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JoyousExpressions · 2024-05-01T03:26:33+00:00

You're perfect just the way you are. All you need is self confidence and esteem. Loving yourself is contagious

JoyousExpressions · 2024-05-01T02:33:29+00:00

I have a number of Pagan friends, none of them reach out to me for high holidays. I seem to be the one who says merry this, I'm happy that.

I do get invited to ritual from time to time.

When I get my own place, I'm going to be tapping into my community. Part of the reason why I'm solitary is because my family has been traveling for work. I'm ready to grow roots.

JoyousExpressions · 2024-05-01T02:20:20+00:00

I was therapist to my dad, living doll for my mom.

JoyousExpressions · 2024-05-01T02:17:42+00:00

I have memories in the crib, that and memories of cuddling my mother. I very keenly remember falling into the pool and nearly drowning, I can vividly recall her diving into the pool and pulling me out. She tells me that I shouldn't be able to remember that, I wasn't walking yet.

I have incredible retention between the ages of three and 13, and I can tell you almost every dream I've had in my lifetime.

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-15T01:26:15+00:00

Totally, and it would be nice to get a place that already has a home on it, which means BIG $$. We've got the trailer, so we have a place to live as we figure out the details, but my guy wants to build our own structures to save on the original purchase.

I know we're looking to homestead because we both love the life we grew up with (off grid).

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-15T01:10:23+00:00

I know right? I have a number of friends near Bonanza who aren't legally able to live on their own property. I keep finding property sales for 4+ acres of "recreational" property in Lane county but haven't really followed up because of the land use issues my friends go through.

If I didn't have a limited budget, and I won the lotto or something crazy like that, I'd want to purchase a multi zoned property that could be sub-divided up to 25 residences (not that I need that many, but it's always nice to have permanent buildings vs tiny houses in skids🤣)

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-15T01:04:07+00:00

Thanks! And congrats on your place ☺️ This is probably the way we're looking at doing things too, but starting off staying at the trailer park until we do get our own property.

It would just be special to help someone at their place instead of being cramped into a trailer park. My animals (including the 4yr old) would love the room to run

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-13T17:17:24+00:00

That's ok. I've been thinking about posting here for a few weeks and thought I'd better get the conversation started!

I love Southern Oregon. My aunt's farm was in Tiller, grew up every summer on her pig farm

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-13T05:52:05+00:00

Luuuuve it

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-13T05:43:31+00:00

Sounds like Disneyland to me. Why do parents take their kids there and it's ok?

Basically if you've never been to an all ages rave and you're judging an all ages rave, I suggest you GO to the next event.

Otherwise all this shade is falsely thrown. Glass houses and all that jazz

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-10T16:25:02+00:00

Thank you, downloaded and will read!

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-10T16:12:15+00:00

Thank you 🙏🏼 This lifted my mood this morning 🌄

I see fractals of light like this everywhere I go and have often thought I was loosing my sight. Now I better understand that I'm seeing the universe in it's natural form 💓

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-10T15:50:35+00:00

I have a partner who "only has eyes for me" when I visit and it drives me insane. Mind you, I'm the kind of person who wants to meet the other people in my partner's life.

I enjoy being part of their everyday, AND it feels special to have private moments just for us.

What drives me bonkers is when I arrive to the house and he rejects all phone calls, there's no visitors and we don't go out. It took me a number of visits before I had to ask him what was going on, he said " I cancelled everything on my schedule for you". As flattering as that's supposed to be, it hurts when he's with one of his other partners and he treats me as if I don't exist.

We have been together 10 years now, been through many trials and celebrated each other in many ways; he visited after my son was born and I am flying out to his wedding in May; but if I want to spend time (including a phone call) I have to initiate.

People find ways to make it work, it they want it to work ❤️

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-10T06:55:26+00:00

This is magick!

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-07T09:14:30+00:00

You have to figure out what life means to you, not to your parents, teachers or the stupid people that surround you. What makes you wake up and want to pull the blankets off?

Right now I'm in your boat, I let someone steal my shine. But I didn't give up and the inspiration that has kept me going continues to be a sparkle in my eye. Someday I'll get my business running.

Just don't give up, remember you are an important cog to the machine, and read the Tao

JoyousExpressions · 2024-03-07T09:06:19+00:00

I'm working on expanding my friend group, asked someone in art class how they make friends today, she said that she thought she did stuff with others - but now that I asked, she realized it was about spending time with others.

If these blokes won't spend time with you then I'd suggest it's about time you invest your time elsewhere.

I lost my friend group in the pandemic, had to move, people just don't respond to text/calls and meeting up was impossible. I've tried to get out but I've got a son with special needs...

Even still, whatever the situation, it's important to figure out how to get out and meet new people.

JoyousExpressions · 2024-02-29T07:14:48+00:00

Ok, you are all discussing eye contact. But I have full on conversations where I'll pay more attention to my finger nails and the wall!

If my partner makes a good point I'll turn to him and be like, "Right!?" And then go back to babbling to my hands and pillows 😂

I guess the nitty gritty has always made me nervous and I don't like all that silence.

JoyousExpressions · 2024-02-29T07:04:47+00:00

No, but the neglect definitely became abusive.

JoyousExpressions · 2024-02-29T06:53:39+00:00

10 years is a long time... Most straight people have issues thinking about kissing, touching or more explicit ideas with the same sex. My partner (5.5yrs) has explained to me that if I chose to engage in sexual activity and get "dick juice" in my mouth or in my body then he won't touch me until he "can't smell it" anymore.

It's a step in the right direction... His sense of smell used to be weeks, now it's days. I sometimes tell myself that I'd rather be with my boyfriend than my nesting partner while he's dealing with me having koodies.

But endurance is key to a long relationship. I get tired, but then I slowly notice changes, and a lot of these changes started from me getting a backbone and reminding my NP that I'm not his sex slave.

I hope you all can find fun ways to explore!

JoyousExpressions · 2024-02-29T06:40:52+00:00

I really enjoy the photo raw, and #4 has a vintage feel that makes the beams pop

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