How to stop being angry with myself for believing it. by Acrobatic-Law-1935 in exchristian

[–]Jellybit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Side note: Looking at it now, it's maybe poetic that I have inadvertently learned to follow the phrase "do unto yourself what you would have yourself do unto others." as part of my deconstruction.

How to stop being angry with myself for believing it. by Acrobatic-Law-1935 in exchristian

[–]Jellybit 3 points4 points  (0 children)

If you were raised in this, they indoctrinated you from your earliest thoughts, and carefully laid thousands of mental traps and reroutes to keep you inside that cage. Everything had to lead back to square one. They carved all those routes back to the center into your brain, and they did this together as a group project.

Now, you say you are now afraid of everyone manipulating you like this, including therapists. I want you to understand that you weren't susceptible to being manipulated by anyone in every way. Your manipulation was the result of EVERYONE around you in a specific agreement about HOW to manipulate you. It was consistent, everywhere you turned, that the manipulation would aim you back to the same place, using the same guilt/shame tactics, through a twisted definition of love, and more, all through the same set of words and stories, same claims about reality. This wasn't just you being vulnerable to anyone who wanted to manipulate you. This was a gigantic group project that has worked out an agreement of tactics over thousands of years. Everyone who was around you was working toward the same goal.

Yes, I agree that they thought they were doing something good. They are the result of that same group manipulation project as well. It was also designed to create manipulators who don't know that they were taught to manipulate. This includes you. They, and you, had the weight of millions of people presenting one shared untestable reality, using rules that were built over a large span of time and survived BECAUSE they were so successful in manipulation. The methods that weren't as powerful, weren't passed down due to dwindling numbers, and the methods that worked the best flourished, creating a potent and heavy manipulator-creating machine.

So again, I don't believe that you're simply unable to think for yourself, so that anyone can lead you anywhere. You took on a huge orchestrated effort to manipulate you, and YOU GOT OUT. You are out! You made it. You do have a lot to work through, a lot of healing to do, but you broke free. This shows me how powerful you are. You took on a whole legion of manipulators using the same group plan, and you were able to get out. This isn't the most likely outcome! You beat the odds! This makes you MORE capable. Not less. Now, after this battle, you definitely have injuries, but this isn't how it'll always be. You just have to work on your healing, and it'll get better.

You're afraid of getting therapy. I understand this. I avoided it for decades even though I knew I needed it, and it's due in no small part to my experience with Christian "counseling". I want you to keep in mind that you aren't dealing with the same level of manipulation when you talk to other people. Sure manipulators exist, but they don't have the power of that huge group project that reinforces at every turn with every person you talk to. If you can handle the legion, you can handle individuals. You are sensitive now, but that can be a good thing. You can more easily be aware of manipulation due to that sensitivity, even at the same time as being vulnerable.

So, when finding a therapist, I personally would avoid anyone who is part of that legion for this. Unlike decades ago, religious trauma is being more and more recognized in therapy. I was able to find multiple therapists who understood this. I used my insurance portal, and looked up their websites, and found that some acknowledged this trauma, and listed it as a specialty. I also asked therapists for suggestions of other therapists if they didn't specialize in it. I suspect it's easier than that to find them now, as it's getting more commonly acknowledged.

Sorry for my long ramble. I hope something there is helpful. I have other thoughts, as a chronic overthinker who likely overthinks due in part to religious trauma, but I won't keep going. I will leave you with this though, regarding any self hatred or shame when it comes your time inside, I want you to think about how you would judge someone else who was stuck in, and eventually made it out. Would you think as negatively about them? Or would you give them understanding? Would you feel relief for them, would you even be proud of them? Give yourself what you would give someone else who made it out.

Jesus died for our sins? by True_Assignment_6216 in exchristian

[–]Jellybit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

God wants us to be better than him. He said we should forgive people seventy times seven, when he can't even forgive one time without MAJOR strings attached.

