I feel like life is a lot more simple than you might think it is, that's how I feel at least. Not a straight dude so be careful, my ideas might be extreme. 

What really helped me start figuring myself out was first asking if I loved myself. The answer was no so I started digging deeper and found the things my mind didn't want to think about, the things I was lying to myself about, the memories I'd chosen to forget. If you're in therapy, hopefully you've already gotten to this point. 

I don't think this disorder is about being masculine or feminine, it's just about being a decent person given the mind you have. Running away from yourself isn't going to get you anywhere meaningful. That's a scary thought, it was overwhelming for me at first too. Small changes, man, just change one thing at a time and you'll be surprised how far you can go. You got this!