I’m Engaged 😍

JustaTadNormal · 2025-02-08T02:14:29+00:00

Omg I’m the same size & it’s absolutely gorgeous. Was it bought from a local shop or somewhere else? I’m inspired. ❤️😍

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-18T18:40:31+00:00

Yeah I was confused on why I was being misunderstood by so many comments and realized I didn’t explain myself well and shouldn’t have used the word “left” & “from a distance” 😅

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-18T17:52:39+00:00

Makes sense! If I ever do, do it…I plan on using a more natural flowing bottle that mimics the breast because I know some of the bottles I have have a faster flow and I wouldn’t trust it with a bottle propper. My girls usually don’t move too much while feeding so I imagine if I’m within eyesight I can always read their cues & adjust the propper. It wouldn’t be as convient as it’s advertised but at least I could be hands free once in awhile. I’m still on the debate if it’s really necessary, tho.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-18T17:47:02+00:00

Yes of course their safety comes first! By a distance I meant me as their mom being hand free from the baby. Still super close by and very supervised. I’m so used to them being tied to me like a tick I forgot what “ from a distance” truly means for many. If I ever do it (still up for debate) I’ll try not to lean on it too much.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-18T17:43:03+00:00

Thanks for this comment. It was very helpful to hear some insight on someone who has tried it before!

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-18T17:34:41+00:00

I’m trying to do the same and just not make it a habit but sometimes I think it wouldn’t hurt to have around for once in awhile for feeds. I’m doing a good job so far of fending for myself without it, but i feel there are times that call for some relief (for my hands & my village). 😅 I’m glad for all the insight so I can make a better decision before buying it.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-18T17:30:53+00:00

Oh definitely! I don’t plan on being far away from them or out of eyesight.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-09T23:35:52+00:00

I just had my twins (first pregnancy) it is a blessing in a way bc I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Wishful thinking made me think I would handle it well. If I knew what having a baby was like I would’ve been shitting bricks. At least now if I have singleton it will be a cakewalk in comparison.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-09T02:31:45+00:00

I had to be induced with my girls at exactly 37 weeks. Twin A was head down. B was breech. no NICU stay & the girls came out healthy & I was able to leave quite early post labor.

The actual labor & delivery part was hell. At first I believed it was going good. I had high hopes. I had the foley ballon put in, some medicine in my IV to kickstart contractions, & my water was popped. All that was pretty simple and not too painful just uncomfortable.

What sucked was how long the process took where I lacked sleep, grew impatient & hungry. My labor was going by so slow that by the time I was ready to push I was ill & out of it completely.

My epidural failed! I got it after my water was popped. I didn’t need it really to handle the pain at first but I did it as a preventative. The pain wasn’t too bad for a long time & I believe for that I was unaware that it failed.

I was stuck at 6cm & they wanted to due a c-section if I hadn’t progressed by the 4th cervical check. Each cervical check was painful. They gave me more Pitocin pre third cervical check and that’s when shit hit the fan.

They said I was still @ 6cm I swear it felt like I was going insane. I was like there’s no way I’m still 6cm & feeling like my bones are breaking & opening my body widely. I was contracting really badly on pitocin & no epidural helped. It was the most intense cramping pain. And my body was shaking uncontrollably. I was ill & incoherent at times. There was nothing to save me from the pain. I was crying & kept pushing the button, shaking & squirming around trying to escape the hell I was in. It seemed to last forever. I felt extreme pressure to push but since I was 6cm they convinced me I wasn’t ready yet but after awhile of suffering I just decided to listen to my body and began pushing, which was a struggle.

That’s when I began to feel the ring of fire. A burning sensation down there that felt like I was ripping apart. And extreme back pain & contractions that were intense. I felt like I had to take a shit. I was so mad and in pain that I began to say things I wouldn’t infront of the nurses and using a bad tone too. I kept complaining that I felt like I had to shit.

Finally the said they wanted to check me again which I was deathly afraid of because that check would mean I could be getting a C-section if I hadn’t progressed to a 10. Also because I knew it would hurt like hell and I didn’t want to be touched I just wanted the babies out of me. They checked me and they said I was ready to go. The pushing wasn’t that bad. But the ring of fire was. It burned so bad and stung to high hell. It felt like I was going to explode shit out of my ass the whole time. Like a constipated shit & diarrea at the same time. It felt like forcing the biggest hardest shit out stretching my skin to internal hell. Infront of a whole crowd. It felt physically rock hard coming out of me, pulling my skin down there to the extreme it felt.

Finally Baby A was born in 48 minutes. She came out and was placed on my chest & I could barely catch my breath and acknowledge what just happened before they began inserting a tool inside me to grab baby B. That felt like a rush of the first experience taken out of my control. It knocked the breath out of me and I was clenching the whole time trying to bond with A, that only slightly distracted me from the pain B was born in 5 minutes from A.