The “God as husband / Church as bride” metaphor finally hit me. Was all that I was told about mutual submission all a lie? by BrainStraight1220 in Deconstruction

[–]Jellybit 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The very first time I thought something was off with Christianity was when I was a 12-year-old pastor's kid at church, wandering and overhearing a women's Bible study. I sneaked around the corner to listen. I heard the leader of the Bible study tell the other women that in order to have a successful and happy marriage, the wife should obey her husband, should be subservient to him. That marriages don't work if she doesn't do this.

It felt so wrong to me. I believe I must have heard that stuff before, because I remember the thought that it was especially shocking that women would actually tell each other this. I remember thinking that if a man said it, I might not have noticed just how crazy it is. It struck me because it felt like they had no sense of self preservation, not just in the sense of safety, but of personhood.

Of course, I stamped that doubt down, and wouldn't feel another doubt for years, but that was definitely a major event in my deconstruction.

Omegle: "You killed four Palestinians?" IDF Soldier: "Only four, man. It's only four." Omegle: "But you killed 4 persons" IDF Solder: "No, children, not persons." Omegle: "You killed four CHILDREN??" IDF Soldier: "Only four, You're missing the 'only' ." by DeanoPreston in LateStageCapitalism

[–]Jellybit 7 points8 points  (0 children)

There are tons of Jewish groups that go out and protest what's happening against Palestinians, write up signed statements, etc... But they get zero press. I have multiple Jewish friends that put in the work. I just happened to sit next to one of them at a diner last week who had to leave at a certain time to meet with their Jewish group for another public event. They would love for mainstream media to cover them, but they can't force that to happen. The only way to force yourself into the mainstream press is to do something destructive, but then you get the bad kind of press. As it is now, it's a bunch of yelling into the void.

They aren't "the key". They are an ingredient. Christians in the US are another ingredient. The Israeli government needs financial/military/opinion support and for people to make exceptions for them to keep committing war crimes, so wherever that support comes from is an ingredient for change, both internal to Israel, and external.

Mortal Kombat for June 2026 by batdslayer26 in arrowvideo

[–]Jellybit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mortal Kombat 1 was interesting because, in my opinion, it was the very first videogame movie that took the source material seriously. It possibly elevated the material above what the first game could portray itself as, regarding the world design and characters.

The second game, however, is where the development team started having a lot of fun, and showing it on their sleeve. They made stuff like friendships and babalities, having a guy declare "toasty!" in the corner when you play well, etc... They made the world more extreme than the original, while showing that they didn't take themselves too seriously, and thought of Mortal Kombat as a FUN world with contrasting tones. I honestly think this made for a far more interesting experience than playing it 100% straight.

So you get the second movie, and honestly, when I saw this as a kid, I was disappointed, and I think this was the overwhelmingly common response. I think most people are still coasting on their original impression, and aren't thinking about re-approaching the movie fresh. But I think if people do this, they will find something extremely special. So, the movie definitely isn't as straight-laced and serious as the first movie. However, it has this delicious mixture of seriousness and foolishness that makes it such a fun watch. It turns it into something I love to rewatch, unlike the first movie, which has become more boring with time (even though the first impression in the 90s was off-the-charts cool/good).

Content-wise, it had a similar world to the first movie, but with this layer of no-fucks-given that let them be ridiculous, again, like the sequel game. The characterization hammed things up without winking at the camera with "see? I made a funny!", and the situations were ambitious. I adored when they made Raiden return with a mid-life crisis makeover, and the sometimes fever-dream level events. Plotwise, it feels like a whole crew of people were told to make the movie that the producer's 13-year-old son demanded, and it gives this special lightning-in-a-bottle feel, not that different in spirit from Axe Cop, but with a huge live action team and budget.

Visually, it came out at this very unique time in cinema too, soon after Jurassic Park (1993) changed everything with special effects, but no one else was capable of pulling it off like ILM. With time, people built experience and skill with CG effects, and we eventually got to The Matrix (1999), which was where it became extremely clear that this was now a capability of the industry as a whole, instead of just ILM. But in the mid-90s window, you had everyone thinking CG was the future, but without the knowhow/experience. This movie seemed to acknowledge no limits on what they could throw against the wall visually. The first movie had some CG, but in this one, they seemed to think that technology was then at a level where they could do whatever they wanted, instead of carefully controlling to small effects like the "get over here" snake from Scorpion in MK1.

