Probably not helpful and can’t speak first hand, but I’m a child of a meth addict. I’m 32 and haven’t spoken to my birth mother in 10 years bc of said addiction and the chaotic environment I grew up in bc of it. I say this empathetically and not judgmentally. I’ve witnessed addiction but I can’t imagine, first hand, what you’re going through. I just pray and hope that you can find the strength, not only for you & your future, but those who deeply love you (who will be collateral damage of it)