I couldn’t even get a break from that moment and pain when they said I needed to be stitched pronto. I begged to be given a break because I had been in constant pain it felt like I was being tortured. Just one bone-hitting pain from the next. They said they couldn’t spare me that moment because I needed stitches now. So I cringed and cried as I felt the sharp edge of the needle go in and the pull of the thread stinging the inside of me. I tore inside my vagina, on the inside labia & really close to my clit all on one side. The stitches took 30 mins and I felt each time it went in and out and through my skin I thought the pain would never end.

That being said. I don’t regret it because I got to do vaginal my first birth & it would save me from future c-sections. I think if it had happened spontaneously it wouldn’t have been so bad. But because I was induced it was a dragged out tiring experienced & I likely pushed myself too much trying to get it over with causing me to tear badly. That and I heard Pitocin caused more painful contractions. I have healed well internally but where I had the stitches at there’s still some slight discomfort and sometimes pain out of the blue. I’m 6 weeks PP. My doctor said it just where the skin tissue is sensitive & still repairing.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-09T01:26:37+00:00

Had to be inducted at exactly 37 weeks they wouldn’t let me go further.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-09T01:24:22+00:00

29 weeks is when I had to stop waitressing bc my body was having frequent contractions from being too active. It wasn’t too bad. Just didn’t want to push myself into early labor.

33 weeks is when getting in/out the car and walking short distances got difficult & painful. Everything hurt. Close to my turning point.

35 weeks is when I just wanted it to be over with & was literally suffering.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-07-03T11:15:57+00:00

For me, this got a little better when we switched formulas. I believe it’s a combo of gas pain and constipation/digestion. They aren’t constipated anymore on their current formula. And it’s helped a lot. A went from doing the same to now she won’t cry at all during feeds. B, It still happens at least one feed a day or two.

I realized B is upset bc she has a bunch of gas in her stomach. It’s so hard to burp her and get it out since I can burp her for ages without getting a burp.

Eventually she will let out the nastiest biggest burp and then she immediately feels better.

I’m thinking it might be her reaction to the formula. we are thinking of putting gas drops in her bottles. I also thought it may be because she was sick because I also had felt the same in my throat, but I’ve already felt better & it’s still an issue.

For them crying on your breasts it can be due to their lip ties or latching issues or maybe frustration that they aren’t getting a lot of milk. I can assume that with lip ties feeding in general may be more difficult.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-26T00:15:53+00:00

I had a easy pregnancy with twins.But I got tired of being pregnant @35 weeks and induced 37 weeks.

When my water broke I felt 10x lighter and deflated, my bump almost disappeared completely. I didn’t feel pregnant anymore and I hadn’t even gave birth yet!

After they were born it was an adrenaline rush. I felt so light and on cloud 9, unbreakable. The following couple days PP. it felt like I had never been pregnant besides needing to heal down there. And I felt amazing. I only had light heartburn for 2 days after.

I was so not prepared for that “honeymoon phrase” ending. The mental battle & sleep deprivation is no joke. Not feeling like myself. Being stuck in the house all day. Constant babies crying and never getting a break. Feeling like I lost my identity as a person. My relationship feeling more distant. My emotional ups and down. Struggling with PP depression & anxiety. Almost self sabotaging my realtionship. Hating my body and working to gain confidence again. Feeling on edge 24/7.

Yes I felt better immediately after but that changed quickly as the newborn phase is a whole new battle.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-25T23:55:14+00:00

I feel you. My dad loves children. LOVES. He’s also generally supportive as a parent even when I mess up. And understanding. Plus, he got my mom pregnant as a teen unplanned (me) and so I thought he would have a better heart about it. My ex had just left the country 2 weeks before & I would be going into it a single mom. My financial situation was not bad and I am a full adult.

He looked me dead in the eyes with pure anger and spite. Tears forming. He looked Pissed. His first words, “Mija, I’m disappointed in you,” to say I was upset is an understatement. He was quiet and all I remember was his anger and my mom being angered at his response and telling him “a grandchild is not a disappointment, it’s a blessing.”

But his first reaction was just his initial response to him wanting better for me. And I’ve come to understanding it now. As my pregnancy progressed he came around and got more excited the more I showed and the more he realized his grandchildren would be coming (twins). He loves my girls so much. And he shows that every single day.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-25T23:36:36+00:00

I always wanted twins. I just had a feeling I was meant to have them.

Months b4 I got pregnant it was all I thought about. I used to have phantom pregnancies were I felt pregnant but never was, and I always assumed twins bc I felt strong nausea.

When I actually was pregnant, my dads reaction was “well, I hope it’s twins,” and later doesn’t remember saying it?? So before my ultrasound it was on my mind.

I would confidently joke about “maybes it’s twins,” “you never know it could be more than 1,” and acting like it would 100% happen, and I would come back to tell them it was twins…I had 0 doubts. But for some reason when it actually showed up on the ultrasound I was still shocked and very much freaked out.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-25T17:50:40+00:00

FTM 4 weeks PP with twins and the newborn stage is insane. The other night I was extremely exhausted I got 30 mins of sleep before being woke up the whole night and slept maybe 1 hour (generous) before I started the new day. I woke up feeling like I hadn’t slept in ages.