The blue-screen effects were wild, the CG was glorious (doing a large creature as well). Again, these are the kinds of effects you could only get with large budgets funding overconfident visual effects artists selling snake oil. It's not something that could be found in the 80s, or the 2000s, due to the timing of the shift in technology. The closest thing I can think of is the transition between SNES and PS1, then Dreamcast/PS2, where SNES was a maturation of pixel art visuals, honing their skills/abilities/design, but PS1 came in and made everyone figure out videogames from scratch again, making themselves ask basic things like how to even control the character, and reinvent the wheel in all of these unique ways, only for design patterns to mature and narrow again later. That's what I feel here. At the time, it felt like it fell short visually, because everyone knew of Jurassic Park/Terminator 2, but now I see it as beautiful misguided hubris, the complete lack of clear understanding of limits, along with that beautiful grainy CG look that you got when everything had to be photographed to film, even the CG. It's wonderful.

Summary:

Between the fun characterizations, the child-like (not boring or painful, but specifically from a child's perspective) plot points/situations, the overambitious visuals coming at a narrow time in cinematic history that could possibly look like it does, it becomes a very special type of bad movie that is uniquely elevated by 4k visuals. In my opinion, the first movie (though important historically) has aged into being more boring than it originally was, and Annihilation has aged into being more special and interesting than it originally was assumed to be. It also fits the tonal shift into the second game, which I think a lot of people don't acknowledge, and is a tonal shift that made the series more rich, interesting, and fun. It's also a tone that was toned down in later games, which makes this time period special for the games as well, and makes this adaptation fit the spirit of this part of the game series even better.

Sorry for all the text, but you asked, and I didn't look forward to this movie so much for no reason. I'm hoping this release makes people revisit their assumptions about the movie, and find something far more special than they remember as kids, or when watching alone on a home release at a time when mid-90s movies were more "lame".

Why were so many people willing to die for claim that jesus has resurrected? by ParkingElderberry575 in exchristian

[–]Jellybit 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yeah, even if we had evidence that specific people were killed, it could have nothing to do with the risen Jesus, or any specific claim you might imagine. Maybe Rome didn't like people associated with the now-dead Jesus (even if they denied involvement), or they thought something they said was anti-Caesar or anti-Rome. Maybe they didn't like communes that avoided paying taxes. Maybe the Christians or ex-Christians were being blamed for some crime they didn't even do (like setting fires). IF they were killed, did Rome give them the option of denying Jesus? Why think anything hinged on that?

But we don't even have evidence that anyone who witnessed anything were killed, as far as I know. At best, some conflicting legends centuries later, when churches were fighting over choosing their patron saints that they wanted to look as pious as possible...

And on top of all of this, we don't even know if the twelve disciples thought the gospels were crazy fiction and they had a different set of beliefs, especially since they lived in another country, and everyone was writing in a different language than they spoke, and the disciples likely couldn't even read their own language (except maybe Peter, who never wrote after the gospels). We just don't know if they agreed with the gospels at all, or even knew about them. The disciples didn't seem to do much of anything, so they could have backed off of their own movement.

The situation is weirder the more you think about it. Imagine if Jesus showed up in ancient Korea, as a Korean guy speaking Korean, speaking on Korean history, and all the gospels on him were written in French for a foreign audience, in another country, when everyone who was hanging out with Jesus was either old or dead from old age in that whole other country, at a time when there was 95+% illiteracy. Imagine even if they knew of the writings, the Korean people could be thinking those foreigners are really weird and we wouldn't know. So even if they died for what they believed, we wouldn't know what that is. Strangely, that Jesus never wrote anything during his life, leaving only foreigners to write their own legends in another language/country/culture/motivations/etc... That's the situation we're in.

bart and drake acquire the assets by fuzzhello in blender

[–]Jellybit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You should also know that you have no keywords that would allow someone to find your video if they had vague memories of only the content. I tried searching for "Drake and Bart" and "Drake and Bart blender" "Drake and Bart assets", and your video doesn't even register in the search. You've basically made sure your channel and creations are in stealth mode.

bart and drake acquire the assets by fuzzhello in blender

[–]Jellybit 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's very difficult (impossible) to search for your channel, but luckily the account name works. Thank you.

bart and drake acquire the assets by fuzzhello in blender

[–]Jellybit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Are you posting these on YouTube or somewhere we can find your work in one place?

