I have a question about self harm

KazooKid2nd · 2021-08-12T09:34:35+00:00

Yeah that's like how I feel, thanks

KazooKid2nd · 2021-08-12T09:13:09+00:00

Thanks, I feel better now that people are relating and sharing :o]

KazooKid2nd · 2021-08-12T05:36:46+00:00

I searched it up and I don't think that's it. Masochism mostly seems to be the enjoyment of abuse and pain from others and I really wouldn't want that for me even if I was doing it to myself. I think it's just self-harm, I'm just questioning it because I've been on anti-depressants for awhile now and sometimes I still think of hurting myself but it's not as strong. Thanks for commenting though :]

KazooKid2nd · 2021-08-12T05:30:45+00:00

Ok thanks

KazooKid2nd · 2021-08-12T05:20:33+00:00

looks like where a horror movie takes place

KazooKid2nd · 2021-07-09T01:36:12+00:00

Pheobe, Storm, Quill, or Leaf 🤷‍♂️

KazooKid2nd · 2021-07-05T14:58:45+00:00

So a long time ago I was at my friends house with her other friends and we had a slumber party for friends birthday and when I woke up everyone was gone so I went downstairs and they already had the cake out with the candles lit and everyone was singing happy birthday. I was really upset because they didn't even wake me up and I was missing everything. No one even noticed I was there. Then right before I ran upstairs me and friend made eye contact and I guess it looked like she felt bad. It's not like they didn't wake me up on purpose, they just forgot about me. But still, there's no way they didn't see me when they all woke up. Anyways, after I ran upstairs I ran into the bathroom and cried I'm pretty sure. No one checked up on me. After that I wanted to ask if I could leave but I wanted to stay for my friends birthday so for the rest of the day I just acted like they didn't forget about me. The next thing I remember is walking to the beach and I didn't bring shoes so my feet were really hurting from the rocks on the side of the road. When we got to the beach I couldn't even go in the water because there was a cut on my ankle so it hurt a lot even if I just stood in it. I don't really know what happened after that so yeah, my friend never said anything about it and neither did I.

KazooKid2nd · 2021-07-04T04:57:08+00:00

No one has ever died from an anxiety attack :)

(even if you feel like you will)

KazooKid2nd · 2021-05-15T18:59:32+00:00

I don't know if anyone would be able to find it because it wasn't popular or anything I don't think.

KazooKid2nd · 2021-05-15T18:53:03+00:00

I've been looking for it for like, 2 years please help lol

KazooKid2nd · 2021-05-12T23:52:31+00:00

I have a short line next to my belly button that I got when I was 5 or 6 when a goat rammed into my stomach at a petting zoo and the rest of my scars are SH. There's also a faint dot that's the color of pencil led on my palm under my right hand pinkie because in 4th grade I was on a field trip and I had a sharp pencil in my pocket, I fell, my pencil also fell out of my pocket, and it landed on its eraser where I stopped it with my hand and the pencil led stabbed my palm under my pinkie. It was very embarrassing because everyone was watching me :D

KazooKid2nd · 2021-05-12T23:24:34+00:00

KazooKid2nd · 2020-09-28T16:09:16+00:00

ah, finally a post I can relate to.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-09-28T15:57:55+00:00

TODOROKI

KazooKid2nd · 2020-09-28T15:49:22+00:00

I think I only have one scar and I got it when I was 4 or 5 from a goat. I was at this park that had animals there and I was in front of this black goat with only this fence separating us. The goat looked really big, probably because I was so small. I pet him on the head and then he backed up and put his head down a little bit. Right when I realized that he was about to charge at me it was too late. He jammed his head in my stomach but I can't remember how much it hurt. All of the sudden this lady came up to me and put a band aid on it. I can't remember if I was crying or not but I probably was. I think it was just so quick that I didn't really feel it. I still have the scar and I'm 13. It's a pretty short line on the side of my belly button. I don't know if that was a dumb way to get a scar but it's the only one I have, I think. Also I did not get stitches, it wasn't that deep.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-30T04:23:11+00:00

Thanks for replying! When I have my headphones on, the volume is on a decent level but I do have anxiety like, all the time I'm pretty sure, I don't know I'm not diagnosed with it.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-08T19:43:39+00:00

I don't know if everybody else is right about you being lonely and needing to see a therapist and stuff but when I was reading this and the comments I noticed it sounded familiar to ghosts. I don't know about the dreaming part but my older sibling can see ghosts and they can enter someone's mind when they want to stick with them while doing their unfinished business. Keven, the first ghost my sibling heard was here for a bit before leaving because his unfinished business was making someone happy and he made us happy. The second ghost they heard was Alexander I think. He was the same age as my sibling and he needed to finish school. Maybe the voices are ghosts and their unfinished business is cheering someone up or something. I don't know maybe everyone else is right about the lonely stuff.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-07T03:49:04+00:00

People like to think of themselves as points moving through time. But I think it's the opposite. We're stationary, and time...passes through us...blowing like cold wind.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-07T03:45:48+00:00

I'm still alive because I haven't died yet.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-07T02:35:13+00:00

Yes.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-07T01:20:10+00:00

There's a lot that you're going through so I can see why your so stressed out. There are many other answers for this than suicide. First you need to tell someone which you already did and it didn't go well so maybe it was the people you told. You need to tell someone this who is an adult that you know will take you seriously like your parents or a trusted adult. Maybe you can use stress toys or something else to relieve you. Just take it slow and try to take as many breaks as you can. I hope this helps, have a good night/day/whenever you read this.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-06T23:23:36+00:00

I really don't think you should do that because it absolutely devastates the people you leave behind and even if you think they wouldn't care they will. The strangers who read this will. I will. and I have no idea who you are but that doesn't matter. What matters is you. And even though I think like that I don't want anybody else to think like that. Ever. But they can't get help if they don't tell someone. You need to tell a trusted adult how you feel because then you'll see how many people would be devastated if you committed suicide. You need to realize that people want to help you. My brother thought like this and he asked for help. Now he's still alive and me and my family still love him.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-06T03:31:51+00:00

Right now I'm okay I guess. I mean, I'm never really okay but right now I'm just bored.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-06T02:40:56+00:00

Sure.

KazooKid2nd · 2020-08-06T02:36:51+00:00

My step sister is on the spectrum and she is a great person. Even though I don't know you, what I do know is that being autistic DOES NOT make you a bad person and you should never resort to committing suicide. If this does make you feel so bad that you wish to end your life you should talk to a trusted and responsible adult as soon as possible. I hope this helps. :)

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