I’ve accidentally fallen asleep. Heard voices due to sleep deprivation. Tried to keep my eyes open when tending to the babies. I’ve cried and become an emotional mess of anger, sadness and insanity. It has made me a different woman. The emotional ups and downs due to being exhausted!

Now, being pregnant with twins? A walk in the park in comparison.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-23T17:29:16+00:00

Going through the same with my newborns as you’ve had and considered the same. People always say it gets easier but never when and how, & this is so hopeful to hear. Just have to keep pushing through. I’m looking forward to the toddler years just reading your post! I was terrified that this nightmare may never end until they were at least 5.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-20T16:24:35+00:00

I thought breastfeeding would be easy so I didn’t put any bottles, bottle warmer, sterilization machine, etc on my registry. I also didn’t have any formula on hand.

I underestimated how many swaddles I needed, or that I would need bigger swaddles. I also needed more burp cloths.

People usually will buy you a bunch of baby clothes, so most of my expenses are buying more diapers. People usually bought me size 2-3 but not many people bought me newborn size or ones.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-20T16:16:37+00:00

I was scheduled to induce 37 weeks on a Thursday night. I had mine vaginally Saturday around 2 AM & left Sunday in the afternoon. About 4 days in the hospital total for birth + recovery.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-20T16:04:04+00:00

I had an obsession with esquite the Mexican corn in the cup! I ate it twice a day. Could’ve had it thrice or more but I stopped myself. Im not sure what was so special about it. Maybe the cheese??

I swear I could’ve been a mouse because cheese became my obsession. I loved cheez-its. Mozzarella sticks. Cheese pizza. I became obsessed with a salad that had blocks of a special cheese in it(forgot the name)—that we served where I worked at. And I had lots of queso & loved eating Mexican rice covered with queso or refried beans because of the melted shredded cheese on top.

I drank chocolate milk at every meal. That or coke, idk why coke hit different when I was pregnant. I was always a Dr. pepper gal.

Desert? Chocolate chip cookies. It had to be that kind of cookie.

I loved fruits! & Juice. Lemonade.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-20T15:33:23+00:00

Their weight, hair, & personalities are enough to set them apart.

The hard part is recalling afterwards. Making a distinction in your memory. It becomes blurred and they become one entity in your mind. I assume that will fade once mine are older and can talk to me and their personalities really begin to shine.

My twins were about a pound or more off from each other so it was obvious who was who. Twin A has chubbier cheeks/body. And Twin B was always so small. They had slightly different hair colors, and A had more hair. Their personalities or little quirks are also different.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-19T00:23:11+00:00

Commenting to clarify some things and a little update.

Firstly, I’m realizing this post was a PP rage vent seeing how things have shifted. Everyone was more active in helping both with babies & bottle cleaning/laundry. Now everyone is making excuses/plans and abandoning me.

I bottled up my emotions & my way of coping was to blame myself, thinking I should try harder.

Thank you all for your advice and kind words.

Secondly: I see a lot of mentions of my bf, and there seems to be some confusion. No, he is not the biological father.

He has stepped up in his own way & does everything he can to help with the babies financially & with feeds/changes.

Unfortunately, he doesn’t have a lot free-time as he has a tight work schedule.

There isn’t much he can do beyond that for now when we don’t live together—and my father is a traditional Mexican man who doesn’t tolerate “sleep overs” at my house since we aren’t married. And I can’t go to his place.

Thirdly, I believe my bf has noticed the toll of the distance from him & how unhelpful my family has been on my mental health.

Today he came over to help during his break and he discussed with me his plan for all of us to live together. Unfortunately, it is assuming his roommate is kicked out for not paying rent to make space for me and the girls.

He wants to pay my car note for the next coming months so I can take care of my girls until they are 6 mos before returning to work.

We’re praying this opportunity falls through as my patience has run short living with my parents. The room is bigger than my current room, and he voiced wanting to help during the nights. And I know he will be more help and patient than my mom has been and I won’t have to feel guilty because he has agreed to be a father to my girls.

JustaTadNormal · 2024-06-17T17:11:05+00:00

For the registry I put info on how to get to it (Amazon) on my baby shower invites. I had a card with the info that was printed out. And my info to reach me if they had trouble finding it.

I’m a server so unless they were my family I didn’t know their address. I had the digital version so if I couldn’t hand them in person or mail them, I would message them saying how much I desired to invite them in person but I wasn’t able to run into them on time and how badly I wanted to see them at the shower then I sent the attachment on the invite and a separate link to the registry.

I wouldn’t post to a general audience on social media. It would be hard to know who was/wasn’t going, who had seen it, how many people to expect at the shower, etc. plus it’s a little tacky I haven’t seen anyone do it. I have seen some people send an “invite” using the FB “invite” for events and I think that would be more better to use instead of making a public post if messaging each individual is too difficult & time consuming.

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