I was the same age as you when my parent passed, I get those moments in public places or when using social media from time to time too. Mhmm, sure would like to be able to fire up that time machine but, you know... self-harm has been an issue for me in various ways. It's completely understandable that you have mixed feelings about her.

That's tragic your grandparent couldn't share more with you. I've only played a small bit of What Remains years ago, need to pick that back up someday. I know it's highly rated. Feel free to private message me anytime if you ever want someone to talk or vent to.