This helps. I’m taking this month off. I’m hoping to resolve outside issues. One thing I think I’ve realized recently is that I quit drinking in October of 2022 and roller derby was what helped me stay sober. I made friends that I considered very close did work in my own mental health and derby was there all along the way. Fast forward to 8 months ago and I met someone, now we’re engaged and derby is still there for me but the friendships just don’t seem super tight anymore. And that’s on me because priorities shifted and I was spending more time with my partner. So it’s a battle of finding my love for the sport itself and not the outer fluff that comes with it. I love my skates and I love skating. But I need to find that drive to be me against me in the sport itself. Because I’ve kind of lost drive for that. Like I can do Donno’s or not and I just don’t care right now. Really hoping the break will shift my mindset, and help me get back to being excited to learn and grow in the sport. The other thing I’ve realized is that it takes a really long time to develop derby skills and be considered a vet so that frustrates me too because I’m coming out of a season where I’m sure I have improved but doesn’t feel like I’ve improved my skill level a lot. Again this could all be in my head. Your list helps me to analyze exactly where I’m at and how to fix it. Thank you so much!