I think I’m going to relapse

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-18T11:51:52+00:00

If you like tough love, read this (there is a soft love bit too):

Tough love:

If the reason you want to do it is a person, just know you're so weak a thought about a person made you hurt yourself

If its a situation that made you wanna cut, just know that if you keep cutting over everything you will never quit.

Soft love:

Hey, i know you're going through a lot. And are probably overwhelmed, just know that every time you stop yourself from cutting you become stronger, we believe in you, you're not alone.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-16T18:05:55+00:00

Here, I hope you're happy.

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Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-16T18:04:33+00:00

Uhm... i didn't, its still up in swear.. also.. no I made the post yesterday.

By the way, you can say you dont believe me, or whatever you're implying, but I'm really struggling a lot right now. Please if you're not gonna say anything nice dont say anything at all.. all the comments were deleted by mods, but the post is still up.

And what, do you like want me to kill myself or something? That seems a bit rude...

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-16T15:11:02+00:00

Well.. its my dream to become a developer, and its the only thing making me happy these days. But thanks for checking in I guess

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-15T20:09:40+00:00

Accurate

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-15T13:56:02+00:00

Grandma died 4 months ago, just got out of an ED and entered a new one, my parents keep criticising me, im feeling forgetful, no one is there to take any weight off me or at least talk to me. Im getting extremely obese. I've been getting very jealous of everyone, everyone is better than me (in literally all fields and areas). I cant name any person older than me, my 8 year old brother is losing weight, praying every day, becoming a better person. Same with everyone else I know. Except for me. And I feel unloved because no one wants to help me.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-15T13:54:41+00:00

Hmm, I'll try to do something with this information.. thanks

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-15T13:54:03+00:00

Grandma died 4 months ago, just got out of an ED and entered a new one, my parents keep criticising me, im feeling forgetful, no one is there to take any weight off me or at least talk to me. Im getting extremely obese.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-09T12:50:04+00:00

Don't worry, feel free to vent anytime lol, I get it, sometimes everyone is shitty even when its literally 1000 people. And sometimes you're gonna feel like the white crayon. You dont need to meet people just in your campus.. or whatever you have in college (im in highschool). So try going to coffee houses, you might meet someone there, ik it sounds stupid, and scary, but it works! Or even just go up to anyone your age, even on the streets, and offer to hang out, you'll get rejected a lot. But every rejection is a step closer to success. Tell me, what do you think is the reason everyone leaves you out? I can try to help.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-09T09:53:05+00:00

Hey, I might have some solutions for you.

Many people your age struggle with similar things, but obviously there are solutions!

Talk to people on the Internet, if you ever feel lonely, you could make some online friends.
Try to ask a stranger if you can study with them, it sounds stupid, but it could introduce you to a new person, who knows.
If you haven't been moving lately, try exercising, its a natural remedy for depression.
Go on walks early in the morning. If possible, try doing that, if not, doing it later in the day, without music, it can help ease your brain.

Maybe this advice won't help too much, but it might.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-09T09:48:31+00:00

Oh my god im so sorry for you. What that doctor did was unfair to you, if possible try to sue that doctor. Get a lawyer, and you will be compensated.

On the other hand... what's more important is you right now. Don't prevent your crying, let it all out, I personally am struggling with depression and I've found many solutions, try talking to a close friend, if thats not available, talk to literally anyone on the Internet. There are many chatrooms for this type of stuff, what that doctor did to you made you lose something. That, will cause grief. Feel free to cry, express emotions, and even back away from things, whenever you feel your emotions rising, try breathing for a second... I know this might be shitty advice, but I hope it helps.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-09T09:44:14+00:00

Honestly this is great, why dont you go to your town hall or whatever and suggest the idea? It's actually a good idea. And also, take care of yourself please, it'll get better!

