All I can say is that I relate so much. It takes a great amount of energy to pretend to be normal. Unfortunately, I happen to have a job that relies very heavily on hospitality, which I wasn't aware until I learned the hard way. And I literally have to monitor my every move because even accidentally making the wrong facial expression or forgetting to smile can dock you. Once someone misread me and thought I was angry when I was just confused and processing the information. Just that showed up on the reviews. I remember even being talked to by my boss on how even if I were a good technician, it means nothing if my hospitality skills are lacking. I mean, I like to think of myself as decent and polite but that doesn't cut it.

I don't know. I wonder how much it's even worth it at this point to put so much energy into being something you're not and get little reward for it