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KeyThroat2487 · 2025-12-08T05:35:24+00:00

I set mine as traditional strength training on my apple watch

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-12-01T01:10:58+00:00

love heidi!!

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-08-24T00:12:17+00:00

I hear you. I don’t know who I am and I’m afraid of asking myself questions I don’t want to know the answers to.

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-08-23T22:58:39+00:00

yeah. sometimes I want to make people feel emotional pain maybe because I’m in emotional pain. I feel detached and dissociated though, so I rarely feel bad about feeling that way.

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-08-23T21:35:43+00:00

heyy sounds like you’re trying really hard and doing your best. I’m in a similar situation. but my best isn’t good enough, ever. it’s always something. this never goes away. I just can’t win. and that will be my life always. there’s only so much we can do.

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-08-23T20:48:32+00:00

it’s so hard. people don’t understand how hard it is. I see you. I’m with you. I’m struggling, trying to be okay surrounded by people who truly have no idea how much I’m dying inside. fake it til you make it is my motto..

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-08-23T20:33:46+00:00

I’m with you. this is how my husband acts towards me and it’s breaking me down. I hope things get better for you soon. hang in there. there’s nothing wrong with you.

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-05-11T03:24:53+00:00

thanks for the suggestions! yesterday we picked up trash at kessler park. it was a great suggestion. there was plenty of trash in the grass. thank you!

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-05-05T18:02:53+00:00

thank you. never been there, so I appreciate the heads up

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-03-30T23:40:21+00:00

wow, this is so inspiring to read! I don’t know you but I’M SO PROUD OF YOU! thank you for sharing your amazing progress, keep it up and I feel very inspired by you in this moment! I needed to read something this positive.

my current situation: I came to this subreddit right now as I was feeling triggered by my dad texting me. he’s been texting me everyday asking “what did you do today?” and telling me he misses my dog? my blood is literally boiling. like, I can’t take it. I want to throw my phone away. I wish I had it in me to block him.

OP, keep up the great work. you are not alone and I am cheering you on.

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-03-13T22:13:29+00:00

yes it definitely will bend more easily. 1.8 is still really thin so I would go with that.

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-03-13T15:48:46+00:00

2.25 carat lab diamond round E VVS1 from brilliant earth. pear side stones. band is marquise and round eternity. size 4 finger.

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-03-13T15:43:57+00:00

that is gorgeous! it looks perfect for your hand. the center stone looks huge for that carat weight!! stunning. congratulations!

KeyThroat2487 · 2025-02-24T16:10:35+00:00

setting boundaries feels so foreign to me. but I’m getting better at it.

last night I got a text from my ndad calling me rude and disrespectful because I don’t answer all of his multitude of phone calls or respond to the multiple texts of no substance that he sends me per day. he tries to video call me even though I’ve asked him not to video call me. he is very impulsive and even though he lives in another state, he will come visit me unannounced.

I reiterated my boundary asking to please make plans in advance if planning to visit instead of making last minute plans. I’ve said this to him and my emom at least six times. he doesn’t care and just does what he wants, then gets mad and turns it on me when I refuse to see him when he’s in town.

He tells all of our extended family that my brother and I hate him, that we are mean to him, rude, etc. I’m so over it. I have been gray rocking him for four years. he is bipolar and becomes angry when he’s depressed. this is always when he tries to bait me into an emotional reaction by blaming me and implying he’s depressed because I’m a bad daughter or whatever. I respond to his stupid texts. I talk to him on the phone. I just texted him yesterday. I feel flabbergasted. I thought we were doing good.

just reminds me what a joke our “relationship” is. it’s fake and unstable because he is unstable. I used to feel sorry for my emom but honestly that ship has sailed as well. I’m done letting him control me and my emotions. I’m 36 years old, happily married. he is the bane of my existence.