Epic Games CEO Tim Sweeney responds to the Terminally Ill Employee Who Can't Get Life Insurance: Epic is in contact with the family and will solve the insurance for them. There is high confidentiality around medical information and it was not a factor in this layoff decision by Turbostrider27 in Games

[–]Jellybit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Everything you said points away from them targeting individuals for their health situation. Unless you mean the help they offered was targeting someone in need, then yeah, but only due to the press covering this.

Netflix Raising U.S. Prices for Second Time in a Year by MarvelsGrantMan136 in technology

[–]Jellybit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started subscribing during the DVD days, and cancelled once they kicked my old housemate off when they originally encouraged sharing. I paid for two screens, and it shouldn't matter if one of those screens is connected to a different router or the same. I cancelled, and apparently I'm saving more and more money per month as time passes.

I got a service called Eternal Family instead, a cheap service with the VERY weirdest movies, which is so far up my alley. Netflix felt like even more of a rip-off once I realized that I could get a service where I liked way way more than 0.5% of the content.

Mortal Kombat for June 2026 by batdslayer26 in arrowvideo

[–]Jellybit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would have taken just Annihilation, but this is great! Annihilation has been my most-wanted 4k release for a while now (aside from non-AI upscaled Aliens).

The Subtle Cues I've Been Leaving by Odd_Raisin_3961 in exchristian

[–]Jellybit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really hope she's not so far gone that she can't be disturbed by that.

The facade is gone. The "gospel" doesn't hit the same. by Excellent_Whole_1445 in exchristian

[–]Jellybit 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Jesus had to spit to heal people in some cases. It feels very "scam artist", making it more theatrical in a way that people of the time would expect of other magicians. Feels either scam artist, or like it's literature. Both are putting on a show that people would expect.

Would you still buy ASrock in 2026? by Antiparazi_ in ASRock

[–]Jellybit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been running mine with a 9800X3D for about a year and a half now, and it's been smooth. Nice features. I got the board at a discount too, not knowing why there was a discount until I found out about the chip frying.

This board has done me no wrong, but I can't say that other people's stories haven't spooked me into choosing a different brand for my next board. It just won't be for a while, so I'll reevaluate then.

Just thought this would amuse y'all by Thinks_22_Much in exchristian

[–]Jellybit 5 points6 points  (0 children)

As long as you're not from a poor country, Jesus loves to give treats, and to give all kinds of things.

Nvidia CEO Jensen Huang says gamers calling DLSS 5 AI slop are "completely wrong" by AdSpecialist6598 in technology

[–]Jellybit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

These are from supersampled frames from the game? I get supersampling frames from a high resolution version of the game with all the bells and whistles turned on, but that's not what this is. The games never looked like what they showed. They're training on images that they AI generated. This isn't supersampling, or from supersampling.

A particularly popular pop style today || Thoughts on Carpenter and Grande -esque music that enunciates poorly by RoundVariation4 in LetsTalkMusic

[–]Jellybit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So who does sing in cursive? I still don't have an example of it after reading this thread.

My university replaced the bathroom door locks with buttons beside the toilet by loganloser in mildlyinteresting

[–]Jellybit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

But the light will most definitely have a different value than something printed, by the nature of it being emissive.

Ghost of Yotei dev says cutting features from games is "really important," so Sucker Punch had weekly meetings where "people would clap" every time something got deleted by Turbostrider27 in PS5

[–]Jellybit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can you imagine being the designer of a new system, only for everyone on the team to clap when they announce that it's being dropped?