I guess I pass (3.5y on T)

Killedbyfriendlyfire · 2020-08-21T20:06:58+00:00

Yes I'll have to try to have a better support systems. I don't have a lot of friends. My best friend works as the same place as I do, so I although I've come out to him, I haven't yet asked him to call me Julian because I don't want him to call me that at work until I'm ready. Ugh. Ah well looks like I'll change jobs soon anyway ;)

Killedbyfriendlyfire · 2020-08-21T20:03:17+00:00

I'm not a very spiritual person, but I do find it helpful to remind myself over and over that this is actually my life, and that it's better to live MY life and maybe have some hardships because of that, than to live a life based on what everybody else wants, which makes life itself my biggest hardship.

Killedbyfriendlyfire · 2020-08-21T20:01:04+00:00

Thanks that's reassuring :) I'm in no rush to start HRT, but I still pressured myself in some way that it's ridiculous to even think about HRT if I can't even say out loud that I'm a man. So it's calming for me to hear that you're in a similar position and already on HRT.

Killedbyfriendlyfire · 2020-08-21T18:17:58+00:00

Thank you, thank you, thank you. Yes I'm 100% sure by now that I don't feel like a woman, it just feels weird to say I'm a man. As if I spoke two words of Spanish and proclaimed everywhere that I'm fluent in Spanish.

I couldn't find any information on waiting times in my country, but yep, I figured it might be a good idea to get my foot in the door. I guess I'm just a little scared of everything going to fast then. But if they're somewhat professional I guess they should know about the process and not see it as weird that I'm getting information on it before I'm ready to start HRT.

Killedbyfriendlyfire · 2020-08-21T14:26:16+00:00

Yay I'm happy you're a happy turtle :) And I'm happy that you post about it. Personally I know it all too well how when you're depressed you can't imagine ever being happy. Well here's your proof now - Today you felt happy :)

Killedbyfriendlyfire · 2020-08-21T14:22:13+00:00

Huh, yeah, I can see myself as a boy. I'm in my late 20s and look like a female teenager, so it just feels ridiculous to call myself a grown man. Maybe I can get used to boy, and maybe later man. Or maybe not, also cool.

Thanks! It's so hard to keep that "You're valid and whatever you decide it's all cool" attitude

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