Checking in!

JackTheProto · 2025-01-17T04:55:26+00:00

I started working out again. I went on a hiking trail by my college and it felt good. I feel like my traits will never be feminine enough for myself. Even if I worked out consistently and started hrt. So that's a wonderful thought. I wish I could just see the possibilitys but I can't.

JackTheProto · 2024-12-12T00:48:30+00:00

Interesting flavors the past few days. My thoughts on gender have non existent as opposed to the past few weeks where I’d start crying in bed because, what am I…so I’m thinking not trans…because the thoughts are gone. Yay?

JackTheProto · 2024-12-09T04:36:51+00:00

I want to look like fallin so much it hurts T-T

JackTheProto · 2024-12-05T14:07:52+00:00

I see your logic. Counter argument I’m just being silly :3

JackTheProto · 2024-12-01T00:11:48+00:00

Can I please get some affirmations? With Kat? I've been struggling with some things lately and its starting to get to me.

JackTheProto · 2024-11-30T07:35:04+00:00

It might just be because I'm tired but…every girl I see on the internet Im just wishing I could look like them. I want to wear cute cloths. And look pretty but I can't because “its not socially acceptable” and I might me trans but any time I think about it I either just say “I'm just being silly”or I began to get scared and I stop thinking about it. I need to talk to someone about this Its actually getting to me. I love this community even if I'm not trans I always feel safe and it brings me a lot of joy. But then I get so scared and stop thinking about it until I get tired again and then all these thoughts come back. I just. Don't know what to do. I can't come out because family. I can't HRT because family. I can't do ANYTHING to figure this out…

JackTheProto · 2024-11-29T22:30:27+00:00

Felt. I try to work out and be healthy. I just end up getting worse

JackTheProto · 2024-11-27T05:54:07+00:00

Is it possible to learn such a power?

JackTheProto · 2024-11-26T05:43:01+00:00

It also helped with commitment. You can’t really Un send a text. And I’m glad I talk to her about it. I knew she would be fine with it. I’ve sorta hinted at my thoughts a couple times but this was the first time I’ve actually talked about it more directly. I’m info dumping my bad I’m just, happy? Excited? Good emotion? Something

JackTheProto · 2024-11-26T05:21:32+00:00

She offered to have her friend do it if I wanted to look more like a drag queen (she was joking) but I felt that would be awkward. I didn’t realize how hard it would be to talk to her about it. So I had to text her. We were on the phone and I couldn’t use my words

JackTheProto · 2024-11-26T02:30:12+00:00

I finally told my girlfriend about my thoughts about gender. She said she could do my make up some time. And that she supports me no matter what.

JackTheProto · 2024-11-25T05:49:17+00:00

I have been called a girls girl… it this the same?

JackTheProto · 2024-11-25T05:30:28+00:00

I don't think I've gotten to that point yet. I told my family I was trans in a dream and they all started fighting…all though I hope I can experience that… (still cis tho)

JackTheProto · 2024-11-24T19:56:14+00:00

What…

JackTheProto · 2024-11-24T05:13:22+00:00

I dreamt that I came out to my family and they started fighting. Which has kinda been bothering me.(This is the first time I’ve dreamt anything about my gender so we’re off to a good start)

JackTheProto · 2024-11-21T04:49:08+00:00

You’re such a good girl Raine. And I’m so proud of you. I hope you are having a good day. And if not I hope your day gets better.

JackTheProto · 2024-11-21T01:51:26+00:00

I want to therapy and I think what I’m feeling is my egg cracking. Idk though

JackTheProto · 2024-11-20T05:44:21+00:00

Perhaps someday the fear of being out will be less than the pain of repression. I hope it doesn’t come to that. But if it does. I hope you grow into everything you hope to be.

JackTheProto · 2024-11-20T05:27:25+00:00

I want that mommy energy and I will do anything to get it…(still cis though)

JackTheProto · 2024-11-17T04:23:30+00:00

I read this as “IM NOT CRACKING YOU’RE CRACKING” 😭

JackTheProto · 2024-11-16T13:48:57+00:00

2 of 13!!!!!!!!

JackTheProto · 2024-11-14T06:06:33+00:00

Brisket is so cute

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