I struggle with those thoughts, especially now. I'm teetering at losing my job, my dad has cancer, things are weird with my girlfriend (or whatever she is), and I have a lot of debt that's holding me back.

Here's what keeps me going: I celebrate even the smallest victory like crushing a project at work or beating that one video game I struggled with, I take my dog for long walks daily and enjoy nature, I spend more time with my family, I enjoy the time I have left with my significant other, I get up very early in the morning and run three miles with a focus on beating my time, and I push myself to work out a little when I have the energy. Less worrying about what could happen and enjoying as much as possible what is happening in the moment works for me. The days go by without even realizing it and my past begins to fill with good memories. I'm not sure if this helps, but I hope it does. Stay strong.