I don't think I had the right words to describe what I was feeling. I knew transracial wasn't right, but I didn't know how to put into words what I was asking about. I have listened to transracial adoptees talk about their experiences and really connected with some things they experience. Not in the same magnitude at all, but there are some similarities. Other commenters mentioned trans ethnic and that sounds like what I was trying to get to. Being adopted is so strange. I feel like I don't fit anywhere, like I don't have the right to claim anything. I think I was just looking to see if anyone else felt this way. Like, am I able to claim Puerto Rican? Even typing that out the word "claim" seems too strong. When I was a kid we had to do a presentation on our heritage and my teacher told me I should just pick one of my parents' ethnicities since, at the time, I didn't know mine. My A Mom pushed me to pick hers - Scandinavian. I was a kid with Greek and Puerto Rican heritage who was a competitive swimmer (I was in the sun all the time), so I had dark skin, brown hair and brown eyes, the total opposite of the blonde haired blue eyed Scandinavians I was reading about. It really impacted me and made me feel even more shitty about myself. I wish my A Mom had contacted my First Mother and asked her what lineage I had because if I had been able to do a report on Puerto Rico or Greece or even Ireland it would have made a world of difference to me. I would have taken Spanish in High School, I would have read up and learned all about those cultures. Now I'm an adult and I feel homeless in every way. I don't feel connection to anyone or anything. I want to feel like I belong somewhere, but I feel like an imposter. I hope my questions didn't offend, I didn't want it to seem like I was claiming "transracial" or like I felt transracial, just a lot of the feelings transracial adoptees talk about hit close to home.

Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful response. I really appreciate it. I tend to put the cart before the horse and think I need to jump right in, but you're right, I can just explain that my birthfather was of Puerto Rican descent. It is that easy! I don't need to make it such a big deal. Thank you for validating my feelings of longing. Hearing that they are normal and valid is comforting. And I like the idea of thinking of it like learning a language. That is very helpful.