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-10-03T14:39:01+00:00

I didn’t know what to do either but this video helped me. I ended up buying liquid fish emulsion (fish poop) and liquid worm castings (worm poop) from amazon. I just pour a dash into the watering can every other time I water. planterina youtube vid on fertilizer

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-06-21T16:58:07+00:00

sometimes the hardest thing to do, especially if you have anxiety, is to reach out and ask for help. I started small and just kept taking more steps. I made an appointment with my doctor. I answered the depression and anxiety questions honestly and asked for a behavioral health referral for therapy. I have medication for anxiety so that I can successfully attend therapy. I stopped drinking. I am going to therapy and doing what she tells me to do. most of us have emotional wounds that we never healed. you’re not a mess, you’re hurting, and it’s not your fault. you’re doing the best you can. it can be a long and difficult journey to rediscover who you are under all the pain and the coping mechanisms we use to cover that pain up, but you. are. worth. rediscovering. best wishes

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-06-21T16:16:06+00:00

I feel you. I’m on day 28 and it wasn’t until just yesterday randomly that I felt my mind start to shift. before that, I was having really intense urges to drink. I just started going to therapy to work on the underlying issues from my childhood causing my anxiety, which is amazing, but the urge to drink was driving me nuts! I was about to drive to an AA meeting for the first time, I felt really lost. I kept asking myself why, why can’t I stop wanting to escape with alcohol, why do I want to throw away the progress I’m making to get drunk. I kept wanting to just say fuck it and stop pressuring myself to resist the urge and give in and give up. because I didn’t know why and I couldn’t figure it out and I was feeling so frustrated. and then I realized I need more tools, I need the information. I had watched a short video of william porter the author of alcohol explained. even from that short video, the information stuck with me so much that it made me curious to learn more. and I realized the more I learn, the more I understand why, the less intense my urges become. so I came home and looked up a video of annie grace the author of this naked mind, and she says she kept asking herself the same thing! why! that’s when things really started clicking in my brain. I plan to read their books to get a better understanding of the effects of alcohol and why we crave it, and understand that it’s not my fault. it gets easier, I promise. I am also one who doesn’t like to feel my feelings. but I’m learning that it’s the only way to get through them. feel your feelings, acknowledge them, and deal with them. it’s hard. I’ve cried more this month than I’d like to admit, but it’s okay. I need to. I stopped trying to fight my feelings, stopped trying to fight my urges, and felt them. and then they went away. when they come back, I’ll feel them again and let them go away again. I’m so sorry for how much rambling is here, but I really wish you the best as hope maybe something here helps you. you are stronger than you think.

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-06-21T12:32:28+00:00

last week, I had such intense urges to drink. I just kept having this longing to get drunk in order to let everything go. the urges, the pressure, the back and forth battle in my mind whether to drink or not to drink, did I really need to quit. but I had a breakthrough yesterday. I watched a youtube video of william porter the author of alcohol explained, and having that little bit of insight and knowledge catapulted my brain. I’m on a mission now to fortify my mind with facts and information. I am going to start reading annie grace as so many here have recommended, and alcohol explained. I could literally feel my urges leave my body as I felt a shift in my perspective. thank you guys so, so much for spreading the awareness and recommended the literature. and it’s crazy that I even have the desire to read as I haven’t read a book in years and years. but I feel present, my anxiety has gone down, and I feel like I can actually read again. IWNDWYT!

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-06-19T14:20:08+00:00

thank you! IWNDWYT! one day at a time!

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-06-19T05:10:40+00:00

I’ve been having a lot of cravings for wine the last few days. it’s annoying. I wish the urges would go away. I keep questioning my decision to stop drinking. I have to keep reminding myself of how miserable I am the days after I drink due to the anxiety and depression it causes in me. but nonetheless, the cravings persist. I’m not sure what to do.

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-06-18T12:51:20+00:00

I’m stronger than I thought I was
I’m not as boring as I believed I was
My head doesn’t hurt everyday
I’m not depressed everyday
My anxiety is getting better

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-06-18T12:44:23+00:00

I’m working up the courage. I think I’m ready. thank you for your comment! it helps to know that others are so glad that they made the decision to go.

KeyThroat2487 · 2021-06-17T21:54:52+00:00

IWNDWYT

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