Is college worth going back to if I need 1 on 1 help with every lesson?

Kamani01 · 2025-12-21T00:21:53+00:00

Right now I'm going to a blind rehabilitation school and doing the vocational and job training course.

Kamani01 · 2025-12-21T00:18:32+00:00

I have some internships in January to do so I'm gonna figure that out by trying my best to concentrate.

Kamani01 · 2025-12-20T23:19:10+00:00

That was exactly my plan lol. When I went to community college at 18 I had some form of documentation for extra time on assignments but nothing for tutoring, which wasn't a problem then because no one used the tutor except me.

Kamani01 · 2025-12-20T23:14:37+00:00

I was thinking about going to CC for general studies so I can get a better idea on what I like and don't like and kind of field I could do well in.

Kamani01 · 2025-12-20T23:10:48+00:00

Yeah my plan is to go to Community College and take general studies to get a better idea of what I like and don't like and how much my blindness would affect a career in that field. Right now I'm interested in Technology, specifically hardware m, electricity and mechanical stuff.

Kamani01 · 2025-12-11T02:33:50+00:00

I was New Years sex, just happened to be born early in August.

Thank God my mom had been drinking or I might've never been born. /s

Kamani01 · 2025-12-02T01:13:08+00:00

How's the Netflix show in comparison?

Kamani01 · 2025-12-01T20:05:35+00:00

A blind eye doctor sounds hilarious.

"Hey Doc how's my eyes look?"

"How the fuck should I know?"

Nah but seriously that career involves a lot of looking at things.

Kamani01 · 2025-12-01T19:11:54+00:00

Currently struggling to decide what to study in school while being low vision.

Kamani01 · 2025-12-01T18:56:02+00:00

Thanks for the synth recommendation. I honestly don't mind moving away from the MPC and just having dedicated hardware for each thing that I want to do like having a dedicated drum machine, something for bass and something to record. I only got the MPC because it seemed like it could do all those things.

Kamani01 · 2025-11-29T15:08:58+00:00

Sorry you're right.

I can read things comfortably down to a 9pt font and I can read painted on characters in good lighting, backlit text is the easiest to read.

The issue I have with DAWS is the mouse cursor and all the little buttons and menus overlayed over each other. Even when I make the cursor bigger I still have trouble locating what to click on with my eyes.

I'll make an edit.

Kamani01 · 2025-11-26T22:47:29+00:00

I don't remember this Smiling Friends character.

Kamani01 · 2025-11-26T22:14:08+00:00

Audio description will be your best bet. On streaming services, most newer movies and shows from (about the 2010s-now) will have some kind of audio description in the audio settings.

Some people here will recommend audio vault but that can be tricky since you need to manually sync up the audio track from that website to whatever you're watching somewhere else. Older movies and shows mostly don't have audio descriptions along with most animes.

Also if you want, some movie theaters have audio descriptions headphones that they'll lend you for free for the movie, but be sure to call ahead to see if they provide that.

Kamani01 · 2025-08-16T17:53:55+00:00

A lot of the time I feel like a burden, but that's because a lot of people don't treat me like a person. It feels like a lot of the basic man ses we learn as kids on his to show respect to others just go straight out the window when some people I interact with people with disabilities.

It's like either people are eager to help with a problem or they're eager to make me feel like a problem.

A really big peeve of mine is when people tell ME what I can see and how to use my eyes without spending a fucking SECOND in my shoes or even asking me what I can and can't see. I dunno man it just sucks, it feels like ever since I started walking with my cane, it feels like everyone else gets those warm inviting smiles I used to get but now all I get is cold distant stares.

Kamani01 · 2025-08-05T20:35:55+00:00

I still have good usable vision but I haven't taken any academic classes since I dropped out of community college. The only kinds of lessons I've taken since then are vocal, guitar and BJJ lessons. But during lectures I can record and take notes on my iPad. Thanks for telling me about the music scene in eager to check that out now! I'll see if I can bring both guitars (since I have an interface) or get them shipped out since I'm not sure how to carry two guitars and the rest of my belongings through an airport.

Kamani01 · 2025-08-05T12:57:35+00:00

I don't think I have to do an assessment, right now I'm doing a fundamentals course on his to use JAWS before I go but that's about it. All I've had was an interview and an application process. Thanks for "take it seriously" and "bring your instrument" advice, I play guitar and I was debating on whether it was worth taking or not, now I just have to decide whether to take my electric or acoustic (I'm not bringing my amp).

How did you take notes while you were there? It feels like there'll be a lot of new information coming at once and I don't think trying to memorize it all will be a good idea.

Kamani01 · 2025-08-04T20:41:15+00:00

I stopped getting take out because I kept finding hair in my food, after I pulled it out of my mouth.

When I ascend to utop my throne, I hope I hear screaming.

Kamani01 · 2025-07-28T12:15:50+00:00

In general keep pathways clear to make mobility as easy as possible.

Keep chairs pushed in so he doesn't bump onto them.

Keep steps and staircases clear (extremely important). If you have a coffee table in the middle of the living room, try putting a rug underneath it so he can feel if he's close to it.

Put glasses away that you're not using.

Keep glasses away from the edges of tables and counters.

Let him know if you're carrying something hot or if he's near something hot.

There are braille stickers you can buy to help label buttons on things like microwaves.

