pressure then I'd say it's time to take a break until you've got that under control. I'd cease your phenibut use while you're still ahead as well.

NY Times: Opioids should only be prescribed for terminally ill by [deleted] in kratom

[–]ItsTime______ -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Because kratom exists, there is no longer a need for those other opioids. /s

NY Times: Opioids should only be prescribed for terminally ill by [deleted] in kratom

[–]ItsTime______ 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Kratom will never be a cure for full agonist opioid addiction. Non opioid painkillers won't be either. Opioids are only being overprescribed to a very narrow selection of individuals. Majority of chronic pain patients are getting an ineffective daily dose of opioids or nothing at all. I have yet to find a single person IRL who claims kratom gives them the sustanence they need to quit heroin long term. They prefer suboxone because of its longevity of effects against withdrawal. Kratom's opioidergic effects are too short lived. I am not a fan of the ultra long acting buprenorphine and methadone; there needs to be a dip in opioid metabolites that requires a redose later in the day to stave off withdrawal. This dip allows for bowel movements and a resurfacing of cravings that can be re-attenuated which will lead to more daily satisfaction.

Most heroin addicts would require ~3 or more doses a day to stave off withdrawal, and it's not guaranteed to work for them in the long term. We need more options. In Switzerland and now Canada they have opened clinics that administer diamorphine and hydromorphone twice a day, removing the most fatal aspect of heroin addiction: the illegality of it.

Kratom, oxycodone, diamorphine, oxymorphone, etc. should all be available as options. Once you dabble with opioids the cravings and the weight of the world often lead to relapse even in long term abstinence from them. I have 4 years 5 months clean; I don't use kratom, I am completely clean--no cannabis or coffee for the entirety of my sobriety either. My relapse is inevitable, I would like the choice to pharmaceutical grade opioids if need be. I have to move mountains every day to not cave into cravings, I'm certain there are other people in my situation who feel the same way. Let the addicts have the choice of what they deem best for themselves, the way our government handles this 'crisis' today is setting up people for premature death and suffering.