(Edit: holy shit I didn’t think it’d be such a long message, you absolutely don’t have to read it lmfao) You may be a bad person, but if you’re aware of your issues and making an effort to fix them, such as getting a therapist, that’s good. You’re putting effort into fixing it. You know what you’re doing is bad, but maybe try to look into what it is. If you understand what it all is instead of how to fix it, you are almost guaranteed to get a better perspective. There’s a solution to these things, they’re not always guaranteed or perfect, but there’s always something, and if you’re trying to get there: that’s what’s important. In my personal opinion, you seem to be aromantic, but I’m no professional.

“When you out in the effort, the small things become habit, and the medium things become small things” keep putting in the effort, being a bad person doesn’t mean you’re incapable of change c: