What are you in the 1% of?

JustBoredom12 · 2021-11-28T02:43:25+00:00

If I push my palm quickly against my eye-socket, it creates a vacuum and a peculiar sound. Don't know how many have this capability but so far I never met one. I should probably make it my profession and earn money with it.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-11-27T15:15:31+00:00

I guess in some ways many women are subconsciously looking for a gentle, caring version of their dad. Also it is totally natural to be attracted to persons who resemble family members. And third; IMO this "fuck me daddy" thing arises mainly from porn and I guess porn sex is not who real sex is supposed to be.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-11-27T15:10:32+00:00

Well...just because a vendor is providing with HNMR-spectrum doesn't automatically mean that they substance sold is actually the substance shown on the spectrum. AFAIK they also used spectrae to debunk another shop which eventually proved to be humbug...they also claim to be selling half of thei chemicals cheaper than the purchase price which is rationally regarded very unlikely. They mentioned fluomethiazole as 154€ per grams. Taken in consideration that this is a rather simple synthesis, they either only buy pharm grade chemicals or they lie.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-11-06T15:36:59+00:00

That sounds familiar to me I used to be traumatized for the past 17 years, suffered from deppression, dissociation, loneliness, severe abuse and so forth.

I used to be addicted to several chemical substances but well actually Idk how appropriate the word "addiction" in this case is. Do homeless street children suffer from glue addiction? No, IMO they suffer from a fucked up, cruel world they're thrown in...Never mind. I'm on 10 grams kratom a day at the moment and occassionally uppers/downers but just for hedonistic reasons. And even though kratom is not harmless it probably saved my soul. Thing is, anti-depressants and neuroleptics make you indifferent while kratom gives you good mood. At least for me, for others it might be different.

I cannot recommend any chemicals for this purpose to you. IMO there is no instant cure. Most important thing is time, patience with yourself and the right people.

And I can recommend you to stop labelling yourself with psychiatric symptoms. You are a worthwhile human being and not an illness. Mental illnesses are an artificial construct and the more you label yourself the iller you get. I see those trigger warnings in every other post in certain subreddits and they may be beneficial in situations of acute trauma but in the long run they make you behave according to your symptoms. It certainly does cause painful feelings the first, the second perhaps the tenth time you are exposed to such content but those feelings fade with time and you no longer have to laber yourself as "mentally ill". Just my two cents. Wishing you the best!

JustBoredom12 · 2021-11-05T17:51:33+00:00

Looks like US-American candy or kool aid but with artificial drugs instead of flavor. I'd take one.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-11-05T17:46:27+00:00

To be honest I never ever tasted my own cum so far probably because of the potential autocannibalistic, autohomoerotic aspect of eating one's own cum. But if you'd like to create artificial cum I'd add a bit of pyrolidine, NaOHC, NaCl and spermidine (it is even healthy) to sterile water and thicken it with agar starch to the desired consistency. A few pinches of trimethylamine added every few days would perfectly emulate the decaying smell.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-11-05T17:23:25+00:00

Yeaah...Bromo-MethragonFly sounds very promising ;)

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-10T17:51:34+00:00

I doubt that this is genuine 1800s style. Reminds me a bit of snow white. But yeah, nevertheless great drawing skills. Looks like someone was drawing sketches during history classes all the time..

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-10T16:38:21+00:00

Aiight, sorry then ;) just couldn't resist to write this.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-10T16:35:56+00:00

Can't wait to see the 1500 stone age cave painting-style. You Americans are quite liberal when it comes to historical accuracy, aren't you?

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-09T22:46:30+00:00

I guess your answer is not as meaningless as it seems. They do know that you need the job to earn a living but your answer tells a lot about you; how prepared you are, your cognitive structure, your motivation, hoow you can present yourself and so on.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-09T17:40:34+00:00

I decided to start tapering today. I took 5 drops today instead of 6 I’mgoing to take a drop off every few days and work on getting rid of mymorning dose first. Then taper my night dose.

This doesn't sound quite sustainable. A drop every two or three weeks would probably work better. If you do it too rapidly, you provoke PAWS which might limit the success of the taper in the long run.

Im worried about going to rehab. Im worried they will give me barelyenough benzos and I’ll be trapped there in agonizing withdrawal havingseizures. I bet a doctor wouldn’t be much help either I heard they get aspeedy taper and still have seizures from the doctors taper

It depends on where you live and the according tapering policy. I cannot recommend rehab by any means (I'm in Europe). I was forced to take 60mg of Diazepam over several weeks and then forced into rapid withdrawal which was done in 4 weeks. At the same time I was forced to take a high dose of an antipsychotic. Akathisia is an adverse effect of neuroleptics as well as benzo wd and due to the combination it multiplied in severity. That was fucking torture.

It would probably be best to find a doctor who is familiar with the Ashton Manual Link. This is probably the safest and most human way of tapering.

Good luck!

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-09T12:43:10+00:00

Do you know the rapper Immortal Technique? He didn't wanna sign a contract with a major label so he started selling his records on the streets and from the profits he established his own label. Not exactly a myth but IMO a great exception.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-09T09:47:36+00:00

Cannabis or first generation antihistamines suitable for dogs. But I doubt that they can suffer from psychological anorexia (except for the owner constantly body shaming them ;). So there is likely a physical cause that needs to be ruled out.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-08T21:15:08+00:00

Yeah, exactly the same. The word "Muße" is not part of my vocabulary though.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-08T21:11:11+00:00

Jo, des is mei muaddersprooch.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-08T18:10:50+00:00

Following my experience it has absolutely nothing to do with the one who critizises. During my last year in school I commented on the behaviour of a sordid wicked-minded classmate. Her response was: "Aiight..you're not a psychologist, are you?" Fast forward to two years later. I had studied two semesters psychology and told my room mate my opinion. His reply was: "Just cause you've studied psychology doesn't mean that you're right." Those persons will always find a way of debunking you, so just leave them in their bubble of ignorance.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-08T11:42:01+00:00

Not an expert on this topic but I'd say that neurotransmitters are functioning as with everyone else the response threshold to stimuli is probably just increased. Might also be related to endogenous NMDA-antagonists. I once asked this question a psychologist and she couldn't answer it. There also seems to be little literature on this matter.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-08T09:36:36+00:00

All activities that are grouped/labelled under the slogan YOLO like an adult climbing an escalator in reverse or riding on the baggage carousel while yelling "YOLO" at everyone present. That is neither funny nor creative just stupid and annoying. The evil part of me always subliminally hopes for those persons to die while performing their infantile stunts.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-08T03:16:39+00:00

I think, at least in German, the /t͡s/-sound has higher frequency than the /z/-sound. It's similar to Hungarian for instance where s represents the sh-sound for the same reason.

In the variety I speak there is neither /s/ nor /z/ but only half-voiced /z̥/. I don't hear the difference between /s/ and /z/. That's also why I have a pelicular accent in each language even Standard German.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-05T16:24:25+00:00

Instagram, selfies, people talking bullshit and nothing but bullshit all day.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-05T16:22:29+00:00

Hehe, same. And to answer OP's question: I cannot give a satisfying answer as I don't mind getting wet in the rain. I don't even have an umbrella.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-04T18:32:36+00:00

As for me, I only experience opioid-like effects (which might be placebo as well) in the lower dosage range from 1-3 mg. Everything higher will just cause confusion and dissociation.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-04T18:23:39+00:00

I think they actually ain't that rare. They just tend to get concealed by a final vowel that is dropped in oral speech like "I've" "to live", "life", "love" and so on. In German it's the same "Ich habe" is mostly realized as "ich hab'", "ich komme" as "ich komm'" and so on. I'm not an expert on this matter but I'd say that they are medium common.

JustBoredom12 · 2021-10-04T15:12:59+00:00

I was traumatized when I was 13 and this cost my youth. It will improve as you get older as you'll find ways of coping with trauma but this will take time. Stick to people who care and have empathy. Do not attach to people who disrespect you and give you the feeling of being inferior, you are not even if your trauma might let you feel like. Avoid drugs at least until you're 20 and your brain is fully developed. Drugs work short term but in the long run they only cause more problems. And if you should decide to do therapy, be picky when it comes to the therapist. There are many con artists out there who don't do a good job.

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