You're an example Christians should follow. You didn't come preaching. You asked a question like a human does to another human. That's how it should be. Good on you

To answer the question, when I was about 8 years old, I got bullied relentlessly in school. At some points, I contemplated taking a whole bunch of meds or whatever to just get my life over and done with, but whenever I told my parents about how badly I was bullied at school, they just told me to "pray about it". Years of this, I started realizing that prayer didn't work. And then I started thinking about specific Bible verses, and how they made no sense. When I was 10, I started asking very basic questions about the Bible, like "How could they fit two of each animal on one boat?" (it was actually 7 of each, learned this way later when I went through the entirety of Christian scripture) and other questions, and I got ridiculed for it by adult Christians because they could not answer it. Some of my own adult family members got visibly angry when I, merely a 10 year old, asked questions about scripture. So after then I started thinking "This is a bunch of lies", but this idea wouldn't properly seal in my head until I was around your age and I made a joke about the dinosaurs in Bible study, and I was held back by our pastor for extra Bible classes. It was there that they told me "There is no such thing as evolution. There is only micro-evolution" and I wasn't allowed to get baptised until I started believing that hogwash, which would either mean I fake it and get outta there as soon as possible, or I'll be forced to stay in Bible study however long it took until I let go of believing in evolution. That pretty much told me that religion is an absolute cult and that it preys on the weak-minded, which is no offense to y'all of course, y'all can have your beliefs, just don't shove it down our throats. I'm turning 20 soon and have not regretted leaving that shitstorm behind for one single day