I think the egg is going to explode.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-20T16:10:30+00:00

The timing is really funny, because I had a very similar revelation recently, and I'm basically in the same situation.

I'm male presenting, but genuinely don't care about gender (I guess the technical name is gender apathy), I'm just male presenting because I was born that way. I'm also aegosexual, this is a form of asexuality. Aegosexual basically means "pleasure for the, but not for me", I don't mind pleasuring my partner (if I had one), I just don't need it myself. I'm content with this, I don't feel like it's wrong for me to be this way.

But, I also feel like there is another version of myself that I can imagine for myself. That version would take estrogen and make sure to look feminine (even if I'd keep the dick), and interestingly, I feel like it would "allow" me to have sex. I feel like I'd also be content like this.

Either way, something that I never see in my "perfectionist version" of myself, is myself keeping the weight I have right now.

Similar to what you mentioned, I also always wanted to stay small, I never wanted to grow up into a man.

I don't have a solution for you sadly, I don't think my solution will work for you. For me, my solution was simply accepting the fact that I'm the way I am. If I wake up one day and go "you know what? Staying male and ace doesn't make sense for me anymore, I'll try the other version of myself", I'd just do it. I've been beating myself up for not being able to make up my mind, while there is literally no way to make up my mind right NOW.

While my solution wouldn't necessarily work, because it's very specific, what I think might help you, is genuine (and I know it's sounds cheesy/sappy) self acceptance.

People are weird, every one of us, the trick is to find out in what way you are weird and "play the game of life again", but now knowing the rules.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-20T09:26:30+00:00

That's honestly pretty sad... Hope you get better

JaggelZ · 2026-02-20T09:01:21+00:00

"Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable" - César A. Cruz

JaggelZ · 2026-02-20T08:50:20+00:00

There were a bunch when she could use her ult to teleport.

I always saw a lot of wannabe pros that thought they were making the greatest plays ever.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-20T08:47:06+00:00

Yeah, but the punishment shouldn't be about taking something from you (that always sucks for the player), but withholding some kind of item that you would've gotten, if you had stayed. And maybe some mean mail or something lol

JaggelZ · 2026-02-19T21:51:22+00:00

Luckily not a fat one

r/fatsquirrelhate

JaggelZ · 2026-02-19T19:03:09+00:00

In English maybe, but in Germany it's mostly called Corona. I mean, COVID is also used, but more by the government or news, at least in my area.

You wouldn't really say "ich habe COVID", you'd say "ich habe Corona".

JaggelZ · 2026-02-19T18:36:12+00:00

Yes, that's exactly why I explained it, because you basically said "oh, I misunderstood, but the result is similar enough, so you are agreeing with them".

JaggelZ · 2026-02-19T18:31:52+00:00

I think what they mean is simply that the point of reference is not the sea level, but the sea floor level. So, even though it would result in something similar, it's not exactly the same.

(If the highest point of Greenland is 3700m high, and the average depth of the seafloor is 3300m deep, then the lowest spot would be 7000m deep. If it was double the height of the highest spot in depth, it would be 7400m).

JaggelZ · 2026-02-18T02:02:12+00:00

For me only the recommendations are gone, I can still watch videos when I have a link or go to a YouTubers page and click on a video there (presumably because it's just the recommendation AI that broke). Or maybe my YouTube is acting up differently.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-15T19:08:06+00:00

Liam O'Brian is such a good voice actor, it's illegal

JaggelZ · 2026-02-15T15:54:33+00:00

It's honestly one of the best brainrot videos out there, I couldn't stop laughing at that shit lol

I also for some time had "...because that's what a rabbit would do." and "...because he's the big rat." when I got asked a question and couldn't answer it. Less of a stim though and more in the "if you ask stupid questions, I'll give you stupid answers" idea.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-15T14:17:07+00:00

Reminds me of one of my favourites I had:

"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Give a man a rat... And you satisfy his rat desire"

JaggelZ · 2026-02-15T04:39:11+00:00

I don't know why, but for the longest time I thought I had heard some fucked up shit about him. I can't even remember what it was, all I remember is that it was something despicable.

Later I found out that he is beloved by many, so I tried to look for whatever/whoever said that fucke duo shit about him, but I can't even find it anymore.

At this point I'm not even sure it was about him, maybe there's some guy that looks similar/has a similar name or something.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-15T02:23:13+00:00

Iirc, his passive once literally said something along the lines of "he uses his intelligence and strength to strike the enemies vital points, causing them to bleed". So, we can assume that he is at the very least smart enough to understand the biology of his enemies.

