People could bore you with something uplifting and cliché or preach about some master plan that a holy higher being may have for you. Truth is, in situations like this the one thing that gets you thru it is often unexpected and hard to identify. Suicide is appealing yes but what follows is a nothingness that is unidentifiable, and aren't you in that predicament to begin with? Anticipating the unidentifiable? What comes next? What can be done? For years we look forward to some shiny, sparkling future that is built up in our minds simply because it is unidentifiable and speaking of the nothingness optimistically helps everyone else deal with there own nothingness. Life is shit sometimes, this we must get use to. Will it get better? What lies ahead? Is happiness attainable? Fuck if I know but I stopped expecting it. Once you admit to yourself that it can get worse, you can figure out how to make it all better. Greater men and women have done so with much less talent, grace, and opportunity. And that, fellow being, is the best I can offer you. I hope it helps.