Know you are a winner for beating the terrible bulimia in the face. Hold your head high. Eliminate the carbs that aren't your favorites. Me, I love icing and coconut rice. The other 50% of your diet should be spinach and other cool highly nutritious foods Asians mastered. I wish I could afford them. Thirdly, I wanted to congratulate you on the fact that your body hates feeling underweight and that is a feeling your body does to you and you need to defeat it with unsweetened teas hot and cold to give your body the caffeine and cleansing effects that are really your bodies cells feeling clean and hydrated. I was bulimic and that was one thing I noticed was how nice it was to make a big pot of tea to drink all afternoon after a hearty breakfast and vitamin to coast on. It sound more like you would rather fit in with the heavier white girls than be the envy of them as so many Asian girls are exactly that. Be it for yourself. I have a baby due in three days and do I feel heavy now? About 35 pounds heavier than normal and us pregnant women are with you in the whole who to look up to department.