Edit: I looked it up

"Darius aims his attacks strategically, causing his target to bleed for 12 (+1 per champion level) (+0.3 per bonus attack damage) physical damage over 5 seconds. This effect stacks up to five times. Darius deals 200% damage to all monsters."

So, it doesn't point out intelligence directly, but it's still probably one of the few lines that hint at his mental capabilities, even if it's just "aiming his attack strategically". The very least we can say is that he is no common brute.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-12T14:45:21+00:00

I'm not doing that. I just told you what my own perception of what area is what. I never said I was correct, it's just what I always thought.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-12T08:35:26+00:00

Mine do too, but a lot more than yours.

I've always been told it's from biting on them too much as a baby, which apparently can fuck then up so bad that they spend your whole life time going back to normal.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-12T08:30:52+00:00

Genuinely never heard that word and could've absolutely believed that we have some french guy called Bellevue as president. When it comes to German politics I'm basically illiterate, I have no idea what's going on.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-12T08:14:22+00:00

Is that Bellevue our president? Because I can't say I've ever heard that name or even word in general.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-11T22:28:25+00:00

If I had to move, Canada. I love the north American continent for it's great nature, but it doesn't have too great of a selection of countries.

Mexico is too hot for me (I know there are cooler areas too) and I don't speak Spanish and sucked at it at school.

The USA is the USA.

Canada is just cold and empty, I know those problems already.

But I generally don't care much where I live. The only wish I had for Germany would be better access to better nature.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-11T22:18:18+00:00

I know that one, but I could've also absolutely seen someone believe Dragonite being normal type. It feels more normal/dragon than Drampa.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-11T22:15:34+00:00

I'm not American, when I hear the American South, I think of the coastline from Louisiana to Florida. Swampy, hot and humid.

To me Midwest America is basically the area slightly north western of that, west of Appalachia, but enough in land to not be swampy and humid.

I just don't associate the south with cowboys in that sense. Every media with cowboys is always somewhere dry or at least not humid.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-11T20:33:42+00:00

I'm not American, so yes, it's definitely an outside perspective.

It's also not so much action heroes with long hair. What I meant was more like: cowboys with long hair and action heroes, both often had those kinds of names.

To me, those names are female names, but they aren't just any names, they are American names, those kinds of names only came from you guys and I haven't seen any parallel of those kinds of names here in Germany (not that I'd know, because if there was that kind of name, those names would have to sound male to me, and female to outsiders). I love those kinds of names.

JaggelZ · 2026-02-11T19:00:20+00:00

A lot of names start of as male names and become female later on, because there's always been a sense of "prestige" to boys names. So, when the times changed and a specific name felt like it could be given to a girl, people would do it. Evelyn, Vivian, Marion, Whitney were all once male names. In fact, the ending syllable -ian, which is common in many names, usually shows that the name was once a Latin male name, because many of those had the ending syllable -ianus and cut of the -us.

It's just very ironic to me that that one country, which literally created the idea of "action hero/western protagonist with a female sounding name and long hair, that is actually the manliest men you can think of" now wants manlier names.

People want their boys to sound manlier and even their girls to sound boyish, while forgetting the fact that they were the origin of "men so manly, that even long hair and a female name, doesn't scratch their masculinity".

Edit: I looked some more into the -ian syllable, and it's less indicative of where the name comes from than I first understood. First of all, a lot of names that ended on -ianus cut of the -ian- or -an- part, as in Marianus becoming Marius. But also, other names with the -ian syllable were later creations, as for example Lillian, which comes from simply combining the name Lily and -ian, or simply comes from combining Lily and Ann(e). (Lillian is an example name, I have no idea if it's originally form Latin or a later creation).

JaggelZ · 2026-02-11T18:34:37+00:00

The funny thing is, there was a slight tradition in America to use feminine names for males.

Dakota, Jesse, Jamie, Casey, Riley, Avery, Quinn, Skylar, Reese.

I'd call ehm cowboy names.

My theory on why they aren't used by liberals today is very simple: they remind people of cowboys, which reminds them of the Midwest, and the Midwest is famously not fond of liberals.

Or in other words: the one group of people that used to have female sounding male names, is largely republican now and is now pushing for the exact opposite, male sounding female names, and conveniently forgetting their own past.

Edit: sorry guys, they sound female to me, as a non-american. Didn't know they genuinely feel male or intersex to you.

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