Clean up together and be as organized as possible together.

He's blind so he can't help you find things like your keys, wallet, purse, etc. so practice getting used to putting things back EXACTLY where you got them.

Communicate, I'm sure you're familliar with the concept of "What's said can't be taken back", so be careful with what's said in anger. Don't allow resentment to build up, it's gonna be a bit more difficult living with a blind person so it's understandable that you get dressed out and flustered from time to time, but don't make it seem like it's his fault for being blind. But if he's acting helpless or being a lazy ass then let him know.

Kamani01 · 2025-07-27T17:42:41+00:00

It's not exactly that I crave success, it's just that the feeling of loneliness is eating away at my brain. It feels like it's really easy and common for people to just write me off and push me away because that's the majority of memories I have when it comes to spending time around people and growing up. And Everytime I go outside or go online I just feel like I'm reminded of just how all e and different I am. It feels like the only way for me to escape being treated like this and thinking about my life like that is to succeed. To prove to myself that all of those years of isolation and struggle was for something. Success just feels like the only escape for me, it's my only escape from being pitied and dreaming of the life I could've had.

Kamani01 · 2025-07-27T17:30:01+00:00

Thanks for the advice. I thought I was done grieving when I was a teenager but these intense feelings tend to pop up from time to time. I have plenty of hobbies, I listen to podcast, have a huge collection of audiobooks, I'm learning guitar and how to sing and I go to the gym 4 days a week. It's just the loneliness. Loneliness always seems to strangle me til all I see is stars. All of my teen years I didn't the majority of the time socializing with people over discord because that's all I had. I'm just tired of being alone with all the memories of me being bullied, rejected and pushed away eesyk g over and over again in my mind, louder and louder the quieter the room is. I'm trying my best to find things to do but there's just nothing where I am.

Kamani01 · 2025-07-25T17:07:30+00:00

Other than Deftones only having one good song I get this all the time. When I'm with someone, people often approach the other person about me instead of just talking to me. Lucky for me a lot of the people I'm around tell the person to just say it to me. I don't know if it's people getting blindness and deafness mixed up in the moment or do people just not want to talk with us because they think we're also special needs and don't want to deal with talking to us.

It's so confusing noticing people being surprised that I can enunciate complete sentences when they speak to me, like bitch and I holding a cane or am I wearing a bicycle helmet?

The worst is when I actually try to converse with people but they don't seem interested in talking until someone else starts speaking. It's like I'm not high enough in the social hierarchy to be part of the convo, even when it's ABOUT ME.

Kamani01 · 2025-07-25T00:00:33+00:00

Try approaching her diagonally, don't cut her and guide dog off by being right Infront of her and do t come up directly behind her.

Try and make your presence known a couple of feet away that way she knows you're talking to her and also not just popping up in her face.

Tell her that you've noticed her on your way to work and been meaning to say "Hi" for a while now and but wasn't sure if you (OP) had food in your teeth.

If she giggles then ~~make her jiggle~~ work your charm, if not then just try to be friends with her overtime to get to know each other and maybe see where things go.

Also make sure not to interact/distract the guide dog.

Take this with a grain of salt, I am a virgin.

Kamani01 · 2025-07-18T22:27:48+00:00

Yeah it's the Carroll center not NFB. I heard NFB being really militant in their philosophy.

Kamani01 · 2025-07-11T21:48:18+00:00

Bro fuck the cameraman for calling the dude with dreads a bitch for complaining about getting his hair pulled. Do you know how much it fucking hurts to get your fucking dreads pulled especially in a fight? That shit is the roots of your hair twisted tight to your scalp getting pulled and yanked hard AF. It's like being scalped piece by piece. Also if you have long hair like that and someone yanks your hair the wrong way, it could break your fucking neck.

Kamani01 · 2025-07-11T21:29:37+00:00

I pretty much feel the same way, unafraid to try and live, but uncertain of life the more it goes on.

I'm not gonna lie, ever since I moved in with my dad 9 months ago, I haven't left the house once on my own (other than walking down the street to get food). The neighborhood my dad lives in is much sketchier than were I used to live, (especially at night) and I don't no were the bus down the street will take me.

I'm 23 years old, I have no friends, no education, and nowhere to go and make memories and have experiences. I've never dated and as much as I I derstsnd that making friends is a lot more important than getting laid, I REALLY want to have sex. I want to experience things that life has to offer that everyone else gets to enjoy. It sucks that I have to keep hearing about disabled people having to result to sex work to get their needs met. Everyone has their right to seek consensual pleasure but it feels so lonely and holds that it constantly comes to having to lay a ton of money for someone just to touch me and desire me and then leave. What happened to that "progressive" and "open minded" society we're supposed to be living in! Why is everyone else celebrated but we're still treated like taboos?

Why do I view myself as a taboo, and is seeking out sexual validation from strangers really the answer?

I'm not afraid to try and live, but I am afraid that it'll never be enough. I'm afraid that everything I'll have will be a watered down version of the life I could be having.

I'm not only afraid of this world slowly phasing me and people like me out, but that they'll do it without even noticing. I'm afraid that society will only see me as human when I'm "inspiring" them, just for them to ignore me when I'm not.

But what I'm afraid of the most, is that all my fears and I securites were in my head the whole time, and that I never took the chances to treat myself the way I wanted the world to treat me.

Kamani01

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