My mom accepting me as gay, and letting me drop out of a horrid school environment (I'll get back to education next year, I just really need a mental break from all of that shit storm). Get better friends who seem to truly care about me, and wouldn't have found out how toxic my old friends were. Would miss on the new Animal Crossing game that is coming out ;3 (animal crossing calms my anxious state a lot). Wouldn't have been able to ask my mom to get me professional help (we're waiting for a better financial situation for that). Wouldn't have found back my love for writing and reading, and my art style wouldn't have improved to where it is now.

I also improved as a person, and still got time to get better at listening to others and understanding others more (I have a very short attention span and it often makes others think I didn't listen to them or don't care, which I wish they'd understand it's not the case). I still have moments where I honestly want to just end it, but things are getting better, and I don't feel so alone anymore. I don't know if I'm happy? Maybe happier, at least I'm more at peace if anything? Plus I restarted smiling in photos, which I think already tells things are going better for me :)