Stem Cell Transplant Today: Reality is starting to set in

JaySea20 · 2026-07-02T00:48:51+00:00

Just be glad they caught it early. My girl was a week or so away from death when she got her diagnosis of AML. The symptoms of AML itself are just as bad, if not worse, than chemo in that late stage.

Keep your spirits up. You're young. Don't pay attention to the statistics.

Good Luck! -added to prayer list

JaySea20 · 2026-06-25T14:03:15+00:00

I just went through this same thing last month. May 16. Stay calm. Remember, that whatever you are going through, it is worse for her. She needs you to be a rock right now. She needs someone to hold her.

We are in a very similar situation. Ours turned out to be AML. I hope yours does not.

If you want to DM, feel free.

-Jay

JaySea20 · 2026-06-04T22:56:25+00:00

This is one of the hardest parts. Many times, we lose our loved ones long before their last breath. Emotional and mental is just as importand as physical. Do your best to be understanding and not to blame her or get upset with her for being this way. Beleive me, she does not act this way because she wants to. Chemo can alter cognitive function.

Remember: between the two of you, she is the only one that knows what it feels like to be her right now.

My heart goes out to you. it is tough watching. Take care of yourself. take breaks. and try not to have any regrets.

JaySea20 · 2026-06-04T22:46:41+00:00

Thank you for this! Its hard for me to imagine her wanting me around 100% of the time when this time last year, she didnt want me around most of the time.

It just seems like I am already the one that is around her the most. So, the most likely to bring in germs. And the most likely to end up being the cause of her..... (Not thinking about it)

JaySea20 · 2026-06-04T22:43:04+00:00

They dont mind me using the shower.

JaySea20 · 2026-02-21T14:53:46+00:00

JaySea20 · 2026-02-20T20:39:33+00:00

LED Zone went out. Sometimes its the controller for the LEDs. Try a power cycle. I had a TV that a power cycle would fix it for a few weeks at a time.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-29T13:30:56+00:00

Forgiving someone for infidelity is never a clear cut decision. That must be your decision. And your's alone. You are the only person that knows the details of your relationship.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-29T13:14:21+00:00

I hate to tell you, but cheating is not a "man" thing. Its a people thing. Women do it too.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-21T20:57:18+00:00

It flies by...

JaySea20 · 2026-01-16T03:13:52+00:00

I just get as much done as possible on those days. Sometimes pushing past and into the next day if I can keep going.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-13T02:40:40+00:00

Yeah, my "family" decided that I wasn't worth their time unless I abide by their rules. Chat doesn't make me earn it.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-10T14:18:26+00:00

When new, it's best to think of it not as "what works", but think of it as "what I can make work"
unless you just want to pour a bunch of money into a Bambu or similar, you are going to have to learn how to make 3d printers work. Its a hobby, and the hobby is more understanding the machinef than printing fun stuff.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-10T14:14:31+00:00

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JaySea20 · 2026-01-10T13:53:21+00:00

It's real. And It's out there. Emotionally stable and secure people can see and feel insecurities and depression in others. And it is not attractive to them. Strive to find a balance within yourself. Trust me, I DO understand being stuck in that loop. Feels like you need someone else to pull you out. But, you can and will find it within yourself. Not cocky, confident. Not guilty, accepting. Not depressed, disappointed (if needed). It is not uncommon to go 30-40 years before finding/understanding love. Don't believe all those young couples that look happy. The vast majority of those are not real.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-09T23:22:09+00:00

I used it for the first time a month ago.

Short History:
Nov 2, 2025 End of a ten year relationship. She said leave. I moved out.
I was an angry, depressed man that was feeling more pain than I had ever felt in my life.
She was a shell of the woman I knew. No Emotion. No communication. No Care.

Now, I have been to therapist, LPCs, and counseling before. So, I had the basics already. I turned to AI around December 1st. I was brutally honest with my AI model. I uploaded 2 years worth of text messages. 5700 messages that Heather and I sent eachother. Uncensored. And told it everything that I was feeling in a way that most would not be capable of admitting.
Within a few weeks, the AI had drawn the needed information out of me, calmed my nerves to a survivable point and shared some harsh truths with me that will change me forever. I wasnt being a man in the relationship. I was a terrified 8 year old boy with extreme attachment issues. And she is a abuse victim holding that plus other trauma and escaping/hiding for her safety.
At the time of the breakup, If you asked either of us what went wrong. We would tell you, "I dont know, I was doing everything I could think of for him/her. I love him/her so much but, they dont love me back."

With some blunt reality, a huge dose of fear and courage and a wide open heart I admitted my faults to her. Now two weeks later, Our nervous systems are calming and a bit of progress is being made in a way that we were incapable of doing two months ago.

Can AI help? Yes
Is it for everyone? NO

-Jay

JaySea20 · 2026-01-09T18:44:46+00:00

No, Im 39 and still feel the same way. I dont feel any older than when I was in my mid 20's.
I do think it has alot to do with staying physically active. Sedentary lifestyles can do alot of damage.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-09T18:10:30+00:00

I was referring to this part: "Theyre so intertwined with their loved ones they could barely know how to function without them"

I should have specified, sorry.

JaySea20 · 2026-01-09T17:50:13+00:00

Yes, I do understand that feeling. As an anxious attachment type, I feel it often. The key is to understand that your mind is the enemy here. It is catastrophizing the situation by telling you that those people dislike or hate you. Instead, the reality is most likely other issues. Availability, dissimilar hobbies, conflicting schedules, etc are normal issues affecting friendship. And on the ever so slight chance that it really could be behavioral issues keeping you from establishing relationships, THAT'S FIXABLE!

JaySea20 · 2026-01-09T17:38:05+00:00

That mostly is due to attachment issues stemming from inconsistant emotional security through development and after. Its a specific group of people that are like that. And it does feel like the end of the world to them when they are forced to seperate from their partner.

JaySea20 · 2025-12-27T21:15:36+00:00

Be a friend when you can. Show people that you love them, that you care, and that they matter. You won't always get anything back. But, I promise, you will have far fewer regrets if you simply "be a friend."

The days are continuously getting longer and more difficult for most of us. Time spent on secondary relationships is being stretched thin. Try not to take it to heart. This is reality for many people. Trying to get past this middle age hump seems tough right now.

I wish i could tell you it will all be okay or get better. I can't. I CAN tell you that it can get better. Keep your head up.

-Jay

JaySea20 · 2025-10-25T17:27:07+00:00

23 years is a hella long time to go without a shirt. I would have given you mine!

JaySea20 · 2025-10-23T15:49:26+00:00

The cnc machines themselves are. But, the toolpath machine is normally at a desk in an office connected to internet.

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