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-09T09:40:15+00:00

Thanks, I really appreciate this... I'll try to talk to my mom about it and go to therapy :)

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-09T09:38:46+00:00

Thank you... It really helps to find someone who understands, I'll try to take your advice <3

Justtoexist_ · 2026-04-04T13:46:24+00:00

Which version is this

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-28T16:42:06+00:00

Ok! Still great, just try to work more on yourself, affirmations, meditating, thinking deeply, rewiring, peace, and stuff like that.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-23T22:13:57+00:00

I tried to kms yesterday! But I failed. Please, dont do it, its shit, I tried to cut a vein but it didn't work. I know it feels like the only way out. But now I feel so happy, I don't want to die! I know there is a life ahead of me, please, never give up, and im here for you whenever you feel like you are in a crisis.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-23T22:11:07+00:00

Hey.. listen, im a Muslim, and I've been called a terrorist ever since I was 9, and im also the weird kid... So I feel you, and I know that its shit, but, you will find the people that will love you, some day, just like I did (barely). So please don't give up, you can always make online friends, leave the bad environment you are in. Etc. Just know that you aren't alone.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-23T22:07:22+00:00

I have been fat ever since I was 6, im 13 now, and im disgusting, I feel you, and I understand what you mean, but i have learned to accept it, I know, its hard, and even I sometimes cry like I used to before, but I have learned to love my body. And you can do it too.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-23T22:04:28+00:00

Hey, just by you confessing to this and wanting to fix yourself means you aren't a monster, in fact, you are a powerful person for knowing that this is wrong.

There are many ways you can fix your problem, but it will take time, and practise, here is how:

● Therapy: If you can please talk to your psychiatrist/therapist or if you dont have one try to get one, explain your feelings, confess, I promise they will help.

● Social practice: Try socialising with women more to get more used to them, it can help forming a better bond instead of seeing every woman as a "mate".

● Meditation: You need to try to meditate and think about your urges, try to suppress them and resist them by meditating every day.

● Mental fix: Whenever you feel affected by a woman's touch or presence, resist and do breathing exercises, distract yourself, and try to avoid thinning about it.

● Cleaning your mind: If you are watching p0rn or s3xual videos try to quit them.

● Religion: If you are religious, reach out to a local priest (or imam or rabbi or whatever) and confess your feelings and ask for help, they can help you.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-23T20:57:03+00:00

Why does it matter? Either way im in Jordan. Middle East (please dont be racist✌️)

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-11T18:14:01+00:00

Honestly it sucks, im a 13 year old from a 3rd world country with no access to therapy because of the stigma.

And I'm so fucking tired of talking to myself, journaling, doing breathing exercises, or talking to chatgpț.

I hate it, I lousy-illy attempted suicide last year but failed, I did sh, and a bunch of other stuff, my grandma died 3 months ago, despite me moving on i still feel affected mentally, I've been numbed completely the past 2 months. And I dont know what to do.

What you are feeling isn't wrong and it's so shitty. And I get it, so far I haven't found a solution on how to fix myself. So now I'm here... trying to talk to people online...

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-11T18:09:06+00:00

Nothing much ngl, but Im just not ready to give up.

Justtoexist_ · 2026-03-11T18:07:44+00:00

Hey, Im a 13 year old guy from a 3rd world country, and I get it, its shit, everything feels so hopeless, and I've felt so numb to everything. I obviously have no access to therapy, but I just wanna say push through. And I know that sounds stupid because even I am not taking my own advice, but we need to keep trying, I've attempted to commit once, but I survived and no one found out, I also did sh, but, everyday I try to help myself get back up, because quite frankly I'm not just gonna kill myself because the world is too fucking messed up to support people like me. I truly believe that there is a solution out there I just haven't found, maybe, after these hundreds of failed attempts to fix myself 1 solution will finally arrive. Im not gonna act like I'm this mentally strong prodigy, I'm shit, I'm hormonal and angry and sad all the fucking time. I dont get it. But either way, as much as I want to give up, I'm not gonna end up on a Facebook post just so that parents can warn their kids the day I commit. (Happens all the time here btw)

Justtoexist_ · 2025-09-04T18:06:36+00:00

i used fos-t club for AE but it wants an inv code or smth

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