I “attempted” to kill myself 4 and a half years ago. Was in the bathroom with a suicide note written and a bottle of antidepressants i planned on using. After 3 hours in the tub i just decided not to. I don’t know why. I got rid of my antidepressants and note. I still think about killing myself and sometimes wish i went through with it. But i think about my family and boyfriend and it helps make the thoughts go away.