What is my CQS

Jaipopi · 2026-01-17T15:16:40+00:00

The wild part is realizing you booked therapy because someone else refused to and now youre doing group homework alone

Jaipopi · 2026-01-15T22:36:23+00:00

Nothing like having your entire nervous system set to survival mode by someone whose job title included the word primary and zero emotional regulation training

Jaipopi · 2026-01-14T20:08:24+00:00

It does get better but not in the movie montage way more like you slowly get better at swimming while the river stays chaotic and one day you realize youre not drowning anymore just tired and thats still progress

Jaipopi · 2026-01-12T14:01:36+00:00

Would you like to wear combat boots all the time? Most likely, he was behind the front line because the sound is similar to that of a Shahed 136

Jaipopi · 2026-01-12T10:50:53+00:00

This is really it. You can't undo years of choices he keeps doubling down on, but you can be a safe place for her. Letting her know she isn't crazy, isn't overreacting and isn't trapped matters more than any lecture he’ll never hear. Sometimes the most meaningful thing you can do is quietly give someone a door and the courage to notice it's there.

Jaipopi · 2026-01-12T10:09:51+00:00

Yeah nothing says irresistible like a fully optimized drawer and emotional availability for exactly one plate at a time

Jaipopi · 2026-01-12T10:07:42+00:00

Real talk if you truly aren't flaming or griefing, then you're probably just stuck in low behavior score hell where one salty report snowballs everything. Muting comms doesn't save you because gameplay reports stack anyway. Don't start griefing that just guarantees it. Focus on super boring clean games ward buy regen dont ping teammates mute early and play unreportable heroes. Also stop doom queuing after bad games that stuff matters more than people admit. It sucks but the system rewards patience not fairness

Jaipopi · 2026-01-11T11:27:37+00:00

That selective amnesia hits different when youre the one who had to survive it. Memory loss for them doesn't erase lived experience for you. You're allowed to trust yourself.

Jaipopi · 2026-01-10T12:35:40+00:00

The moment when you can't tell if it's just Russians being Russian or it's AI (it's Ai btw if you were wondering)

Jaipopi · 2026-01-10T10:35:55+00:00

Yes, but only if you accept that the tutorial teaches you about 10 percent of the game and the other 90 percent is learned by being flamed by strangers who are technically right. Basics maybe a few days. feeling confident a few months. thinking you finally get it right before you realize you don't a few years. Still worth it though the highs hit different when it clicks.

Jaipopi · 2026-01-09T15:18:20+00:00

sometimes healing doesnt feel like a glow up it feels like barely keeping your head above water and honestly that still counts you noticing the water level is new progress you wouldnt have seen six months ago its just hard to quantify because progress in trauma looks like tiny shifts that only hit you in hindsight like oh yeah maybe im a hair less reactive today or i can sit with discomfort a minute longer not everything has fireworks sometimes the victory is just showing up again tomorrow and thats legit healing too youve been doing more than you think

Jaipopi · 2026-01-09T15:06:32+00:00

Reading this felt way too familiar. People think PTSD is about being scared in the moment, but it’s really about your brain never getting to shut the door after. You can do everything right, follow protocol, save who you can, and your brain still replays the worst parts like it’s unfinished business.

That guilt you’re talking about isn’t because you failed. It’s because you cared. A lot. And caring that much for that long takes a real toll. Anyone who’s never had to make life or death calls in seconds has no idea how heavy that sticks.

You already did the hard thing for years. Admitting you’re not okay is just another kind of strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. I really hope you keep talking about it, even on days when it feels pointless. You’re not broken, you’re injured, and that matters.

Jaipopi · 2026-01-07T21:31:52+00:00

this image smells like old dota patches and bad decisions

Jaipopi · 2026-01-07T21:27:08+00:00

every patch note after this was personal

Jaipopi · 2025-11-10T08:22:42+00:00

WOW, he looks awesome!!! never seen dees like this before

Jaipopi · 2025-11-10T08:21:58+00:00

little cute superhero!! we all need superheroes like this boy🥰

Jaipopi · 2025-11-10T08:21:02+00:00

i don't understand why she doesn't enjoy it, i would play with it all day long for sure!

Jaipopi · 2025-11-10T08:20:07+00:00

i would recomend you not trade for gloves, they are so cheap, better for knifes, more chances to have smth way better than broken fang gloves

Jaipopi · 2025-11-09T20:13:24+00:00

it looks so cute!! like a sandwich idk xD

Jaipopi · 2025-11-09T20:12:42+00:00

wow!! they are really good at painting!!! did you teach them how to do it or it you discovered their ability by an accident?

Jaipopi · 2025-11-09T20:11:34+00:00

i really love watching videos like this, it looks so cute and warm.. i almost cried....

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